My Mom on the phone today was worried about my health. I was like I am fine I don't need to go to the doctor. She said something along the lines of "It's no good if you get sick adn die. You can't do anything if you are dead."

I just wanted to tell her that death would be a relief from this life.

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I have to make some phone calls tomorrow. I'm sort of on my last option here. Sigh ( Read more... )

God I feel like I am working a full time job. Like it takes up a lot of my time. Don't get me wrong I enjoy the money and the job, but I am just super tired. And plus picking up extra hours looks good. I just don't like greeter rotation so much. I have a another long day tomorrow. But mondays aren't busy ( Read more... )

I really really can't be alone right now ( Read more... )

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I saw this driving down alafaya last night. It was insane!! The lsd screen was so bright!!! And wonderful!!! Lool. But still weird and crazy. Lool.

I have been having crazy mood swings lately. I will go from an extreme low to an extreme high. This is not good for me. I'm not pmsing. Sigh. It just hurts because I will go from being completely suicidal to hopeful and happy about life and me. It's not healthy ( Read more... )

God I just want to punch myself in the face. I want to hurt myself sooo bad right now. My weapons of choice have decreased. But I can't bring myself to do it. I just can't. And I don't know if that is a good or bad thing ( Read more... )

Quote of the Day:

"I love ET!! George W. Bush is NOT my president. ET is my president!!!" ~ This mentally challenged guest at work today.

I really didn't know what to say to him. So I said "awesome" then turned and ignored him and paid attention to some other guests. Then laughed with a co-worker about the situation. LOOL!! It was super funny!

I seriously don't know what to do anymore.
I just want to give up.
I'm just so done with it all.
I just don't know who I am supposed to be.

I love ten hour shifts.

Jet - Shine On ( Read more... )