we all cry at the same time tonight

[coopersnooper]

It's 4 am, but I really don't want to go to sleep. What if I wake up and it wasn't just a nightmare? So, I'm continuing from my memories of Michael. There's a good chance no one will read this or the last one, but it feels good to reminisce and get my feelings out. This is the sad part though...

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[magical_surge]

Such a strange, horrible day. I was working when I got the text and I didn't get much work done after that. When they announced it on Trent I broke down. When I called you I treid to be in denial, but it didn't work too well so I started texting mom for a virtual hug.

I just new I had to go over and all I wanted to do was hug you and cry for hours, but that seemed wrong. It was good to celebrate his life with you instead.

It doesn't make sense. I looked into his ranmdom ticket giveaways this week thinking that could definitely be my UK concert. In my head it's still a possibility. I don't think I'm in denial, but I guess on some level I still am. it's unfair.

[coopersnooper]

Thank you so much for coming over. Honestly, a lot of why I want to ride with you tomorrow is because I know it'll give us a chance to mourn & celebrate his music some more together.

[breaktown_bali]

Aww dear I'm so sorry you're having a hard time with this. It was always going to be hard, no matter what age he passed away but I think this came as a shock to all of us. He's going to remain a musical genius and a legend in everyone's eyes. You know you can always ring me, no matter what time. I'll stay on the line and listen to you cry. I don't mind. I did get your text and I sent a reply. It said it went through but sometimes I don't know if it really doe or not?

[coopersnooper]

Yeah, I got your text. I wasn't good at forming thoughts yesterday though, so I didn't reply. I'm sorry!

It's just...I don't know. Words don't exist for this. I really don't think there's another person who is as big as Michael Jackson. Not even Oprah or Paul McCartney or anyone like that. I mean, they say you can go to the most remote villages in the world and the people who live there know Michael Jackson. He's massive, and a real legend. He'll be sorely missed. :(

[breaktown_bali]

I can completely understand that.

I totally know what you mean. Everybody knows him regardless of who they are and where they live. He just got into everyone's hearts. I'm surprised I don't feel more than I do. Like you seem to be taking it pretty hard. I thought I would be aswell but I don't think I am. I don't know why? Maybe because I'm so sick, it's really hard to take much in at all. Maybe I'm still in denial. I think I took Heath harder than this.

[coopersnooper]

Oh, I'm definitely taking this harder than Heath. Quite honestly, I don't think any other death has hit me this hard...which is really pathetic considering I didn't know him. I mean, I'm waking up crying in the middle of the night! I think I'm doing a good job of putting on a brave face when I'm with people though. It's just...he's always been a big part of my life. I've been a fan of his since I knew what it meant to be a fan. He's such a constant in my life, almost a daily topic. It's just...there aren't words. It sounds stupid since I didn't know him, but I'm going to miss him so much. I know there are others out there who feel the same way, quite a few actually, so I guess I'm not alone in being like this, but there's no logical explanation for how I'm reacting. And to think that this is only a fraction of what his family is going through -- his kids especially. It's beyond heartbreaking to think about.