Today, I finally caught Freedom Writers and of course, under the most ideal circumstances - with my students. I mean, I thought it was really cool to watch a show like that with my students. And in my mind, I was thinking I shall definitely get my dad to catch this movie. Maybe then he will get an idea of what I am doing and why I am "wasting" my ( Read more... )

God is gracious indeed. Just as I was sitting here sulking and hurt, He brought to me through the words of Palmer Parker a better understanding of myself and my frustrations. I guess the "proud angelic" side of me was wanting to move the world on my own. Having started to see some fruits of my labours of love, I have become conceited, thinking that ( Read more... )

Today, I had a rude awakening. That maybe I was wrong. That just because you go all out to bring love into this world does not mean you can change the way the world is. That love does not compel us or woo is to do something we do not want. I had too much confidence in love per se. And then I realise that I forget I do not live in a perfect world. ( Read more... )

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"Solitude is not simply physical isolation. It is easy to be alone and yet continue to be in the crowd, to be governed by collective values; and it is possible to be physically in the midst of a crowd and yet to be in solitude. To be in solitude means to be in possession of my heart, my identity, my integrity. It means to refuse to let my life and ( Read more... )

I was just talking to my brother about his dilemma about what to choose in army. Or whether to get out of it. And he was being really honest about the struggles and pride involved. I am not surprised. I mean this is something that plagues all of life. There are actually many options in our lives that society will frown upon. Rosemary and I were ( Read more... )

This entire day was spent in NP office all alone doing admin work. And for some strange reason, I was telling God that I actually enjoy it. I guess work is really therapeutic and somehow lifts one out of feelings of nostalgia and lethargy. Or maybe I was just deriving pleasure from eventually knowing how my students fare and being so thankful for ( Read more... )

Every now and then, I will like to pop by the little pond at my house to take a look at Fin. I like seeing him swim and try to hide away everytime someone comes along. I will go check on him to make sure he is well and all. And ever so often, I will notice when he is not doing too well and then do what I can to restore him to health. A couple of ( Read more... )

Just recently, I have once again been presented with options. I used to think that the point of graduation was a major crossroad of our lives and that once we have made our choice then, we are settled. But I cannot be more wrong. For with every path we take, there will be more crossroads down the road and sometimes increasing difficult to make a ( Read more... )

Today was the last day of school for me officially. You have no idea how sad I actually am. The last day of school is also my last chance to address my students as a whole. This is my 3rd semester in NP and I think what I said today was the most moving of all 3. My voice actually broke. Haha. But I really appreciated my students and found it such a ( Read more... )