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[cordiliachase]

I need to get out of McDs, ASAP. I hit myself for the first time in about six months today, and it was bad. I might have bruises on the sides of my head. I don't know how I'm going to tell Josh. Last time I did something like this he didn't take it well, and I'm afraid of what will happen this time. I don't want to lose him.

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[blackbirdsofrye]

*hugs* :( I know it's hard, but do your best. And since this is a problem and he threatens leaving you over this, he isn't being a good boyfriend. He should be there to help you control those urges and not leave you when it happens to show up again. *hugs again*

[cordiliachase]

He's not threatening that. It's just something I fear. Sorry if I wasn't clear. He's had these problems in the past, but he and his family were able to afford therapy, where I hid it from my family because I knew we couldn't even begin to afford it and didn't want to put the extra burden on my parents. He's gotten over his mostly, and I'm still working on it; it's just that because we handle circumstances differently, what helped him, isn't helping me second-hand.

[blackbirdsofrye]

Ooh, okay then I have read that wrong. Have you spoken about it with him? I mean, it might put him in a bad situation, however, given how he was helped, he may be able to help you a bit more if you open up the lines of communication. *hugs* Again, I hope it all works out for you. :< Is there any other place out there to work besides McDs? Have you thought about graduate school at all as well?

[cordiliachase]

I've been applying to other places out here, but no one is hiring (well at least within my skill sets). I've thought about grad school, but I'm already in enough debt with the lenders that I don't know if I'd ever be able to pay back the loans