Comments | coolmrkev: reminiscing? me?

coolmrkev

reminiscing? me?

Dec 29, 2005 01:36

recently i've been thinking about the newness i felt during my highschool years, particularly the second half. i dont know what has brought about it, or even if its really worth mentioning. i dont know. i just kind of miss not knowing what to expect and creating deep bonds with new friends. this post is actually pretty funny because just before i ( Read more... )

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coolmrkev December 29 2005, 17:18:54 UTC

that fear is a horrible feeling. i know what you mean. i sometimes wonder if i'm over exagerating and its myself just being paranoid. it seems strange though becuas i feel like the reason that i'm friends with my friends is becuase they'll accept me unconditionally. i felt that my friends in highschool were more real then everyone else. i suppose what counters that is seeing friends of friends kind of being pushed to the side and or discredited.(i'm sorry if this sounds like a continuation of my journal Via a response to you, you just sparked more thought is all)

but hey since this is all out in the open, id like to say that i'll accept you for who you are and if you'd like to, you should come out to the spaghetti factory with a bunch of us tonight.

()o()o()o()o() aptlylaconic December 29 2005, 20:53:21 UTC

dood yeah, socialy, high school was way cooler than now, things felt more relaxed and fun. fuck all those gangstas and hella parties, lets have a 5SR show in the HS gym!

Re: ()o()o()o()o() coolmrkev December 29 2005, 21:17:21 UTC

yeah dude, that'd be pretty sweet. i dont think it's very likely which is sad, but i did hear bram mention that'd he'd be down to do some kind of music performance for slopfest this year, possibly a devo cover band?
i need to talk to him more about it, but something like this should happen for this years slop fest.

i miss playing for people. real bad.

Re: ()o()o()o()o() aptlylaconic December 30 2005, 05:44:56 UTC

Every day for the last month I walk by Bram and say "5SR Reunion show at Slopfest". When he started ignoring me, I suggested he start a 5SR cover band with you, Justin, Carl, Ryan, and Luke

Re: ()o()o()o()o() coolmrkev December 30 2005, 09:03:09 UTC

smooth, real smooth.

anonymous December 29 2005, 23:06:56 UTC

Yeah I think it sucks that you guys stopped practicing. It gave you a repertoire, and the readiness to play a show at any moment. Now if you want to play slopfest it'll be a special project.

As for connecting, shit. I think you're battling with the most basic and most important thing I ever deal with either. Self consciousness versus losing your self in the moment. I just try to tunnel my vision down to whatever interests me. Keeps me focused and not caring. Or I try to dance silly and break myself out.

I'm always down to walk to the side to have a one on one talk. Large group discussions put everyone on stage, and turn the interaction into a story telling competition. I'm always down to break it down a little more and make some actual contact. The kinds of things you say one on one you can't say to a large group. It's too sensitive.
-Dan