Maybe there is something to psychoanalysis. Over the past four days I've been plagued by these daunting dreams. They aren't recurring, but the themes are-- victimization, helplessness, and rejection ( Read more... )

Well I was thinking about going to Tibet. Why? You always see people rediscovering themselves in Tibet. It's never New York or Nebraska or London. I don't think the Tibet route is going to work out however. I might have to settle for a weekend in Miami. "Find yourself in Miami." I was thinking about taking a semester off and going somewhere, but I ( Read more... )

As I come to grips with my humanity, suddenly I find myself standing face to face with a man that I never let be. He is human, has apparent weaknesses, doesn't have it all figured out, and most importantly he acknowledges that. The truth of the matter is that that man scares me, and I'm not entirely comfortable with the idea of being him. Before, I ( Read more... )

...As I said, it seems to help. This is my second post in one day. I must be addicted. I still don't know why trusting is so hard. Maybe it's just my perception of God, or perhaps my perception of myself. Maybe I'm not convinced that God has my best interests at heart, or that he understands exactly why I feel the way I do. Most people believe I'm ( Read more... )

I'm sneaking away from my job to update. It seems to help. In my mind I see visions of a savior hovering over me, moved by my plight. His robes are like clouds with lightning flashing in them. It moves as if it has life within itself. The more I look at myself, the more I realize I need him to help me. To do that is to let go completely and trust ( Read more... )

I've slept well these past few nights, but often times I wake up fighting that which tries to consume me. Everyday it gets a bit easier as I learn to cast my burdens on The Lord, and leave it there, because questions only lead to further questions and answers lead to the need for more questions and proof to satisfy the ever grabbing mind. The key ( Read more... )

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When you ask people which of the Psalms is their favorite, most undoubtedly will exclaim the 23rd. Well not me. My favorite is the 126th. I call it a Psalm of expectation, a Psalm of HOPE ( Read more... )

As we partake in this capitalistic holiday bent on breaking our pockets...Just kidding. To those who wondered about me, yes I am still alive, well at least a portion of me due to my rapid weight-loss plan. I've lost close to 30lb due to a strict regiment of anxiety, stress, and quasi-depression. Okay, I'm exaggerating a bit. I began eating ( Read more... )

Well I exercised my right to vote today--I didn't vote. These voting advocates often seem to forget that option. The freedom to vote also incorporates the freedom not to vote. There's that infamous dichotomy again. It's not like I have an issue with the democratic process, but rather I have an issue with FAMU's democratic process. Democracy in my ( Read more... )