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corpseus

to a lesser degree

Mar 16, 2003 05:48

MADMARTIGAN: Oh, Sorsha ( Read more... )

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christie anonymous March 19 2003, 08:44:04 UTC

Five Beautiful Things about Derek

1. Laugh

2. Eyes

3. Ass

4. Sense of humour

5. Vulnerability

off topic but documented bullshit corpseus March 22 2003, 19:13:09 UTC

so yeah i was reading old stuff in my journal and back then, damn i was in some pretty good shape. my prime even. i just was enjoying myself too much. i didnt read most of the middle bullshit mainly becuase it reminds me of how terrible i did feel and i fear bringing back any of it to the surface. i choose not to relive those days, but i am glad i have them documented for when i am ready to. damn i was so clever and sharp. now, i appear little more than a crying statue. i am static and not stepping anywhere, and just wallowing in my own sadness and wanting. the kicker of the matter is i am relatively happy, incomplete, but happy. being complete...it seams to be a passing feeling, but it is what i want to feel now. i have never been a "go getter" so to speak and just let life weave a tapestry around me. i want to change that, maybe but i like being layed back. fuck that, i just need to stop whining and be gracious of what life presents me.

i mean...it could be worse.

Re: off topic but documented bullshit meeq March 23 2003, 13:21:33 UTC

yeah we are always growing as people its just an advangtage that we write.