It's been a long time, LiveJournal. I actually did miss you, I'm not going to lie about it.  A lot has been changing since I stopped writing around January. This online journal takes me back almost 4 years ago, which, honestly, really scares me. I do enjoy looking back and seeing what has changed, and I expected some change, as always. But what ( Read more... )

If you have a vagina, I probably hate you right now.

I hate that you never rememeber how much I care about you. I'm sorry that I'm not around as much as I used to be, and that I'm not you're "best friend" any more...am I? I really hate when you do this to me. You are one of the 4 people I trust, yet, EVERYTHING that I do to make you feel better goes unnoticed. if they dont do anything for you at all ( Read more... )

When you fall for your best friend?

The one person that knows everything about you. That hears you burp extra loud, and see you at your ugliest. He's seen me cry a little, he's seen me be mad about other guys, girls, and my parents. He's even heard me bitch and moan about Scott, our other half, and how in love with him I was. He's always been there ( Read more... )

Please, just keep me where the light is.

I was right, life doesn't turn out how I want.

You lied to me, you used me, you told me what I wanted to hear, and then dropped me. I'm so fucking sick of watching myself fall and then not be caught.  I want to hunt you down, scream at you and punch you until you are unrecognizable. I tried to apologize for what I had done to you, I was the bigger ( Read more... )

I wish I could say my life is turning around, but it's not.

"I love you more than anything. I've never felt like this before."

How can I not be happy. I want to scream from mountain tops, I want to have him by my side every single second of every single moment of every single day. He's all I've ever needed, all I've wanted, and he will be for a very long time.  He's right, I haven't felt this way about ( Read more... )

It's very funny how life turns out, how things all end up. I lose some friends, and gain 10 new ones, stuff like that. I have a group of people I trust finally, and that care for me. It makes me feel something kinda like happiness. I gave up completely on me and Mike, and then he calls me to see if we can hang out, "watch movies". I tell myself ( Read more... )

All I know is that this year, I'll have Lauren back finally, I hope. I'll have my girls back, my musical back, and my life back. I don't have to think about you for a day, if I so choose. You don't have to talk to me if want, you can be with that girl you like to sleep with. You can ignore me all you want after the square is done. Now that me and ( Read more... )