It's been a fucked up couple of months. Joel is here in town now. He came so we could try to salvage our relationship, shit happened, he left and started staying with old friends, started "dating" my old friend Ashley, and now just a few days ago we got back together and he's staying here with me. His car is still at Ashley's and we need to get a ( Read more... )

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Losing my blanket
I braced and paced myself for tidal waves of a nightmare
But I'm just sitting...
And drifting...
Fragments of a tear flow through forgotten channels
Becoming near to long lost shades of a calm mindset
It's better off this way
Completely lost, and no where else I need to look

I'm a writer, a poet, it's just what I do. But I can't even find the words lately. I haven't written a poem in a month. Before that it had been much longer. I think I've just become empty or something. I'm extremely down on my body image lately. Worse than normal. I'm trying to fast. But it's like I don't have the same resolve I did when I was ( Read more... )

Okay, obviously you can tell I've gotten a haircut and dyed it purple. Here are some pictures just taken about 45 minutes ago. Tell me what you think.


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About two weeks ago, Joel and I went to North Carolina to visit my friends and father and sister. My god I was excited. But I ended up leaving NC heartbroken. I'm not even going to get into detail. I don't want to explain why I'm so hurt from that trip. Basically I was left hopeless. I thought so much good was going to come out of it. But whatever ( Read more... )

Sum up your opinion or impression of me in one word, leave it as a comment in this posting, and then post this sentence in your own journal, please.

Yesterday I got a paper jounal. I think I need to actually sit down and write about certain things ( Read more... )

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This concludes Susie's test of LiveJournal's updating system.

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(_) I NEVER HAVE BEEN DRUNK ( Read more... )