I am so drunk right now that it took me five minutes just to open live journal. my cigarette has ashed all over the keyboard. when I'm rational I'll probably erase this entry. I can barely write, somehow, I took enough shots of rum to become totally insanely intoxicated on a saturday night alone n my room with just cable and stereo for company ( Read more... )

I hate the nappy crappy feeling I get when I fall asleep in order to avoid confronting work. I barely made class ( Read more... )

My cat is driving me nuts. She is adorable and sweet, and its not her fault if she's bored, but really all she does is zoom around the room ripping at the tapestries and overturning furniture. one day soon she'll break something. the small-time mayhem she causes is infuriating, this is so silly, I'm writing about my cat! I'm obviously on the road ( Read more... )

I am daily surprised at my lasting contentment. When my mind is able to wander into pessimism I think 'tomorrow things will suck', but it hasn't happened yet. Sure I'll wonder about my future or listen in on strangers conversations pretending I'm involved, but those are mere small glimpses of loneliness. truth is I really enjoying myself, yes, vain ( Read more... )

Its so odd, how you can be in a dark mood one day then wake up calm, excited, and best of all happy. My 'dark' mood has lasted for the last year, its been a struggle to keep myself optimistic since last january, maybe even before then....But on Tuesday I woke up and was unafraid, an unfamiliar feeling. I can't say what exactly happened, and why it ( Read more... )

Hmmm. I'm not sure exactly what to write or why i even want to. I suppose there isn't much to say. I've been living at home for the last couple of months. at first it was nice. I really needed a break from my overactive thoughts. then gradually days sunk into days and i became increasingly lulled into oblivion. disengaged from reality. oddly i ( Read more... )

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Wow, A terrible and awfully surreal thing just happened. The wonderful doctor who operated on me, my mother, my grandmother, and many other family members just died very suddenly in a plane crash. He was with his son on a hunting trip in Kansas, another father and son were on the plane too. Everyone died. He was such a nice person, so polite, very ( Read more... )

Well, I am completely ambivalent about the election. Both candidates were equally awful as well as highly similar. But then I've never been very political ( Read more... )

I've come full circle and I'm back where I began ( Read more... )