a game of fools

[cookie5312]

aight, call this what you will, but hear me out. i'm fully aware that some or most of you think i've been an ass recently, and i probably have but thats not unusual. i just want to say that i'm sick of this bullshit whine and bitch behind peoples back but never do anything about it. maybe i'm guilty of this as well, but at least i for one am

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[geetchtsh]

HAHAHAA WELCOME TO MY WORLD!!!!

[joshunderwood]

that's so death metal.

[geetchtsh]

cause i am death metal!! :)

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[joshunderwood]

that :) is so death metal.

[gavril]

Now I very well know that I'm probably your least favorite person in the circle, so take what I say as you will. Now, to be completely and brutally honest with you, I feel like I'm tiptoeing through a mine field every time I'm over there. It makes me uncomfortable, and I don't want to deal with it a lot of the time. I know you're a cool person because I have hung out with you for a while and you seemed (keyword) to not mind me that much. But when I showed up at your house to pick up my PH for D&D, that made me feel flat out angry. I felt like I was being treated unjustly, because in my eyes, I don't think I've done anything to deserve some of the treatment I receive.

If you have any comments about what I've said, any criticism, anything, please feel free to respond. I would like nothing better than to get along with you so this shitstorm can end and we can all go back to being good friends. I don't like it any more than you do, man.

In short, if I can help, I will.

[cookie5312]

to clear things up, when you picked up your PH you were in the wrong, its not wise to show up at my home uninvited and without warning me at right around midnight, quite honestly your lucky i ever opened the door for you. i really dislike surpise guest for the most part, specially late at night when i'm about to go to bed. i really don't have a problem with you at all, sure you annoy me at times, but who doesn't. what really bugs me with you is you seem to just avoid the hell out of everything, rather than just dealing with it and getting it over with. you may not be my favorite of people, but i don't dislike you by any means(despite what whoever may say or they think it seems, if i really disliked you, you wouldn't be over here at all). as long as you aren't going to hide from stuff and just be yourself, i'm more than happy to welcome you as a friend. honestly i'm surprised you replied, just because you do avoid certain things so much. but i'm glad you did, and like i said this post wasn't directed at anyone in particular, but

[gavril]

I guess I avoid things because the likeliness of what I say having any effect is almost null. In response to the whole showing up uninvited thing, there was one way that we could have handled that whole situation that would have more than likely ended up with no feelings hurt and less future annoyances. It was wrong of me to show up uninvited. However, just making me feel unwelcome didn't resolve anything... it just made me feel unwelcome, period. If you had said "I don't like it when people show up uninvited, so ask / just don't show up" I would have left with a better understanding of how you want things to run. I would then respect your wishes and do as you asked, because it IS your house. This, of course, is just a suggestion. You can do as you damn well please, and I'm sure you already know that.

I'm definitely feeling better about all of this, now that we're putting our grievances out in the open.

[joshunderwood]

or we could stop blowing things out of the water. people said you were a little mean behind your back, and? i know people say plenty about me behind my back - the point is it's all tinyness abounds and nothing said really comes to any point. people are wary to tell things to us directly in lue of ourselves A) getting our feelings hurt. B) us reacting in a negative and possibly violent response. or C) being too apathetic and common placed to want to deal with turmoil. i refuse to believe our 'group' is 'dying' because we don't 'do' anything or do too much of our 'own thing'. we still have shits and giggles almost every friday night, and most of the time saturday too - no matter what we're doing. i've always been a big fan of just being there. how can life be bad when you're with friends and not cannibalistic taiwanese prison roaches? i for one don't think we're any worse off - aside the occasional boredom, but that's boredom - not an episode of FRIENDS. we're dandy, i think. but i could be blissfully oblivious to an all too serious

[cookie5312]

i know how you feel, and i understand what you say. the thing is the people blow thngs out of proportion and shit because nobody ever says anything to the person that annoys them or whatever (i'm guilty of this too). and people need to quit being so afriad to fucking speak. honestly, how good of friends are we truly if you can't speak your mind without the fear of ending a friendship, sure people may get mad or have negative feelings for a few minutes, but if you think about it those are better than people not saying anything and letting those feelings just snowball inside of themselves and making things worse. and nobody is really going to act violently, i'm really not that violent when it comes to that shit. the only person we really hit is kevin, and thats just cause its funny. and i do think the group was getting bad, cause after last friday and the weekend before i was about to not give a shit if anyone came back. i've grown tired of these childish games everyone plays in relation with each other

[redkommie]

I don't find it funny... oohhhhhhoohhhh

(ergo: hitting kevin)

[joshunderwood]

PS - i named one of my giant tortoises in zoo tycoon gamera. YES I AM AWESOME.

[redkommie]

I need to get that game from you