mostly to use my Santa Simon icon before it's too late....

[corilannam]

So I've been a mess lately. An absolutely freaking mess. It's been so bad the last couple months that I'm seriously considering trying to find a therapist in the new year, as much as that ratchets my anxiety to eleven just thinking about it. My apologies from being so absent from everyone's lives - I've been reading almost nothing lately other than

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[slb44]

{{{hugs}}}

So very sorry you're having a rough time. If you need to talk, you know where to find me, and I'd be more then happy to listen.

[corilannam]

Thank you, hon! I hope things are going better with you, too. *hugs*

[morrobay1990]

Holy shit! Okay, take a breath.

It's been so bad the last couple months that I'm seriously considering trying to find a therapist in the new year, as much as that ratchets my anxiety to eleven just thinking about it.

Stress, bad. Shrink, good...go for it.

I was so proud that I managed to buy holiday cards this year! I got a set of cute Christmas cards, a set of cute less Christmassy holiday cards, and a set of completely non-Christmas season's greeting cards. Then I lost my address book. *headdesk*

But! I just found it! So if I have your address, you'll be getting a card from me. If you don't get a card from me, it means a) I don't have your address; b) I have an old address for you because you moved; c) I know you don't celebrate Christmas and am not sure whether you would appreciate a non-religious winter greeting card; or d) you live outside the United States and I've misjudged the amount of postage needed.WAY too much thought on Christmas cards…people you love know that you do...don’t fall into Hallmark’s trap! Even though

[corilannam]

Thank you for the cheerful thoughts! I feel much better. Focusing on the good things is definitely the way to go. :-)

Hope you're doing well!

[gwylliondream]

They can still end it as a gay porno.... right...?!!

Wishing you the best of holidays and a better 2013.

XO

[corilannam]

Oh, it's all a gay porno in my head. *g* And I have about six different scenarios in my head where it ends in gay porn, so it's all good now!

[jacquez]

Anxiety is an awful rat bastard. :(

My MIL is making scallops and pasta for Christmas Eve dinner. Christmas in a 100% atheist family is peculiar. Right after Thanksgiving, my mom tried to give me an Advent calendar. "Mom, we're not Christian." "Neither am I, but that's no reason not to have an Advent calendar!" "It kind of is!"

[corilannam]

LOL! Yeah, that's a lot like my mom and me, though I'm more like your mom. Tiny candies under wee pictures every day for a month? Why not!

Scallops and pasta sound delicious!

[destina]

I'm sorry you've been having such a hard time of things lately. And I'm sorry that the last ep of Merlin didn't please you, due to all the wasted opportunities. I really do understand. It hit me just now that it's really over, and that set me to bawling all over again. FFS it's been 24 hours, I should be over it.

Sending lots of hugs and wishes that life will get better for you in the new year. Anytime you want to chat, drop me a line. I am around. *hug!!*

[corilannam]

Thank you, dear! I'm glad you enjoyed the episode so much--I feel sadly out of step with what's left of fandom about it. It wasn't so much the wasted opportunities as that I just couldn't get past the pain of what was coming in order to enjoy any of the rest of it. It was like someone was driving a spike into my stomach the entire hour. It's been 36 hours now and I still want to bawl constantly. *g*

But I feel all energized to write again, which is kind of a weird side effect. *g*