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[coolestfriend]

As everyone leaves for college, I've become more and more worried. Since pre-school, you don't have a break longer than 3 months off of school, and here I am going into a 5 month hiatus. I'm so confused. I love school, and I've never been able to see myself out of it for so long. I know what I'm doing is the right thing...that I need music to be my

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[primarylight]

James, are you not starting in the fall? What do your plans look like?

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[coolestfriend]

I'm going to stay home and work at Cold Stone full time. In order to buy the bass clarinet I want, I need lots of money. I'm gonna take out a student loan, but I want to pay it back now, not later. I'm going to go to UNC in the spring, and start my schooling there. their music program is one of the best in the nation, so I'm very excited.

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[vivaciousveggie]

James as you know, i've had my serious doubts too (about what i'm doing), and i know there are alot of kids out there who take a break from school after highschool and never go back. I just want to let you know that you have never been or will be that type of person in my eyes. I know you're going to do great things. When's a good time for waterwold cheeriupidness?

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[coolestfriend]

You now how the CS schedules are. I don't know my days off EVER, and without a car and the impending moving out that you are facing, I don;t know when will be good. With you living in Denver, It would just be a matter of me getting there. We should wait until you get settled in there before we go, just for sanity's sake.

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[vivaciousveggie]

i dont move until the end of september dork! i was hoping to go for my birthday or around there... and i have a car loser!

[honeygurl20]

I know how you feel James. Ever since I decided to get out of AIC, I am scared that I may never go back. I am looking into some jobsnow to support me but I really need to go back to school. I want to cry everytime I hear from someone about starting school mainly highschool but that is not the point. I want to cry because as of yet I don't even know. That is one of the scarest things in the world to me. I want to start school again. I miss it so much it hurts. I am looking into a communitty college (the best in this area) and hoping that I can start soon. I hate this overwelming disapointment that I see myself as at the current moment. And being away from my family and friends isn't helping... I am so homesick that everytime I think about it I cry. I am trying to get better at it though... I hope the pain goes away soon.

[coolestfriend]

I spoke with Alyssa Gus. anout this. She took a while off of school to be at home. she told me even going into her second year at home, it's still strange not to go to school. I just have to remember why I'm staying home, and what music means to me. I know now that I can't stay away from school for much longer, and that gives me hope. Even if I tried to stay away, I couldn't.

[honeygurl20]

Miss you James!!!!