gov again
i guess anj is right, im now in the stage of wanting-to-go-out-gimmick-all-the-time. and because of that, i decided to go back to gov again last night - 5th time these past 3 weeks, and the nth time since we started going there early last year.
what made me decide to go? try "t" again.
half again. popped at 130am. 40 minutes after, still no effect. i told aba that i'll take another one at 230 if still no effect. 230am came, and i decided to empty my bladder and smoke before i take another half.
then while smoking, kaboom! feet started to feel numb, skin touching walls felt relaxing. then the tingling sensations in my head started again. my eyes were droopy; i felt light. at its height, i was just sitting down. it felt i just wanted to sit and observe people; if not, i wanted to lie down and cover myself in bedsheets. i felt very exhausted and quite sleepy -- it felt like being drunk and puyat for two days. i wanted to sleep, but i couldnt because i was in a club. i was just squeezing my hands to comfort my desire to squeeze others. even rain drops felt very good when i walked out to get some water.
in hindsight, i became scared at its peak. i wanted it to stop because i thought i couldn't control it. but whenever my "amats" would slightly die down (by talking or opening my eyes wide), i would just lower eyes again, then the sensations would return. smiling also felt real good.
but the whole time, i was just sitting down in an indian-sit position. hugging my legs felt great.
sensations lasted for three hours. i knew the feelings went down when i could already open my eyes wide and i didnt have to squeeze myself.
i guess the other night, my first night, i couldnt feel it because i was too preoccupied with the sensation.
would i do it again? i don't know. i really don't know. but i'll see.
oh well, i never met anyone, even if those i knew by name/face were near us. i wanted to approach them and say hi. but oh well, that night i guess just sitting down and observing people dance felt better.
what made me decide to go? try "t" again.
half again. popped at 130am. 40 minutes after, still no effect. i told aba that i'll take another one at 230 if still no effect. 230am came, and i decided to empty my bladder and smoke before i take another half.
then while smoking, kaboom! feet started to feel numb, skin touching walls felt relaxing. then the tingling sensations in my head started again. my eyes were droopy; i felt light. at its height, i was just sitting down. it felt i just wanted to sit and observe people; if not, i wanted to lie down and cover myself in bedsheets. i felt very exhausted and quite sleepy -- it felt like being drunk and puyat for two days. i wanted to sleep, but i couldnt because i was in a club. i was just squeezing my hands to comfort my desire to squeeze others. even rain drops felt very good when i walked out to get some water.
in hindsight, i became scared at its peak. i wanted it to stop because i thought i couldn't control it. but whenever my "amats" would slightly die down (by talking or opening my eyes wide), i would just lower eyes again, then the sensations would return. smiling also felt real good.
but the whole time, i was just sitting down in an indian-sit position. hugging my legs felt great.
sensations lasted for three hours. i knew the feelings went down when i could already open my eyes wide and i didnt have to squeeze myself.
i guess the other night, my first night, i couldnt feel it because i was too preoccupied with the sensation.
would i do it again? i don't know. i really don't know. but i'll see.
oh well, i never met anyone, even if those i knew by name/face were near us. i wanted to approach them and say hi. but oh well, that night i guess just sitting down and observing people dance felt better.