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i'm writting this in hopes of kick starting the engery needed to get shit done. i've got hella shit to do but instead i'm on here writting about how i need to get shit done, here let me explain just what it is that i need to do. i need to 1. finish my anthro take home test that i started last monday for which i stayed home from work to do, yeah i fucked that up. 2. i need to start on my ethnography for anthro 5 which sucks becuase the person who i was to "interview" is out of town and so i'm gonna have to interview this other woman who i was going to originally talk with, and along with the interview portion i have to summerize and respond to two chapters in the text book, one being about asain americans and the other about hispanic americans. 3. i need to work on my painting for my shitty ass painting class that detracts from any ounce of creativity i have at the moment. i've decided to paint a simpler picture of a southern spanish hill side. god damn i am not a painter or atleast not a realist painter, shit. 4. i need to start filling out my uc transfer application and know what i want to major in. i thinking anthropology but kind of feel weird becuase atleast two of my friends are majoring in it as well. i keep asking myself if i'm following others or if i really want to do that. i think the study of human beings is a worthwhile endevor and anthropology seems to be a field which encompasses close to every aspect of human life. i was thinking of psychology for a while because i really fancy consciousness and everything that makes it up but have been disuaded by the lack of humaness of the feild. by that i mean people are looked at more of as subjects and objects, i dont know maybe i'm wrong but thats the impression i get from the two psychology classes i've taken. furthermore i think that doing anthropology would be a good way to force myself to meet all kinds of new people that i might not otherwise have. i also like how it questions peoples perspectives and makes oneself look at how other people view things; its self critical. so yeah i dont think i'm just following others in an attempt to fit in or choosing anthropology becuase of a lack of direction. i cant say i have any pending questions i want answered through anthropology at the moment but that'll come with time i think.
ok what else do i have to do which i'm not doing at the moment. um get ready for the trip to france. buy a money clip like vicki suggested, talk to others who are going, find how much it'll cost for a bus or train ticket from bordeux to barcelona, make sure i'm goingto have enough money, maybe research the kinds of things to visit while in those places... a bunch more i'm sure.
i also need to start writting more, every time i'm bored or have nothing to do i usually just fuck around on the internet reading peoples journals or myspaces, and instead i should be creating something. wheather it be music or poetry or random thought musings.
i also need to find a way to increase my self a esteem, at times i feel like i've got no ego and have very little self worth, its fuckin shitty and i know how damn irrational it is. oh yeah i also need to become a better friend to my friends. not all the time but sometimes i feel like i'm not really communicating with people and am only hitting surface level, like theres no meaning behind the content of whatever it is thats being discussed. i dont know, maybe this self analyization wont bring about change, or maybe i'm crazy and this is all in my head. oh yeah and last but not least i need to find love. god damn thats probably the greatest feeling a person can feel. its cliche and all but whatever cliches are ok with me aslong as their not too cliche. shit i hope THATS not too cliche.
so i think i've wasted enough of my time as well as yours, so go back to wahtever it was that you were doing before i unloaded the anxieties in my like on your poor eyeballs. take care my friends, i love you all.
i'm writting this in hopes of kick starting the engery needed to get shit done. i've got hella shit to do but instead i'm on here writting about how i need to get shit done, here let me explain just what it is that i need to do. i need to 1. finish my anthro take home test that i started last monday for which i stayed home from work to do, yeah i fucked that up. 2. i need to start on my ethnography for anthro 5 which sucks becuase the person who i was to "interview" is out of town and so i'm gonna have to interview this other woman who i was going to originally talk with, and along with the interview portion i have to summerize and respond to two chapters in the text book, one being about asain americans and the other about hispanic americans. 3. i need to work on my painting for my shitty ass painting class that detracts from any ounce of creativity i have at the moment. i've decided to paint a simpler picture of a southern spanish hill side. god damn i am not a painter or atleast not a realist painter, shit. 4. i need to start filling out my uc transfer application and know what i want to major in. i thinking anthropology but kind of feel weird becuase atleast two of my friends are majoring in it as well. i keep asking myself if i'm following others or if i really want to do that. i think the study of human beings is a worthwhile endevor and anthropology seems to be a field which encompasses close to every aspect of human life. i was thinking of psychology for a while because i really fancy consciousness and everything that makes it up but have been disuaded by the lack of humaness of the feild. by that i mean people are looked at more of as subjects and objects, i dont know maybe i'm wrong but thats the impression i get from the two psychology classes i've taken. furthermore i think that doing anthropology would be a good way to force myself to meet all kinds of new people that i might not otherwise have. i also like how it questions peoples perspectives and makes oneself look at how other people view things; its self critical. so yeah i dont think i'm just following others in an attempt to fit in or choosing anthropology becuase of a lack of direction. i cant say i have any pending questions i want answered through anthropology at the moment but that'll come with time i think.
ok what else do i have to do which i'm not doing at the moment. um get ready for the trip to france. buy a money clip like vicki suggested, talk to others who are going, find how much it'll cost for a bus or train ticket from bordeux to barcelona, make sure i'm goingto have enough money, maybe research the kinds of things to visit while in those places... a bunch more i'm sure.
i also need to start writting more, every time i'm bored or have nothing to do i usually just fuck around on the internet reading peoples journals or myspaces, and instead i should be creating something. wheather it be music or poetry or random thought musings.
i also need to find a way to increase my self a esteem, at times i feel like i've got no ego and have very little self worth, its fuckin shitty and i know how damn irrational it is. oh yeah i also need to become a better friend to my friends. not all the time but sometimes i feel like i'm not really communicating with people and am only hitting surface level, like theres no meaning behind the content of whatever it is thats being discussed. i dont know, maybe this self analyization wont bring about change, or maybe i'm crazy and this is all in my head. oh yeah and last but not least i need to find love. god damn thats probably the greatest feeling a person can feel. its cliche and all but whatever cliches are ok with me aslong as their not too cliche. shit i hope THATS not too cliche.
so i think i've wasted enough of my time as well as yours, so go back to wahtever it was that you were doing before i unloaded the anxieties in my like on your poor eyeballs. take care my friends, i love you all.