Naked, Blank Page, I Promise (Remus/Severus)
Title: Naked
Author: countess_hp
Rating: Hard R
Prompt Set: 50.1
Prompt: #32, Naked
Word Count: 1092
Summary: He looks so cold and alone. They have striped him of everything, even his pride.
Warnings: Implied non-con, Implied violence, major angst.
Disclaimer: I do not own Harry Potter or any of the characters.
He looks so cold and alone. They have striped him of everything, even his pride. He is left with nothing to cover his shame or his body. They stuck him in an old, cold cell. The floors have grime an inch deep. The walls have mold and there is a steady drip. They say that this is under a sewer main. He curls up into a ball on a mattress big enough for a large dog. Cold and tired he sleeps. In the morning, he wakes to a soft bed and the clean feeling of being showered. Looking around he sees me.
“Lu-pin?” His voice his strained and hoarse. I don’t know what they did to my lover. His body looks skinnier then before. His hair is matted and greasy. I can smell what must be 20 other men on my beloved.
“We found your memories stuffed in side an old shoe,” I say. The bottle had been found not three weeks after he and the other Death Eaters were put away. It seemed that only I cared about him.
“Good nose, Lupin.” I can no longer see the hurt and the hate that he held for me after I turned on him and married Tonks. All I can see is a scared little child.
“Thank you,” I say. He looks at me.
“For what?”
“For being good.”
“You should have never doubted me.” His voice is getting weaker. Severus needs to rest.
“Sleep, I will be back later with some food.” I turn to leave. My wife is fixing apple cobbler and I can smell it from here. She and the kids are probably waiting for their father.
“Wait.” His voice is now above a whisper. “Don‘t leave me. I‘m so cold.” I doubt the cold is from the room. I have it at a perfect 75 degrees. He is laying in a soft bed with two blanket and a comforter.
“My wife and children…” I see those tired old eyes close, a tear makes it out from under his eyelid. Severus pulls the comforter over his head. I can hear him crying. I look to the door, so close, and yet so far. My head tells me to go, my family is waiting. My heart tells me to hold him. Finally my heart wins out. She will understand. I never truly loved her..
I slide out of my clothes and next to his naked form. He is shaking now. Do I remind him of the men that raped him? Maybe taking off all my clothes was not a good idea. I hold him close whispering in this ear.
At the first sound of my voice, he stops shaking. Severus moves closer to me. We lay like that for some time. Me just holding him and him just wanting to be held. I tell him I still love him, that I always have. That I never should have believed Kingsley. I should have known he was good. I hear him as he drifts off again. I want to stay by his side for always, but I have duties. I get up, covering him with a blanket. I will slip back in tonight.
I go down stairs. Ashlie and Teddy are still waiting.
“DADDY!” They say at once. Teddy gets out of his chair and hugs me. His hair going from black to sunshine yellow. Ashlie is still in a highchair so I come over and kiss her head. Tonks smiles, but it is only a half smile. I kiss her on the cheek, wishing I could love more than I do. We sit down and eat.
Later I tell her I will be in his room. I can see the tears in her eyes. I kiss her, telling her I love her as much as I can. That is all I can really do.
I take some food to him. He is sitting up, looking at his hands.
“Severus…” He looks up, still those lost eyes, almost glazed over, stare back at me.
“You came back.” His voice is stronger, but not by much.
“Yes. I have some food for you.” I sit the tray down on his lap. He looks at it for a moment. Maybe it was the wrong thing to eat. But he picks up the spoon and dips it in to the soup. I have never seen him so…submissive. Severus never was one for soups. After he eats, half his stomach rebels, sending the soup straight back into the bowl and all over the tray. He looks at it for a moment breaks down. His sobs rack his body. I banish everything and hold him. The sobs keep coming, his voice is dry and scratchy. I kiss the back of his neck. “Shh.” His sobs calm.
I lay him back in bed.
“Remus.” His voice is barely a whisper. I pour him a glass of water. He is able to keep it down. “Remus. Take me.” I look at his fragile body.
“But Severus, I could hurt you.” He gave a small smile and my heart melted.
“I have had worse done.” Severus looked up in to my eyes. “Please. I want to feel you again.” I nod and slip out of my clothes for the second time today. I put a pillow under hips to angle them up.
I lean grab my wand and cast a lubrication spell, then I set it side. I slip one finger past the guarding muscles. He hisses, closing his eyes and throwing his arm over his eyes.
“You are still hurt.” I pull my finger out, it is covered in a jelly like blood.
“I don‘t care. I need you.” He moved his legs wider. He looks so good. It is almost like after a fight. He would some how convince me that I had to fuck him. He looked to inviting. But the blood it brought it back to the reality that Severus was hurt.
“No. I will not hurt you further.” I get up and clean my finger, turning my back to him. I hear a rustle of sheets. I look back and he has covered himself up.
“You might as well go back to you wife.” Even in a weak voice the tone is still commanding. I look at him again. Severus is still naked, still frightened, still cold. I walk back to him, slip beside him and pull him to my chest. He puts his head on my chest.
“I am staying where I am needed.”
Title: Blank Page
Author: countess_hp
Rating: PG
Prompt Set: 50.1
Prompt: #4, Blank
Word Count: 100
Summary: Severus hopes that his lover will Return
Warnings: angst
Disclaimer: I do not own Harry Potter or any of the characters.
I stare at the blank paper. I should be writing down the results of latest my test. Or starting another potion. But I cannot. He had been gone for three days. Each day is worse then the last. I know he is not coming back. Why would he? To hear my degrading put downs? My snide comments? My coldness? He would be back, I tell myself. Each time the wind blows and I here the gate move, I run to the front door, hoping it is him. I am disappointed yet again.
He will never been back, I write down.
Title: I Prmiose
Author: countess_hp
Rating: PG-13
Prompt Set: 50.1
Prompt: #40, Promise
Word Count: 100
Summary: Remus promise, Severus for gives
Warnings: Infidelity, angst
Disclaimer: I do not own Harry Potter or any of the characters.
I promise. He says every time he slips. I promise this is the last time. Or He meant nothing to me. I believe him. How can I not? He is my love. My life. My world. I will believe anything he says. I will welcome him back to our bed. I will tell him I forgive him. That it is only human to lust. I will satisfy him. Let him use my body as he wishes. He is never rough or unkind.
Then soon, I will find him in bed with another tramp. He will promise again, and I will forgive again.
Author: countess_hp
Rating: Hard R
Prompt Set: 50.1
Prompt: #32, Naked
Word Count: 1092
Summary: He looks so cold and alone. They have striped him of everything, even his pride.
Warnings: Implied non-con, Implied violence, major angst.
Disclaimer: I do not own Harry Potter or any of the characters.
He looks so cold and alone. They have striped him of everything, even his pride. He is left with nothing to cover his shame or his body. They stuck him in an old, cold cell. The floors have grime an inch deep. The walls have mold and there is a steady drip. They say that this is under a sewer main. He curls up into a ball on a mattress big enough for a large dog. Cold and tired he sleeps. In the morning, he wakes to a soft bed and the clean feeling of being showered. Looking around he sees me.
“Lu-pin?” His voice his strained and hoarse. I don’t know what they did to my lover. His body looks skinnier then before. His hair is matted and greasy. I can smell what must be 20 other men on my beloved.
“We found your memories stuffed in side an old shoe,” I say. The bottle had been found not three weeks after he and the other Death Eaters were put away. It seemed that only I cared about him.
“Good nose, Lupin.” I can no longer see the hurt and the hate that he held for me after I turned on him and married Tonks. All I can see is a scared little child.
“Thank you,” I say. He looks at me.
“For what?”
“For being good.”
“You should have never doubted me.” His voice is getting weaker. Severus needs to rest.
“Sleep, I will be back later with some food.” I turn to leave. My wife is fixing apple cobbler and I can smell it from here. She and the kids are probably waiting for their father.
“Wait.” His voice is now above a whisper. “Don‘t leave me. I‘m so cold.” I doubt the cold is from the room. I have it at a perfect 75 degrees. He is laying in a soft bed with two blanket and a comforter.
“My wife and children…” I see those tired old eyes close, a tear makes it out from under his eyelid. Severus pulls the comforter over his head. I can hear him crying. I look to the door, so close, and yet so far. My head tells me to go, my family is waiting. My heart tells me to hold him. Finally my heart wins out. She will understand. I never truly loved her..
I slide out of my clothes and next to his naked form. He is shaking now. Do I remind him of the men that raped him? Maybe taking off all my clothes was not a good idea. I hold him close whispering in this ear.
At the first sound of my voice, he stops shaking. Severus moves closer to me. We lay like that for some time. Me just holding him and him just wanting to be held. I tell him I still love him, that I always have. That I never should have believed Kingsley. I should have known he was good. I hear him as he drifts off again. I want to stay by his side for always, but I have duties. I get up, covering him with a blanket. I will slip back in tonight.
I go down stairs. Ashlie and Teddy are still waiting.
“DADDY!” They say at once. Teddy gets out of his chair and hugs me. His hair going from black to sunshine yellow. Ashlie is still in a highchair so I come over and kiss her head. Tonks smiles, but it is only a half smile. I kiss her on the cheek, wishing I could love more than I do. We sit down and eat.
Later I tell her I will be in his room. I can see the tears in her eyes. I kiss her, telling her I love her as much as I can. That is all I can really do.
I take some food to him. He is sitting up, looking at his hands.
“Severus…” He looks up, still those lost eyes, almost glazed over, stare back at me.
“You came back.” His voice is stronger, but not by much.
“Yes. I have some food for you.” I sit the tray down on his lap. He looks at it for a moment. Maybe it was the wrong thing to eat. But he picks up the spoon and dips it in to the soup. I have never seen him so…submissive. Severus never was one for soups. After he eats, half his stomach rebels, sending the soup straight back into the bowl and all over the tray. He looks at it for a moment breaks down. His sobs rack his body. I banish everything and hold him. The sobs keep coming, his voice is dry and scratchy. I kiss the back of his neck. “Shh.” His sobs calm.
I lay him back in bed.
“Remus.” His voice is barely a whisper. I pour him a glass of water. He is able to keep it down. “Remus. Take me.” I look at his fragile body.
“But Severus, I could hurt you.” He gave a small smile and my heart melted.
“I have had worse done.” Severus looked up in to my eyes. “Please. I want to feel you again.” I nod and slip out of my clothes for the second time today. I put a pillow under hips to angle them up.
I lean grab my wand and cast a lubrication spell, then I set it side. I slip one finger past the guarding muscles. He hisses, closing his eyes and throwing his arm over his eyes.
“You are still hurt.” I pull my finger out, it is covered in a jelly like blood.
“I don‘t care. I need you.” He moved his legs wider. He looks so good. It is almost like after a fight. He would some how convince me that I had to fuck him. He looked to inviting. But the blood it brought it back to the reality that Severus was hurt.
“No. I will not hurt you further.” I get up and clean my finger, turning my back to him. I hear a rustle of sheets. I look back and he has covered himself up.
“You might as well go back to you wife.” Even in a weak voice the tone is still commanding. I look at him again. Severus is still naked, still frightened, still cold. I walk back to him, slip beside him and pull him to my chest. He puts his head on my chest.
“I am staying where I am needed.”
Title: Blank Page
Author: countess_hp
Rating: PG
Prompt Set: 50.1
Prompt: #4, Blank
Word Count: 100
Summary: Severus hopes that his lover will Return
Warnings: angst
Disclaimer: I do not own Harry Potter or any of the characters.
I stare at the blank paper. I should be writing down the results of latest my test. Or starting another potion. But I cannot. He had been gone for three days. Each day is worse then the last. I know he is not coming back. Why would he? To hear my degrading put downs? My snide comments? My coldness? He would be back, I tell myself. Each time the wind blows and I here the gate move, I run to the front door, hoping it is him. I am disappointed yet again.
He will never been back, I write down.
Title: I Prmiose
Author: countess_hp
Rating: PG-13
Prompt Set: 50.1
Prompt: #40, Promise
Word Count: 100
Summary: Remus promise, Severus for gives
Warnings: Infidelity, angst
Disclaimer: I do not own Harry Potter or any of the characters.
I promise. He says every time he slips. I promise this is the last time. Or He meant nothing to me. I believe him. How can I not? He is my love. My life. My world. I will believe anything he says. I will welcome him back to our bed. I will tell him I forgive him. That it is only human to lust. I will satisfy him. Let him use my body as he wishes. He is never rough or unkind.
Then soon, I will find him in bed with another tramp. He will promise again, and I will forgive again.