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[-Me and pride had made a pact that we don't need no help-]
Another day, another dollar. Amazing how the work day drags and the second I walk out of work... BAM, time is flying right on by. Why? WHY? Ugh. I remember a time when I had two jobs and was working like 75 hours a week. I look back on it now and can't fucking believe it.. I think a lot of it was due to anxiety. I was always so built up inside.. I ( Read more... ) -
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Ughhhhhh. When will I ever learn not to volunteer to work on the weekends?! Oh yeah.. right after I learn how to budget without needing overtime Bahahaha. More more hourrrrrr
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[-friends forever-]
Making this a quick one.. Just getting home from dinner with an old friend. She's probably one of the oldest friends I have. Ewe! Moved from Poland in 2nd grade. Ha, I remember it like it was yesterday. I would bet money I was her first friend. She was probably mine, too. She's like one of those people who never changed. She was always real.. it's ( Read more... ) -
[-here i go, scream my lungs out to try and get to you-]
Ding dong, the witch is dead. JUST KIDDING. The with does not really die, now does she? I wanted to go through this today and see what I was up to when I was like 14 years old.. but I decided against it.. mainly because I'm too lazy at this time. I got a new laptop recently.. well, Jim got a new laptop that he needs for school and I decided to take ( Read more... ) -
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whoaaaa. this is interesting, lol. i don't exactly know why i actually logged back into this. i am at work, with nothing to do.. okay, that's a lie.. i have plenty to do, but no motivation to do any of it. i try and remember how things were when i used to have this for an outlet. i think i was better back then at regulating myself, but who knows. ( Read more... ) -
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How far can regret really take us?
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But if there's a pill to help me forget, god knows I haven't found it yet. But I'm dying to, god I'm trying to. Trying not to love you, only goes so far. Trying not to need you is tearing me apart. Can't see the silver lining, down here on the floor. And I just keep on trying, but I don't know what for. Cause trying not to love you, only makes me ( Read more... ) -
[-she's falling apart waiting for superman to pick her up in his arms-]
they say you don't know what you got till it's gone. is that really true? i guess so. it's so hard lately. April set me off. Set me off into thinking and doing stupid fucking things. because april is when my life changed for the better. come july, that's when i'll be reminded how it was changed forever. i don't know why i'm taking 50 steps back, ( Read more... ) -
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God give me the strength to stay stable during the month of April.
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[-i gave it everything i had, and lord it just wasnt enough-]
sometimes i'm in awe how far i've come. when this entire "situation" began, i really didn't see a way out.. there was no light at the end of the tunnel, there was no room for a new beginning or a happy ending. there wasn't much for anything anymore. maybe that's what a fucked up life will reward you with--resilience. i mean granted, everyone has ( Read more... )