Okay, so it's been four days and I think I've had enough time to process this that I can actually talk about it now.
This episode was not only torture for Dean, but for viewers as well. The show went straight into the action and barely allowed us to breathe. It was really painful to watch in spots. I didn't need to see Dean torturing Alastair. Still, I think it was somehow necessary. Maybe this is a sort of closure for him.
I think Alastair was just messing with Dean when he told him John lasted a hundred years before breaking. He knew Dean has deep insecurities and chose to exploit them, so he said whatever he could to get a rise out of him. It does raise an interesting question, though: how much did John know? He thought Sam would have to be killed, but did he know about the demon blood and that if Dean failed in saving Sam that he would bring on the apocalypse? He must have known Dean would sell his soul; it's what John did to save him, after all. So I think the first seal broke not while Dean was in hell, but when John bargained with Azazel. Or ever before that, going back to Mary's deal. It was going to happen, it was just a matter of how and when.
More than anything, I just feel so bad for Dean. This is rock bottom for him - physically, emotionally and in every other way, he is spent. Then he's informed, “Oh, by the way, when you went to hell, you started the apocalypse. So you need to fix that now, too. Sorry.” As if he didn't have enough guilt already, now the fate of the whole world rests in his hands! But I have faith that he will be able to stop it, and I think maybe that's really the theme of this season - not Dean becoming a spiritual believer, but a believer in himself, and finding the confidence to take down these guys. Finding himself. Whereas with Sam, his pride is probably his biggest downfall, and in a way, that makes him weaker. Maybe Dean is actually the stronger one after all.
Speaking of Sam, what's with the blood drinking? I suppose since he already has demon blood, it's not all that strange...maybe it just gives him an energy boost, or something? It's Red Bull for demons! I do not like how Ruby called him Sammy either. She's completely manipulating him. Now she's his pimp and he doesn't even realize it. I think it would be kind of awesome, though, if it turned out that Lilith never left her in “No Rest for the Wicked” and has been posessing Ruby this whole time. Except I can't see Lilith just sitting and waiting for something to happen; she'd try to kill Sam again the first chance she got, not help him hone his powers. But whatever, Ruby is definitely up to something, and it's about time we get some answers.
If Dean has to choose between saving Sam or saving the world, which one do you think he's going to choose? He loves Sam more than anything, but I don't think his conscious would allow him to see the whole world get torched. As we saw in “What Is and What Should Never Be”, Dean was devastated that all the people he saved were now dead because he hadn't been there to help them. He chose to go back to reality than live in a safe dream world. Saving people is what he does, and he does it out of the goodness of his heart, without expecting anything in return. Whereas with Sam and John, their motives were primarily revenge, and I think that is the fundamental difference between them. That is what the angels meant by righteous. And if it comes to a point where Dean does have to kill Sam...well, I don't even want to think about that.
I KNEW Uriel was evil! I never trusted him. Plus, his name sounds like “urinal”, heh. I have to admire the irony of a blasphemous angel, though. I think they're trying to draw a parallel here between Uriel and Sam and Castiel and Dean. Sam thinks the normal rules don't apply to him; Uriel goes about killing those who would disagree with him to suit his agenda. Castiel is, for the first time, having doubts about what he has been asked to do. Dean, who started off the show by following orders almost unquestioningly and going so far as to say that doing so “is called being a good son” (Scarecrow), he gradually starts to resent what his father has asked of him once he is gone. I wonder if this means Castiel is going to have his own crisis of faith and fall from grace, to land alongside Anna and fight with her now that he really understands her position. I think that could be really interesting.
Likewise, with the parallel between the angels and the brothers, there is also one between Anna and Ruby. Anna is to Dean what Ruby is to Sam. Anna is an angel, but doesn't appear to follow heaven's orders. Just as Ruby is a demon, but seemingly answers to no one, and whose motives are even shadier. That has to be significant somehow.
Oh, and I'm glad to see Alastair gone. I really couldn't handle his Hannibal Lecter impression much longer. It was just way too over the top.
Next week: a funny episode! I'm going to need it after drowning in all this angst.
30 Rock - The Bubble
Things I loved about this episode:
-So, what do you think BFF really stands for that is so gross? I can't think of anything except...buttfuckers? LOL.
-Is it just me, or does Jack's iguana resemble him a little too much?
-Liz's Jack voice. "Nope, I lost it. That was Batman."
-That guy's Bill Cosby voice is amazing. Dead on!
-Liz's exaggerated eye roll.
-"The lady will have two tickets to the gun show!" I bet that is totally not really Jack in the picture. Maybe it's one of those photos that comes with the wallet and he just kept it and keeps telling people it's him.
-Gatorade and fish really do not go well together. That's just wrong. Also, Jon Hamm? Not that attractive.
I think I'm probably going to stop with the music Monday stuff, since nobody seems to be too interested. I'll just do it once in awhile. I do, however, have an idea for a Blair/Chuck mix, except I only have about two or three songs that would work, and obviously I'm going to need more than that. So if you have any ideas, let me know. :)