A hard learned lesson.

Kill this craving urge.
Now die monstrosity please.
It does hurt to ask.

I'm not sure what to say anymore.
There's no room left in my heart for anymore letdowns, disappointments, pain, happiness....
Just no more room for anything.
I'm so sorry.
I don't know where it begins or ends.

Music, you are my love.
You make my momentary moments of isolation...bliss.

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If you just walked away
What could I really say?
Would it matter anyway?
Would it change how you feel?

I am the mess you chose
The closet you cannot close,
The devil in you I suppose
'Cause the wounds never heal.

But everything changes
If I could turn back the years
If you could learn to forgive me
Then I could learn to feel,

How much is real, so much to ( Read more... )

Letting my guard down.
Maybe.
Am I?
Have I already?

So you think you can tell Heaven from Hell?
Blue skies from pain?
Can you tell a green field from a cold steel rail?
A smile from a veil?
Do you think you can tell?
And did they get you to trade your heroes for ghosts?
Hot ashes for trees?
Hot air for a cool breeze?
Cold comfort for change?
And did you exchange a walk on part in the war...
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While you make pretty speeches
I'm being cut to shreds
You feed me to the lions.

The worst best girlfriend you ever had
Harder to kick than cigarettes.

"I'm in a skip divided malfunction
I flap around and dive bomb
Frantically around your light
Enveloped in a sad distraction
I got your voice repeating endlessly
Could you guide me in?
Could you smother me?

No more common dress or elliptical caresses
Don't look into your eyes cause I'm desperately in love
When you walk in the room everything disappears
When ( Read more... )

BLADDER INFECTIONS YESSSSSSSSS

What am I ever doing in life?
It's kind of boring.
Well not boring but predictable.
I hate that I reached this point in life
Nothing ever surprises me anymore.

So I think im going to find a new myspace layout and lj.
skjghskjdfh

I know I'm a sinner
but I can't say no
Oh why can't I be makin' Love come true?
So tired. I'm So tired.

I'm spread so thin
I don't know who I am
I'm beat,
ashamed of what I said

Something's getting in the way
Something's just about to break
I will try to find my place in the diary of Jane
As I burn another page
As I look the other way
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