i know that there are people out there that are happy. it used to be a concept impossible for me to grasp, but it's gotta be true. somewhere, there are people who get up everyday and go to sleep every night and are legitimately happy about it all. i don't know who or where they are, but i am determined to find them, hold a gun up to their face ( Read more... )

1. i curse... a lot ( Read more... )

i am dancing on
diamonds
slipping and
sliding

don't mind me
having a good time
at your expense

i view the world
through these eyes
like i would
a kaelidescope

broken bits of
everything
mixed and
mismatched

i want to melt
them all away
and create something a little more

recognizable

suggestions?
suggestions?

it is late
and
how dare you
leave the window open
to let the cool breeze
infuse me

it stings
like the back of a hand
on raw flesh
and
i
know
that sooner or later

i will close that window
from the
outside
and slip down
the brick

hoping

hoping

that the street
will catch
my fall.

i float in
outer space;
hovering-
while everyone else
remains on Earth
unable to tell
that i'm even
gone.

i stick
to you like
Juicy Fruit on the rubbery
sole of a worn out
one star

i am consumed
like the scrumptious artificial flavoring
of that gum
when it was still fresh
and new

i am tacky
yet frail
and i'm worn nicely
with uncertainty
and fear

i morph from stage to stage
never knowing
any repentance
but nothing real
either

..before we take this ride and let it slide into the cracks where fall and winter collide, i surrender all my gall in a song of modern love. remember, you're the one who summoned me above any other kind ( Read more... )

i go home to the coast
it's starts to rain
i paddle out on the water
alone
i taste the salt
and taste the pain
i'm not thinking of you again
summer dies
and spoils rise
the sun goes down in my eyes.

i've never been so alone
and i've
never been so alive.

i'm really grooving to sublime right now. i worried myself because i was listening to ani difranco just before and that's a sign of emotional breakdown for me, but alas, i've begun listening to something that makes me feel stronger, even if i'm not. it feels pretty good, being fooled ( Read more... )