emotions suck i hate them they make you think especially when friends cheer you on. maybe its better if i say fuck everyone and leave i have been thinking of saving all the money i can an just traveling any place i can it would be cool if i could get lost in a foreign country. dont think it would happen. i have said for years that everyone will ( Read more... )

the last weeks have been i dont know something of an enigma i really dont feel like i am living in this reality anymore. tome just moves on and i am not. i have on the other hand been working my ass off at work and the haunted house. something just is not right with the world most people look over me when i say things like this cause it is me no ( Read more... )

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p.s. thats what happens when you lie to me sorry :) only not.

lose is the name of the game. i lose a close friend, a good car, an awsome life is now a shit hole. i guess it is my fault i should have became an ass hole as soon as me and cassie broke up but i desided to keep the emotions i gaind with cassie big mistake. i blame no one but myself. the good news is she is happy and it does make me feel good. ( Read more... )

party again tomarrow night at my place lots of whatever and if you whentomylastone youknowwhat it will be like. give a call 412-0316 or you can be fags.

fags!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

last night was fun i actualy found someone who can talk about serious stuff. and i had no idea that i know so much about physics and shit like that. my mind is vary logical and it is flawless. its about time. played pictunary and shurades also so see a little jason thinking as well. does any one want to go and watch Pirates of the Caribian bum bum ( Read more... )

why care? i dint know. life does nothing but hit me to the ground. so many times i have fought back and risen out of nothingbut this time seems meaningless. i worked my ass off to do good but what is good. and its not her forget her their is more shit that seemed to happen around the same time as her. i still love her though always will. but ( Read more... )

last night was probly the most eye opening night for me i a long time. i hated it but it made me see something i have nit seen.some thing i should have had my eyes open to.but you know me i dont pick up on thing very well.i just hope it is not a crushing realization.i would elaborate more but why bother, its not like you would care ( Read more... )

hey party at my place the 10th. apt J wants to have a differant location for a party so since i have a lot of free space and it is only to biuldings over i said what the hell.it is going to be huge. zack is going away to collage again so we are saying by and if you are going to collage stop by and we will say later to you as well for more info you ( Read more... )