Comments | coolukman: Earlier today....

coolukman

Earlier today....

Jun 28, 2006 22:47

So I have debated posting about this because it's very personal, but then I wanted to remember it for myself. I guess if it gets a little too personal, I can always keep this post private... or make it private at a later time ( Read more... )

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profundis June 29 2006, 03:38:14 UTC

With your history you would be remiss to *not* go check out any unusual severe pain...shit, anyone having a pain like you described would bear a checkup...things like that are warning signs, even if its just a muscle...you could have had a kidney stone or a twisted testicle (is that a punk band or a flavor of ice cream?) or something and hurt yourself more by not going.

coolukman June 29 2006, 05:34:29 UTC

Yeah, I'm glad I did it... I just wish it didn't hurt. :(

bradferd23 June 29 2006, 03:49:03 UTC

Huggs... I very much understand what you are talking about. After my bladder cancer, I had problems with my tummy. Ended up being an inflammed gallbladder. I was petrified that it had spread. I was thinking again that all this stuff was going to happen and I would have to go thru that all again.

If you body is feeling poor. Go, don't look back... and don't worry about how you feelings will be hurt. As long as physically you are ok, your feelings will heal. This I do know.

Huggs buddy!

coolukman June 29 2006, 05:35:30 UTC

I'm glad you understand.... It really is my biggest fear, ever! I'm glad you and I are both survivors.

Thanks for the kind words. ;)

HUGS

dmckins June 29 2006, 06:18:20 UTC

Too cool! Another healthy survivor!

Glad to meet you. Don't think we've ever been introduced but I loved your post.

Biggest hugs

bradferd23 June 29 2006, 14:28:10 UTC

I add you as a friend... :) just becaues you said you loved my post... :) Huggs!

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ucla_bruin June 29 2006, 04:01:52 UTC

I'm glad things went well in your trip to the ER. Stevie your worries were definitely legitimate and you know it. What would be the point in waiting for the pain to increase? I'm glad you're ok though.

*HUGS*

coolukman June 29 2006, 05:36:21 UTC

Thanks Eric... I know they are legitimate, but it's almost like I need validity for my pain. hah... I know that doesn't make any sense. I'm SOOOOOO glad it's not cancer or anything serious, but I wish I knew what it is for real.

dmckins June 29 2006, 04:07:06 UTC

Sorry that you had to go through all the drama but I think you were right to go. You never know and now at least you can sleep without thinking of all the hell.

Biggest hugs

coolukman June 29 2006, 05:48:10 UTC

It's all right.... you know, you are correct... you NEVER know until you get it checked out.

I'd rather be in slight pain and NOT worry about it being cancer than to have both. :)

HUGS!

dmckins June 29 2006, 05:51:30 UTC

Love yah guy... We will just keep you around a little while longer if you don't mind.

coolukman June 29 2006, 05:57:26 UTC

Aww, you just made me all misty! ;) I'm gonna be here for a while, so don't worry! haha.

Lord knows people have tried, but nothing stops a Mackin. hah.

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snowboardjoe June 29 2006, 04:12:33 UTC

I haven't known you that long, but did read some of your archives and understand some of your history.

For starters, you did the right thing. I figured something in your brain was telling you it was the cancer all over again. When you get that bad off and that suddenly, you still have to go in at check it out. The sooner you know, the sooner you can take action to make it better (whatever it is). You can either continue to lie there in pain wondering if you're going to have a life or fight back and find out what is wrong.

I have no problems with people that cry. For me, I cry when my emotions boil over. That's my release and I'm much better after wards. If it takes a good cry to get it out of your system, go for it! :)

Hope you find the cause of your pain and resolve it soon so you can get back to normal. I don't take pain well at all--I'm a wimp. It took some guts to write what you did and I appreciate that you shared it with us.

Take care and g'night...

coolukman June 29 2006, 05:40:27 UTC

Thanks for taking the time to look up my history. ;) That means a lot.

My old doctor always said, "Trust your body." So...when I feel good, I don't worry. It's only when shit like this happens that I get a little upset.

I actually cry a lot. haha... Don't give me a shot of alcohol after a long night of drinking beer! That's the worst. hah. Otherwise, I'm the happiest drunk you'll ever meet.

Thanks for being sweet! I'm glad I was able to let it all out in my LJ. I feel much better now.