I feel like i am walking in thick mud that up to my belt line, and like a vice is copressing on my chest. things seem harder than they need to be. I dont even want to go to Alaska anymore. Seriously, it feels like it has lost value to me at this point. yeah I have been " working" on getting their to run this marathon thing. Now I don't really care ( Read more... )

Pams party went great, lots of people lots of fun. stress was at a high level but, the show gose on! for all who came, they very much enjoyed. for those who said they would be their no matter what and did'nt. I have a totally diff view on, and now know their lever of support and maybe friendship. but all in all thigs were well, i got to see my ( Read more... )

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Today was really tiring ( Read more... )

and the whole day/night was fun. I'll Leave it at that....

I just ran and smoked a 14 mile run for the marathon. I am still not sure if i will be running. Even if I don't, knowing I killed this run makes me feel good.

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I will do many amazing things, see many great places, and just make sure everything goes well for me. I am going to set out an agenda for my self and let no one and nothing hold me back. (not than anything ever was) I just need to do things for myself.

what is mater? dose it matter?

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i think i am just gona dissapear from everyone for the rest of the day and maybe the week. everything sucks! to fix the motorcycle it will be $1,800-$2,400, for a new motor about $3,000. car, rims dameged who knows how the hell and how much it will cost to fix. marathon, dispite effort, not good on donations and will prob fail at making quota on ( Read more... )