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cookiemilkshake

Reflections of an Almost-Jaded Hopeful

Feb 21, 2007 23:05

The past eight months have been a quiet and excruciatingly painful test of emotional resilience for me. It is probably the first time where my independence of thought and belief has been tested to its very core. I feel that in a span of eight short months, I have been made vulnerable, exposed to the elements of the world, and left to guard all the ( Read more... )

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hey anonymous February 24 2007, 07:56:45 UTC

Dear cookiesmilkshake,

You do not know me. As someone who has been in the working world for 8 mths, I can fully empathise with how you feel. The working world can be relentlessly brutal and one is often forced to abandon one's ideals in order to conform to what the world wants us to be. Resistance is often painful and futile and one is often chastised for holding on to ideals which we believed used to define how we view the world.

But I have learnt that in spite of all the pain, our ideals can help make a difference, small though it may be. In a working world where one is often left to fend for one's own interests, it is perhaps best to trust in God and let him lead you to where he wants you to go.

Genauso
http://genauso.diaryland.com

phreak82 February 25 2007, 15:57:47 UTC

"The one mistake I did make was to expect them all to be found in one place, for the simple reason that it is a place named after God, and was built to instill in young persons the values that God wants to plant in them. What I failed to see, however, was that while the building is named after God Himself, the occupants of this place aren’t God, nor - just like myself - are they anywhere close to being who He is. They too are human, and they too have in it them to make human errors, characterized by selfishness and stubborn hypocrisy. My greatest failing amidst all this was to go beyond hope, and into unrealistic expectations. Not only did I have hope in this place, I somehow, unknowingly, began to expect the people around me to behave the way I had idealized them to be - all-giving, genuine, truthful and unclouded by selfish ambition. On hindsight - and not to mention, after much cynicism - I have come to see that the truth is, no one person with whom I was working had really convinced me that she was worthy of the level of trust and ( ... )