I am currently working my last shift at the movie theatre. I have two hours left. I am just hiding in the hallway of "the dark knight rises" and am feeling a little weird
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I can't remember, are you teaching abroad? I taught abroad and let me just say...you are going somewhere that probably does carry clothes your size...I went somewhere where I couldn't even find shoes my size, let alone a shirt. At all. I'm a size 9 in shoes. So...you are fine! You will do super well and have LJ you can talk to when things are crappy, but otherwise will do greattt. You're not making a huge mistake, you are doing something cool and will meet really nice people.
Oh gosh! I am teaching abroad, but luckily it's england. I did the whole "teach in Korea" thing and I think that's what is making me have these little clothing freak-outs, I wasn't able to find things that I 'liked' to wear for two years. I honestly look at pictures and just am embarrassed about how ridiculous I had to dress.
LJ has been my saving grace these last few weeks, it's been so wonderful to have lovely intelligent people give me a new perspective on things and just calm me down. I get super anxious and just being able to have a safe space to just release that tension has made this entire process a little bit easier.
Ugh, the worst. Just being back home and getting a regular job even though you really have done stuff with your life the past x number of years but you're going through a transition right now and this is what you've got to do. Idk about the people in your hometown, but I can already tell you're pretty freaking fabulous. They were lucky to get your presence again.
Also, don't feel lost! Feel excited! Seriously, it's just another chapter of your life and if it isn't the greatest one, who the flip cares because it won't be the last one! It will, without doubt, be an adventure, and that you can definitely be excited for. I'm super jealous right now, but also super happy for you. Let everything go and embrace what will be an entirely different life and definitely keep up on LJ about it! I wanna hear ALL the details!
I grew up in a small/backwards town and I went to this little private school and my family NEVER fit in and we were always the weird ones and when I moved away I really worked on myself and tried to be a more authentic person (it sounds tacky, but I struggled with being honest about who I am/was and what I think!) Working at this movie theatre with kids 10 years younger than me and feeling like I had to justify EVERY step I took just started to wear me out, but it also taught me that it is up to me to change my attitude, it is pretty much the main thing I have control over and it can make a huge difference.
I love you for saying all of these things, I was feeling really lost when I wrote the post and I'm really trying to focus on the excitement! It may not be the best part of my life, but it's the NEXT part and that's exciting!
HHHHHHHHI! I needed that right now. Feeling very emotional about this all!! Money and life are the worst things. (not really, but they make it difficult for me right now!!)
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LJ has been my saving grace these last few weeks, it's been so wonderful to have lovely intelligent people give me a new perspective on things and just calm me down. I get super anxious and just being able to have a safe space to just release that tension has made this entire process a little bit easier.
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Also, don't feel lost! Feel excited! Seriously, it's just another chapter of your life and if it isn't the greatest one, who the flip cares because it won't be the last one! It will, without doubt, be an adventure, and that you can definitely be excited for. I'm super jealous right now, but also super happy for you. Let everything go and embrace what will be an entirely different life and definitely keep up on LJ about it! I wanna hear ALL the details!
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I grew up in a small/backwards town and I went to this little private school and my family NEVER fit in and we were always the weird ones and when I moved away I really worked on myself and tried to be a more authentic person (it sounds tacky, but I struggled with being honest about who I am/was and what I think!) Working at this movie theatre with kids 10 years younger than me and feeling like I had to justify EVERY step I took just started to wear me out, but it also taught me that it is up to me to change my attitude, it is pretty much the main thing I have control over and it can make a huge difference.
I love you for saying all of these things, I was feeling really lost when I wrote the post and I'm really trying to focus on the excitement! It may not be the best part of my life, but it's the NEXT part and that's exciting!
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you are not making a mistake.
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