honestly i just cry a lot it could be a lot worse i was Expecting a Lot Worse but i think because of the video game addiction i am forming (played yakuza for pretty much the whole day) i have been distracting myself from spiraling. and nero sleeps with me so when i do start freaking out he lays on me he knows. something about school i think, cuz ( Read more... )

i did this Willingly. the suffering at night is something i need to get used to again. purposely, i made sure that my pen ran out, and told them i had enough weed. i havent smoked since new years eve. it’s kinda weird? nothings really different but i do things now. And Feel Things. no longer smoking myself to sleep means i have dreams too. i’ve ( Read more... )

i am not a good older brother. i don’t know why. it has always been this way and i’ve tried but i don’t know what it is i cannot control it and i am really scared that i resent my sibling and i don’t know why or for what. i love them a ton i know i do ( Read more... )

i want a sweet pool ita bag

i saw you in my dream last night. i got all scared and weird and i tried to ignore you and your sister. i see her sometimes still, she lives in town now. but you know that, being your sister and all. i think i miss you sometimes but i think it’s just the loneliness ( Read more... )

i saw you in my dream last night

yakuza is crazy he just dumped his boyfriend and stole his car tears in my eyes ialmost started craNIHSIKIIIIIIII this is so beautiful. nishiki ( Read more... )

new year

i got some really sick gaming headphones cuz my stepdad accidentally bought em. i tidied uo a tiny bit still cleaning!! taking a small break. been on that yakuza grind been ok that real estate grind actually. im done two districts already ( Read more... )

akira is new he works cold drinks / does front by himself ( Read more... )