"everything's so blurry, everyone's so fake, everybody's empty, everything is so messed up, pre-occupied without you well can i live at all.................everyone is changing, there's no one left that's real........"

So, yea. Things sure have there ups and downs. I am so tired, lonely, bored, exhausted, worried, and just flat out annoyed by my casual lifestyle. I want to run away from here. this bothers me, i am a person who cannot handle a regular, nuttin new kind of lifestyle. I'm not neccesarily depressed persay. i just need to be free for awhile. i'm tired ( Read more... )

update. lol

I really should update more. So anyways, been doin good. things are great. Friday night i sang in my first show. oh yea! Actually it was no big deal at all. The music was strictly punk, it didn't take much. In general we didn't play well, do to having only 2 practices. Past that though, and what really matters, is that we all had fun. and lots of ( Read more... )

Yawn! man life is really tiring. go here go there, gotta make deadlines. yeesh. i miss "me" time. aaaaaaaaaaahhh that was nice. kick back rest my eyes and dream of life in other eyes. sounds depressing, but it's not it's enjoyable. trust me. so yea, gotta go off to work here soon, no biggy. i just don't like getting home late on a school night that ( Read more... )

Well, it's update time! man, i'm bad at keepin up on this. altogether things are going......pretty good i guess. i mean looking at things i guess that school is hard and i don't get too much sleep, but overall things are good. I'M ALIVE! lol. so yea calc. is very tuff, and sometimes aggrivating, but when it comes to the core like deep down, i kind ( Read more... )

OH MAN! i have been having THE time of my life! so i don't know if any one else has hit the stage where everything begins to change, friends, family, lifestyle, which can suck sometimes. well, i just experienced what its like when things come crashing back to the way they were before. Friday night.....oh yes....me, dave, jacob, adam, marc, greg, ( Read more... )

so yea, it's been way to long since i updated this thingy. So no......i have not died, contrary to popular.....and most likely hopeful belief! Anyhow this weekend was cool, got to hang with my bud jacob and his family at a car show in louisville. Got to the chance to see some really awesome cars that i can only dream of having. speakin of dreams, ( Read more... )

Sorry, this journal is dumb. I just got enough time to put an update in. Things are good. yay! Bye!

Back to work again....man it's bad. I wouldn't mind working somewhere i dislike if i got tons of hours or even some where i really like and getting few hours......but somewhere i hate WITH few hours is just rediculous! so yea i guess that fills you in on how work was. fun times. SIKE ( Read more... )