"Never you mind what I see in you ( Read more... )

happiness ( Read more... )

i think it's in human nature to dwell. i mean.. we all talk shit about how we hate the past and want the future and this and that and the other thing..but do we ever really move on? there's shit i swear to myself that i've moved on from.. but if i sit and think about them hard enough i find myself being bothered by them. like not so bothered to the ( Read more... )

i don't really see the sense in working hard any more.. it gets you know where. for years, i have done nothing but worked my ass off for my job. i've literally dropped EVERYTHING, i cant remember how many times, to help them when they needed me.. and yet, i'm ALWAYS on the shit list, ALWAYS in trouble, ALWAYS. now i can't return because theres some ( Read more... )

why the hell am i so tired? i don't understand. i should have went to bed earlier last night, but i have a feeling that would be feeling his way anyway.. meh. i am waiting on class.. i am praying that we get out early tonight..like 8. then tim will be here and i can just go home, and die. i worked this morning.. it wasn't all that bad because i ( Read more... )

I always lose the words lately. The words that I know I want to speak, but I think they are so buried, I just can't ever find them. I have so much on my mind right now, but I don't really know how to process any of it. I am listening to Yellowcard. I love them so much. Whenever I am feeling anything--happy, sad, excited, loved, left--anything.. I ( Read more... )

oh shit.. isnt the world supposed to end tomorrow?
december is appearing to be the shittest month of the year.
premonition??

I need to get away from the media, even though that is virtually impossible. Tragedy strikes, tragedy is everywhere for the next few weeks. On Facebook, on the tv, on the radio. Everywhere. And I hear information or see pictures that I've already seen or heard multiple times and it doesn't even matter.. They hit me like it's the first time I've ( Read more... )

I always said I wanted kids, you know. There was never any doubt in my mind.. Until now. Why bring a child into such a fucked up world. A world where they can't even go to school. Safety is no where. Innocence can be lost at any second, at such a young age. Photos are coming out, names are being released, and my heart is still so heavy it ( Read more... )

damn, i hate being cold. it really sucks. i feel like this room refuses to heat up. my stomach also hurts at the moment. bahaha, i could totally and completely complain nonstop.. for days. anyway. i dont know why i am updating.. i just.. i dont even know. i'm depressed. like i dont even know why. i am getting my period, that's for sure. my birthday ( Read more... )