Am I loud and clear or am I breaking up?
Am I still your charm or am I just bad luck?
Are we getting closer, or are we just getting more lost?

I'll show you mine if you show me yours first,
Let's compare scars I'll tell you whose is worse.
Let's unwrite these pages and replace them with our own words.

We live on front porches and swing life away,
We get ( Read more... )

I'm shooting for october 6th.
goodbye syracuse winters...goodbye muggy summers...
hello dry heat and crazy accents.
hello empty bank account.
hello craziest road trip ever.
hello bestfriend and her husband! :)
goodbye bestfriend and boyfriend. :(
hello new life with girlfriend!
goodbye daddy :(
hello new puppy!!

so many pros.
but the cons do make me sad.

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Attempts at quitting --- 4
Succesful attempts----0

I caved.
No excuse is a good one.

I accept defeat, and any guilt trips i have coming to me.

my heart feels heavy.

Sometimes my dreams feel more real than reality.

I don't know how much longer i can stay off the cigarettes.
i feel my willpower weakening every day.
the reasons I quit aren't really there anymore.

lonely.

i need......

to wait until things are inconvenient for me, apparantly.

Waking up on the red couch always makes me feel like i have a million things to do.

Usually i do.

i drank too much last night.
didnt think it would catch up quite like that.
i need to stop mixing mediums.
but you know what?
I had a good time.

i just wish i could call into work on account of a hangover.

How much new music wakes up my soul.
Not even like... new music... just... good music I haven't heard in a while, or new music from a band I already know I like. Or brand new music to my ears. whatever... i just forget sometimes.

Gosh it's 3:20 in the morning.

Know what I haven't done in a while?
Put the lyrics to a good song in a post.
So here goes a ( Read more... )

I forgot when i quit.
but i still haven't had one.
not even a drag.

and every single day, i still want one.

Is it ridiculous that I have one?

Year One:
From October 2009 - October 2010.... Live in Hawaii with Erin, Christiana, and Bobbo.

Year Two:
Live in Texas with Erin, near Sabrina and Eric, and Heather and Keirsten.

Year Three:
Doesn't really matter where I am, but I would like to be a surrogate mother. This year can be combined with year two. I want to do ( Read more... )