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Title: Changeling
Paring: ToBae(SeunghyunxYoungbae)
Rating: PG-13
Genre: romance
Word count: 3255
SummarySeunghyun nearly drops the 10lb barbell on his foot when he sees Youngbae enter through the reflection in the mirror.
When Seunghyun starts working out he makes sure to do it at a time where no one else is at the gym. He makes a deal with Master Hwang about the time and to not bother him about eating habits or pictures of his "progress." He already got enough pestering about what not to eat from Daesung and surely didn't need his pasty, flabby body printed in pictures all over the damn gym.
He works out after schedule. Sometimes he doesn't get home till two or three in the morning but still makes an effort to do at least a twenty minute work out no matter how exhausted he is. Coupled with the trip from the gym to the hostel and a nice, hot shower he sometimes doesn't go to bed until four or five in the morning. Usually Youngbae or Daesung are getting up about then to go to the gym. Well every day it's always Youngbae, but when Daesung's schedule is light he makes the effort to go with Youngbae in the morning to the gym.
Seunghyun can't imagine working out with them. He imagines his speed and strength are laughable compared to theirs. Though he knows he's getting stronger and more fit, he also knows he wouldn't be able to keep up with them.
But then again sometimes he wishes he could work out with them because they have to know some sort of magic trick to getting their bodies to look like that. Seunghyun of course makes sure to do every possible exercise and type of weight lifting. He imagines the others must do the same. He makes sure to alternate techniques and work out his whole body instead of just focusing on one part. But the results so far are less than expected. He finds lifting objects and walking long distances easier but there is little to no change in his appearance. His arms and legs are still thin despite all the weight training he's been doing.
One early morning he sort of gets his wish, although unexpectedly. Seunghyun returns from his schedules way later than normal. Getting home at 3:30AM was not unheard of but he thought he would've gotten home earlier. He didn't think the director would need that many takes for one damn scene.
One short drive and walk later, he was in the gym at 4:00AM and knew he was cutting it close to when Youngbae or Daesung would arrive. But he needed to work out. He does a few quick stretches before he gets on the treadmill and starts a nice slow jog. After a few minutes he adjusts the speed. He continues adjusting the speed little by little until he's sprinting and sweating and panting. Eventually his legs have had enough and he stops the treadmill and gets off. He paces around the gym slowly as he walks out the pain, breathing hard between gulps of water. He's about to go to the lat pulldown when someone enters the gym.
Seunghyun panics.
He's only wearing a loose t-shirt and basketball shorts. No one has even seen him in less than two layers. Not to mention he's super sweaty and completely unpresentable. He thinks about grabbing his outside shoes and making a break for it, unfortunately the person entering is blocking the only damn exit. Seunghyun sighs, defeated and waits to see who would uncover his secret work out session.
"Oh, hi Seunghyun hyung," Youngbae says with a smile, surprised. Seunghyun wants to run and cover himself or something. He wishes it were Daesung instead. At least he knew that Daesung would keep this a secret. Not that Youngbae was a tattletale, he just wasn't that close with Youngbae.
"Hi," Seunghyun says meekly before he makes a move towards the door past Youngbae.
"You're leaving?" Youngbae sounds disappointed as Seunghyun grabs for his shoes.
"Yeah. I'm done." Seunghyun fumbles a bit because he's trying to put his shoes on quickly.
"Oh." Youngbae sounds disappointed and Seunghyun feels a little guilty.
"Bye!" Seunghyun says with a forced smile and a wave.
"Bye, hyung," Youngbae replies with a less forced smile and a pathetic wave.
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The next early morning when Seunghyun gets back at a half decent time at 1:00AM and he heads to the gym, eager to do a longer work out to make up for yesterday. This time he's using the barbells when Youngbae enters the gym. Seunghyun nearly drops the 10lb barbell on his foot when he sees Youngbae enter through the reflection in the mirror.
"Why are you here?" Seunghyun forgets polite greetings, completely shocked that Youngbae is even there.
"I wanted to work out with you, hyung." Youngbae says it like it's the most natural thing in the world. Meanwhile, Seunghyun is having a panic attack. He quickly sets the barbell down on the floor, not making an effort to put it back on the rack and makes his way for the door. Unfortunately for him, Youngbae blocks his way out.
"Youngbae, move," Seunghyun says hurriedly. Shifting side to side with Youngbae blocking him every time.
"No." Youngbae smiles. Seunghyun sighs angrily. Well he more like growls. He stops moving when Youngbae reaches up and places a hand on his shoulder. "Hyung, I want to help you. I know you've been working hard but you shouldn't work out alone. What if you get hurt?" Seunghyun frowns at Youngbae's concerns.
"But shouldn't you be sleeping?" Seunghyun pouts.
"It's fine, hyung, really." Youngbae pushes him back into the gym and Seunghyun stumbles a bit, surprised. "Now you were doing bicep curls right?" Youngbae says as he walks over to the discarded weight.
"Yeah." Seunghyun doesn't move from his spot near the entrance until Youngbae gives him a look. Seunghyun slowly walks over and takes the weight Youngbae hands him.
"Now show me how you're doing it." Youngbae crosses his arms and watches. Seunghyun does one rep before Youngbae stops him. "No, no, no. Hyung, bring your elbow in like this." Youngbae repositions him arm and Seunghyun does another rep. Seunghyun smiles as he feels the different, better tension in his arm. Maybe this won't be so bad after all.
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It's been two weeks since Youngbae started helping Seunghyun in the gym and Seunghyun notices a way greater difference in his body. He's never felt this good about his body from working out alone. Not only does Youngbae help him do the exercises correctly, he actually motivates him. He encourages him to run just a few more minutes or do at least five more reps. Soon enough, Seunghyun finds himself being able to keep up with Youngbae on the treadmill and closer to lifting just as much weight as Youngbae can. Ok not really close, but definitely an improvement.
The best thing about it though is that Youngbae tells no one. Seunghyun is glad for that. He's glad that Youngbae is so trustworthy and caring. Seunghyun never even told him to keep it a secret, Youngbae just knew. Seunghyun then feels guilty in the middle of one of their early morning work outs because he remembers that he's never thanked Youngbae.
"Youngbae." Seunghyun stops him in the middle of his leg curls and Youngbae gives him an odd look. "I just... I just wanted to say thanks. Thank you for all... this." Youngbae smiles bright in the way that makes his eyes turn into little half moons.
"No problem, hyung. I really enjoy working out with you." Seunghyun smiles back at him, wide enough to make his dimples stand out.
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One early morning Seunghyun enters the gym and Youngbae is already there, waiting. His schedule had been more consistent lately with him getting home from anywhere from midnight to one. Usually Seunghyun would arrive first followed shortly by Youngbae. Sometimes Youngbae would just ride with him from the apartment but Youngbae had never gotten there first.
Not only that but Youngbae was shirtless and flexing in the mirror.
Seunghyun froze.
He wasn't a stranger to a shirtless Youngbae. Shit, no one was really. But it was just so unexpected to see him in that state. Seunghyun stares at Youngbae's muscles and suddenly felt like he had dressed too lightly. He feels the need to cover up his own shameful body in the presence of someone so well-built. Youngbae sees Seunghyun reflected in the mirror and turns around smiling.
"Oh, hey hyung." Youngbae's body is half twisted too look at Seunghyun and Seunghyun can see every little defined muscle in the smaller man's back.
"Hi," Seunghyun mumbles. Youngbae grabs his white wife beater that's hanging loosely on some nearby equipment and puts it on. He throws it on over his head and rolls it down his torso and Seunghyun swallows dryly. Youngbae catches him staring and Seunghyun swears he sees a blush.
"A-are we gonna get started?"
"Yeah... just... why are you here before me?" Seunghyun begins to change his shoes while convincing himself that he's not distracting himself.
"Couldn't sleep." Youngbae pauses. "I just got used to the time I guess."
"Oh, ok."
"Lets stretch, hyung." Youngbae moves over to the matted area of the gym where the wall bar is. Seunghyun follows him but stops in his tracks as he watches Youngbae lift his leg onto the bar and bend over it. He had never used the bar to stretch before. Youngbae moves to stretch the other leg when he notices Seunghyun just standing there. "Hyung?" Youngbae asks, worried and Seunghyun snaps out of his trance realizing that he was just staring at Youngbae. Seunghyun becomes a little flustered and moves to stretch his arms.
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There is actually one day where Seunghyun is simply too tired to work out. It's 3:00AM and he comes home and goes straight to bed. The schedules for that day were not only exhausting but Seunghyun is pretty sure he's getting sick. His body feels heavy and his face hot. He climbs into bed after taking off his jeans and jacket and doesn't bother with blankets.
It's twenty minutes of tossing and turning and covering and uncovering himself with his blankets before Youngbae quietly enters his room. Seunghyun, currently under the blanket, opens his eyes to see Youngbae's own concerned ones.
"Hyung...? Are we not going?" Youngbae walks over to Seunghyun's bed and Seunghyun doesn't say anything but gives him a pathetic look. "Are you ok?" Youngbae briefly feels Seunghyun's forehead before he looks shocked and rushes out of the room. He returns shortly with a cool, damp towel, some medicine, and water.
Youngbae dotes on him by placing the towel on Seunghyun's forehead and sitting him up to take the medicine and water. Seunghyun feels guilty because even in his sick state he knowsYoungbae is worrying too much over him. He knows he doesn't deserve someone as wonderful as Youngbae worrying about him. Seunghyun slowly falls asleep after the medicine kicks in, thinking about how he should pay Youngbae back. Maybe he should make him a nice dinner. No, with Youngbae's picky diet it wouldn't work. Or maybe he could buy him something. No, Youngbae would just feel bad. Seunghyun doesn't know if he growls aloud but feels frustrated enough to.
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When Seunghyun wakes up he feels warm and comfortable and a little weighted, but it's a nice weight. He tries to shift a little when he feels something move and mumble on top of him. Seunghyun panics a bit before opening his eyes to see Youngbae curled up on top of him. Seunghyun then really panics and tries to move out from under Youngbae but Youngbae curls around him tighter and nuzzles into his chest as he makes a slightly discomforted sound. Seunghyun blushes because Youngbae looks almost adorable.
It seems that Seunghyun's sharp movements stir Youngbae because he cracks open his eyes and stares up into Seunghyun's own. Youngbae then sits up and off of Seunghyun, like nothing is amiss; like they do this every morning. Seunghyun stares at Youngbae with wide eyes.
"Hyung? Are you feeling better? You had a fever," Youngbae says before yawning and stretching.
"Uh, yeah, I guess I must've just worked too hard, huh?" Seunghyun tries to force a laugh but it comes out weaker than expected. It's then that Youngbae suddenly gets the awkwardness of the situation that they're in and becomes distant.
"Oh! Um, sorry for... this. I didn't want to leave but I didn't want to sleep on the floor and I...." Youngbae blushes as his impromptu speech falls flat and Seunghyun finds it a little endearing.
"Ah, no. It's fine. Really." Seunghyun smiles in order to look more convincing but the blush on Youngbae's cheeks doesn't fade. Before an awkward silence can take over, Seunghyun speaks up, "Thank you." He says it a little too fast so it sounds less well-meaned than intended.
"No problem, hyung." Youngbae smiles his trademark eye crinkling smile as he gets up to leave. "You sure you're okay now?"
"Yeah." Youngbae is half way out the door before he stops.
"Oh, by the way. I texted your manager and got you the day off." Youngbae smiles hesitantly and Seunghyun wants to get up and race across the room and hug him and never let go. Seunghyun doesn't realize he's staring wide-eyed at Youngbae until his smile fades into a slightly awkward expression. "Is that bad?"
"No!" Seunghyun says a bit too loud and a bit too fast. "I mean, no, it's great. Thank you."
"No problem hyung," Youngbae says as he leaves.
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After Youngbae had left, Seunghyun decided to sleep more but unfortunately for him, he could only manage to sleep for two more hours until begrudgingly getting up and making an appearance in the living room. Seunghyun walks out into the living room to find Youngbae watching TV. He's surprised since it's weird to catch Youngbae alone outside of the studio or gym, his natural habitats. When Youngbae notices him, he quickly turns down the TV and greets Seunghyun.
"Hey hyung, did you rest well?"
"Yeah." Seunghyun stands there for a moment before Youngbae scoots over on the couch as a silent invitation. Seunghyun, not wanting to be rude, goes over and sits by him a bit awkwardly.
"Are you hungry?"
"A little."
"I can make you something."
"No, it's okay. I'll just make something myself." Seunghyun gets up a little too abruptly and heads for the kitchen. He opens the refrigerator and scans the insides, although nothing looks really all that desirable. He settles on a mixed fruit cup and holds it up in Youngbae's direction.
"Is this yours? Can I have it?" Youngbae gives him a look.
"Hyung you need to eat something other than a fruit cup." And before Seunghyun can protest, Youngbae is in the kitchen, standing by his side in the open refrigerator door. Seunghyun tries his best not to focus on how warm Youngbae's shoulder is pressing on his arm.
"You don't have to..." Seunghyun begins and then Youngbae turns to face him to give him another look, forgetting how close they are. Seunghyun is sure he stops breathing when he looks down at Youngbae's face. He doesn't even register that Youngbae looks disappointed. He can only concentrate on how close he is and how good he looks. Seunghyun catches himself staring when Youngbae shows him a more concerned look. He quickly shakes his head and walks over to the kitchen table to sit. "Okay f-fine. Make me something."
It doesn't take Youngbae long to whip something up. Even with the lack of ingredients they have, he still manages to cook up something hot and fresh that smells so good that Seunghyun's stomach growls in anticipation. When it's done, Youngbae sets down the plate of food before him and it looks too good to eat. Seunghyun smiles wide, looks up at Youngbae, and then back down to the food. He tries to look back up at Youngbae to tell him "thanks" but then Youngbae's lips crash upon his own. Seunghyun feels all the blood in his head rush to his cheeks and lips. It doesn't last longer than a few seconds and doesn't involve tongue or any special technique but when Youngbae pulls away, Seunghyun's lips are tingling and his heart is ready to beat out of his chest.
"Hyung, you can't keep smiling like that. See what you made me do? Now eat." Seunghyun laughs loudly, a little embarrassed. Youngbae is usually a mood setter, not a mood killer.
"I'm not eating this--" Youngbae looks offended. "--Unless you kiss me again," Seunghyun says as he looks back up at Youngbae and is instantly amused at the other's colored cheeks. Youngbae moves in cautiously, a little too cautiously for Seunghyun's tastes. Seunghyun closes the gap between them quicker than Youngbae can, cupping Youngbae's cheeks as he does. Youngbae moves in closer, grasping Seunghyun's shoulders before tangling his hands in the hair at the nape of Seunghyun's neck. Seunghyun thinks about deepening the kiss when he hears the beeping of the security lock at the front door.
"Shit," Seunghyun says as he pulls back. Youngbae quickly exits his space and goes to the other side of the kitchen, pretending to do something else as Seungri and Daesung enter the apartment.
"Hyungs! We're home," Seungri yells into the apartment as he takes his shoes off. In the kitchen, Seunghyun shoots Youngbae a disappointed look from the kitchen table.
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Unfortunately for Seunghyun, he's forced to spend the rest of the evening with the other members of the group. And it kills him to pretend that he's not thinking about or staring at Youngbae's lips the entire time he's playing video games with the rest of them. Normally nights like this are one in a million, and Seunghyun loves spending time with the group but the fact that Youngbae is sitting right there, lips untouchable, drives him crazy. He barely even focuses on the game they're playing. In-between staring at and thinking about Youngbae he thinks how he could have not realized this obvious attraction sooner. All the signs were there from the very first gym session. Seunghyun figures he's just dense.
It's not till it's late that he can finally fake being tired and head off into his room. He glances at Youngbae before leaving the others. It's ten minutes after he slips into his room that Youngbae quietly opens his door. Seunghyun is sitting on his bed and acts a little too excited to see Youngbae, sitting up straight as soon as Youngbae enters the room. Youngbae chuckles before crossing the room and sitting in from of Seunghyun on the bed. They exchange eager and knowing glances before Youngbae once again closes the distance between them. Seunghyun sighs through his nose into the kiss and pulls Youngbae closer with a hug. Youngbae pulls back too soon and Seunghyun looks sad for a second.
"I really like you," Youngbae whispers and Seunghyun is sure his heart bursts as he scrambles for words to say.
"Fuck. I just--you're amazing ok?" Seunghyun smiles so wide his face almost hurts. He holds Youngbae tight and whispers into his ear, "I like you too."
Youngbae hugs him back and Seunghyun can feel Youngbae smile into his shoulder. Seunghyun knows he's probably smiling like an idiot with a school girl crush but he doesn't care because for once he feels loved and celebrated and not like a shell of himself. He doesn't want to run or hide for once.
For once he feels that everything is okay.
I actually -couldn't- write smut for this. like usually I make everything into porn but this came out too cute. wailt. I hope I didn't write this too fast and then end up hating it 2 days later. ;;
as always comments and critiques are looooved. <33
Paring: ToBae(SeunghyunxYoungbae)
Rating: PG-13
Genre: romance
Word count: 3255
SummarySeunghyun nearly drops the 10lb barbell on his foot when he sees Youngbae enter through the reflection in the mirror.
When Seunghyun starts working out he makes sure to do it at a time where no one else is at the gym. He makes a deal with Master Hwang about the time and to not bother him about eating habits or pictures of his "progress." He already got enough pestering about what not to eat from Daesung and surely didn't need his pasty, flabby body printed in pictures all over the damn gym.
He works out after schedule. Sometimes he doesn't get home till two or three in the morning but still makes an effort to do at least a twenty minute work out no matter how exhausted he is. Coupled with the trip from the gym to the hostel and a nice, hot shower he sometimes doesn't go to bed until four or five in the morning. Usually Youngbae or Daesung are getting up about then to go to the gym. Well every day it's always Youngbae, but when Daesung's schedule is light he makes the effort to go with Youngbae in the morning to the gym.
Seunghyun can't imagine working out with them. He imagines his speed and strength are laughable compared to theirs. Though he knows he's getting stronger and more fit, he also knows he wouldn't be able to keep up with them.
But then again sometimes he wishes he could work out with them because they have to know some sort of magic trick to getting their bodies to look like that. Seunghyun of course makes sure to do every possible exercise and type of weight lifting. He imagines the others must do the same. He makes sure to alternate techniques and work out his whole body instead of just focusing on one part. But the results so far are less than expected. He finds lifting objects and walking long distances easier but there is little to no change in his appearance. His arms and legs are still thin despite all the weight training he's been doing.
One early morning he sort of gets his wish, although unexpectedly. Seunghyun returns from his schedules way later than normal. Getting home at 3:30AM was not unheard of but he thought he would've gotten home earlier. He didn't think the director would need that many takes for one damn scene.
One short drive and walk later, he was in the gym at 4:00AM and knew he was cutting it close to when Youngbae or Daesung would arrive. But he needed to work out. He does a few quick stretches before he gets on the treadmill and starts a nice slow jog. After a few minutes he adjusts the speed. He continues adjusting the speed little by little until he's sprinting and sweating and panting. Eventually his legs have had enough and he stops the treadmill and gets off. He paces around the gym slowly as he walks out the pain, breathing hard between gulps of water. He's about to go to the lat pulldown when someone enters the gym.
Seunghyun panics.
He's only wearing a loose t-shirt and basketball shorts. No one has even seen him in less than two layers. Not to mention he's super sweaty and completely unpresentable. He thinks about grabbing his outside shoes and making a break for it, unfortunately the person entering is blocking the only damn exit. Seunghyun sighs, defeated and waits to see who would uncover his secret work out session.
"Oh, hi Seunghyun hyung," Youngbae says with a smile, surprised. Seunghyun wants to run and cover himself or something. He wishes it were Daesung instead. At least he knew that Daesung would keep this a secret. Not that Youngbae was a tattletale, he just wasn't that close with Youngbae.
"Hi," Seunghyun says meekly before he makes a move towards the door past Youngbae.
"You're leaving?" Youngbae sounds disappointed as Seunghyun grabs for his shoes.
"Yeah. I'm done." Seunghyun fumbles a bit because he's trying to put his shoes on quickly.
"Oh." Youngbae sounds disappointed and Seunghyun feels a little guilty.
"Bye!" Seunghyun says with a forced smile and a wave.
"Bye, hyung," Youngbae replies with a less forced smile and a pathetic wave.
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The next early morning when Seunghyun gets back at a half decent time at 1:00AM and he heads to the gym, eager to do a longer work out to make up for yesterday. This time he's using the barbells when Youngbae enters the gym. Seunghyun nearly drops the 10lb barbell on his foot when he sees Youngbae enter through the reflection in the mirror.
"Why are you here?" Seunghyun forgets polite greetings, completely shocked that Youngbae is even there.
"I wanted to work out with you, hyung." Youngbae says it like it's the most natural thing in the world. Meanwhile, Seunghyun is having a panic attack. He quickly sets the barbell down on the floor, not making an effort to put it back on the rack and makes his way for the door. Unfortunately for him, Youngbae blocks his way out.
"Youngbae, move," Seunghyun says hurriedly. Shifting side to side with Youngbae blocking him every time.
"No." Youngbae smiles. Seunghyun sighs angrily. Well he more like growls. He stops moving when Youngbae reaches up and places a hand on his shoulder. "Hyung, I want to help you. I know you've been working hard but you shouldn't work out alone. What if you get hurt?" Seunghyun frowns at Youngbae's concerns.
"But shouldn't you be sleeping?" Seunghyun pouts.
"It's fine, hyung, really." Youngbae pushes him back into the gym and Seunghyun stumbles a bit, surprised. "Now you were doing bicep curls right?" Youngbae says as he walks over to the discarded weight.
"Yeah." Seunghyun doesn't move from his spot near the entrance until Youngbae gives him a look. Seunghyun slowly walks over and takes the weight Youngbae hands him.
"Now show me how you're doing it." Youngbae crosses his arms and watches. Seunghyun does one rep before Youngbae stops him. "No, no, no. Hyung, bring your elbow in like this." Youngbae repositions him arm and Seunghyun does another rep. Seunghyun smiles as he feels the different, better tension in his arm. Maybe this won't be so bad after all.
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It's been two weeks since Youngbae started helping Seunghyun in the gym and Seunghyun notices a way greater difference in his body. He's never felt this good about his body from working out alone. Not only does Youngbae help him do the exercises correctly, he actually motivates him. He encourages him to run just a few more minutes or do at least five more reps. Soon enough, Seunghyun finds himself being able to keep up with Youngbae on the treadmill and closer to lifting just as much weight as Youngbae can. Ok not really close, but definitely an improvement.
The best thing about it though is that Youngbae tells no one. Seunghyun is glad for that. He's glad that Youngbae is so trustworthy and caring. Seunghyun never even told him to keep it a secret, Youngbae just knew. Seunghyun then feels guilty in the middle of one of their early morning work outs because he remembers that he's never thanked Youngbae.
"Youngbae." Seunghyun stops him in the middle of his leg curls and Youngbae gives him an odd look. "I just... I just wanted to say thanks. Thank you for all... this." Youngbae smiles bright in the way that makes his eyes turn into little half moons.
"No problem, hyung. I really enjoy working out with you." Seunghyun smiles back at him, wide enough to make his dimples stand out.
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One early morning Seunghyun enters the gym and Youngbae is already there, waiting. His schedule had been more consistent lately with him getting home from anywhere from midnight to one. Usually Seunghyun would arrive first followed shortly by Youngbae. Sometimes Youngbae would just ride with him from the apartment but Youngbae had never gotten there first.
Not only that but Youngbae was shirtless and flexing in the mirror.
Seunghyun froze.
He wasn't a stranger to a shirtless Youngbae. Shit, no one was really. But it was just so unexpected to see him in that state. Seunghyun stares at Youngbae's muscles and suddenly felt like he had dressed too lightly. He feels the need to cover up his own shameful body in the presence of someone so well-built. Youngbae sees Seunghyun reflected in the mirror and turns around smiling.
"Oh, hey hyung." Youngbae's body is half twisted too look at Seunghyun and Seunghyun can see every little defined muscle in the smaller man's back.
"Hi," Seunghyun mumbles. Youngbae grabs his white wife beater that's hanging loosely on some nearby equipment and puts it on. He throws it on over his head and rolls it down his torso and Seunghyun swallows dryly. Youngbae catches him staring and Seunghyun swears he sees a blush.
"A-are we gonna get started?"
"Yeah... just... why are you here before me?" Seunghyun begins to change his shoes while convincing himself that he's not distracting himself.
"Couldn't sleep." Youngbae pauses. "I just got used to the time I guess."
"Oh, ok."
"Lets stretch, hyung." Youngbae moves over to the matted area of the gym where the wall bar is. Seunghyun follows him but stops in his tracks as he watches Youngbae lift his leg onto the bar and bend over it. He had never used the bar to stretch before. Youngbae moves to stretch the other leg when he notices Seunghyun just standing there. "Hyung?" Youngbae asks, worried and Seunghyun snaps out of his trance realizing that he was just staring at Youngbae. Seunghyun becomes a little flustered and moves to stretch his arms.
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There is actually one day where Seunghyun is simply too tired to work out. It's 3:00AM and he comes home and goes straight to bed. The schedules for that day were not only exhausting but Seunghyun is pretty sure he's getting sick. His body feels heavy and his face hot. He climbs into bed after taking off his jeans and jacket and doesn't bother with blankets.
It's twenty minutes of tossing and turning and covering and uncovering himself with his blankets before Youngbae quietly enters his room. Seunghyun, currently under the blanket, opens his eyes to see Youngbae's own concerned ones.
"Hyung...? Are we not going?" Youngbae walks over to Seunghyun's bed and Seunghyun doesn't say anything but gives him a pathetic look. "Are you ok?" Youngbae briefly feels Seunghyun's forehead before he looks shocked and rushes out of the room. He returns shortly with a cool, damp towel, some medicine, and water.
Youngbae dotes on him by placing the towel on Seunghyun's forehead and sitting him up to take the medicine and water. Seunghyun feels guilty because even in his sick state he knowsYoungbae is worrying too much over him. He knows he doesn't deserve someone as wonderful as Youngbae worrying about him. Seunghyun slowly falls asleep after the medicine kicks in, thinking about how he should pay Youngbae back. Maybe he should make him a nice dinner. No, with Youngbae's picky diet it wouldn't work. Or maybe he could buy him something. No, Youngbae would just feel bad. Seunghyun doesn't know if he growls aloud but feels frustrated enough to.
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When Seunghyun wakes up he feels warm and comfortable and a little weighted, but it's a nice weight. He tries to shift a little when he feels something move and mumble on top of him. Seunghyun panics a bit before opening his eyes to see Youngbae curled up on top of him. Seunghyun then really panics and tries to move out from under Youngbae but Youngbae curls around him tighter and nuzzles into his chest as he makes a slightly discomforted sound. Seunghyun blushes because Youngbae looks almost adorable.
It seems that Seunghyun's sharp movements stir Youngbae because he cracks open his eyes and stares up into Seunghyun's own. Youngbae then sits up and off of Seunghyun, like nothing is amiss; like they do this every morning. Seunghyun stares at Youngbae with wide eyes.
"Hyung? Are you feeling better? You had a fever," Youngbae says before yawning and stretching.
"Uh, yeah, I guess I must've just worked too hard, huh?" Seunghyun tries to force a laugh but it comes out weaker than expected. It's then that Youngbae suddenly gets the awkwardness of the situation that they're in and becomes distant.
"Oh! Um, sorry for... this. I didn't want to leave but I didn't want to sleep on the floor and I...." Youngbae blushes as his impromptu speech falls flat and Seunghyun finds it a little endearing.
"Ah, no. It's fine. Really." Seunghyun smiles in order to look more convincing but the blush on Youngbae's cheeks doesn't fade. Before an awkward silence can take over, Seunghyun speaks up, "Thank you." He says it a little too fast so it sounds less well-meaned than intended.
"No problem, hyung." Youngbae smiles his trademark eye crinkling smile as he gets up to leave. "You sure you're okay now?"
"Yeah." Youngbae is half way out the door before he stops.
"Oh, by the way. I texted your manager and got you the day off." Youngbae smiles hesitantly and Seunghyun wants to get up and race across the room and hug him and never let go. Seunghyun doesn't realize he's staring wide-eyed at Youngbae until his smile fades into a slightly awkward expression. "Is that bad?"
"No!" Seunghyun says a bit too loud and a bit too fast. "I mean, no, it's great. Thank you."
"No problem hyung," Youngbae says as he leaves.
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After Youngbae had left, Seunghyun decided to sleep more but unfortunately for him, he could only manage to sleep for two more hours until begrudgingly getting up and making an appearance in the living room. Seunghyun walks out into the living room to find Youngbae watching TV. He's surprised since it's weird to catch Youngbae alone outside of the studio or gym, his natural habitats. When Youngbae notices him, he quickly turns down the TV and greets Seunghyun.
"Hey hyung, did you rest well?"
"Yeah." Seunghyun stands there for a moment before Youngbae scoots over on the couch as a silent invitation. Seunghyun, not wanting to be rude, goes over and sits by him a bit awkwardly.
"Are you hungry?"
"A little."
"I can make you something."
"No, it's okay. I'll just make something myself." Seunghyun gets up a little too abruptly and heads for the kitchen. He opens the refrigerator and scans the insides, although nothing looks really all that desirable. He settles on a mixed fruit cup and holds it up in Youngbae's direction.
"Is this yours? Can I have it?" Youngbae gives him a look.
"Hyung you need to eat something other than a fruit cup." And before Seunghyun can protest, Youngbae is in the kitchen, standing by his side in the open refrigerator door. Seunghyun tries his best not to focus on how warm Youngbae's shoulder is pressing on his arm.
"You don't have to..." Seunghyun begins and then Youngbae turns to face him to give him another look, forgetting how close they are. Seunghyun is sure he stops breathing when he looks down at Youngbae's face. He doesn't even register that Youngbae looks disappointed. He can only concentrate on how close he is and how good he looks. Seunghyun catches himself staring when Youngbae shows him a more concerned look. He quickly shakes his head and walks over to the kitchen table to sit. "Okay f-fine. Make me something."
It doesn't take Youngbae long to whip something up. Even with the lack of ingredients they have, he still manages to cook up something hot and fresh that smells so good that Seunghyun's stomach growls in anticipation. When it's done, Youngbae sets down the plate of food before him and it looks too good to eat. Seunghyun smiles wide, looks up at Youngbae, and then back down to the food. He tries to look back up at Youngbae to tell him "thanks" but then Youngbae's lips crash upon his own. Seunghyun feels all the blood in his head rush to his cheeks and lips. It doesn't last longer than a few seconds and doesn't involve tongue or any special technique but when Youngbae pulls away, Seunghyun's lips are tingling and his heart is ready to beat out of his chest.
"Hyung, you can't keep smiling like that. See what you made me do? Now eat." Seunghyun laughs loudly, a little embarrassed. Youngbae is usually a mood setter, not a mood killer.
"I'm not eating this--" Youngbae looks offended. "--Unless you kiss me again," Seunghyun says as he looks back up at Youngbae and is instantly amused at the other's colored cheeks. Youngbae moves in cautiously, a little too cautiously for Seunghyun's tastes. Seunghyun closes the gap between them quicker than Youngbae can, cupping Youngbae's cheeks as he does. Youngbae moves in closer, grasping Seunghyun's shoulders before tangling his hands in the hair at the nape of Seunghyun's neck. Seunghyun thinks about deepening the kiss when he hears the beeping of the security lock at the front door.
"Shit," Seunghyun says as he pulls back. Youngbae quickly exits his space and goes to the other side of the kitchen, pretending to do something else as Seungri and Daesung enter the apartment.
"Hyungs! We're home," Seungri yells into the apartment as he takes his shoes off. In the kitchen, Seunghyun shoots Youngbae a disappointed look from the kitchen table.
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Unfortunately for Seunghyun, he's forced to spend the rest of the evening with the other members of the group. And it kills him to pretend that he's not thinking about or staring at Youngbae's lips the entire time he's playing video games with the rest of them. Normally nights like this are one in a million, and Seunghyun loves spending time with the group but the fact that Youngbae is sitting right there, lips untouchable, drives him crazy. He barely even focuses on the game they're playing. In-between staring at and thinking about Youngbae he thinks how he could have not realized this obvious attraction sooner. All the signs were there from the very first gym session. Seunghyun figures he's just dense.
It's not till it's late that he can finally fake being tired and head off into his room. He glances at Youngbae before leaving the others. It's ten minutes after he slips into his room that Youngbae quietly opens his door. Seunghyun is sitting on his bed and acts a little too excited to see Youngbae, sitting up straight as soon as Youngbae enters the room. Youngbae chuckles before crossing the room and sitting in from of Seunghyun on the bed. They exchange eager and knowing glances before Youngbae once again closes the distance between them. Seunghyun sighs through his nose into the kiss and pulls Youngbae closer with a hug. Youngbae pulls back too soon and Seunghyun looks sad for a second.
"I really like you," Youngbae whispers and Seunghyun is sure his heart bursts as he scrambles for words to say.
"Fuck. I just--you're amazing ok?" Seunghyun smiles so wide his face almost hurts. He holds Youngbae tight and whispers into his ear, "I like you too."
Youngbae hugs him back and Seunghyun can feel Youngbae smile into his shoulder. Seunghyun knows he's probably smiling like an idiot with a school girl crush but he doesn't care because for once he feels loved and celebrated and not like a shell of himself. He doesn't want to run or hide for once.
For once he feels that everything is okay.
I actually -couldn't- write smut for this. like usually I make everything into porn but this came out too cute. wailt. I hope I didn't write this too fast and then end up hating it 2 days later. ;;
as always comments and critiques are looooved. <33