Apathy or something like it

[courtknee_x_bee]

It's not that I don't care about anything. But my cares have been simplified. Simplified to the intangible desire to find happiness. "Follow your Bliss", I always say. But what the hell am I talking about any more? I remember my bliss. It was amazing

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[phoenix238]

I feel the exact same way about the religion and spirituality thing. I walked into this really neat store the other day with a bunch of little trinkets and things from India and that part of the world, and it had a lot of really awesome jewelry, and the woman working there was this really old woman wearing one of those flowy skirts and lots of jewelry and had a tattoo on her shoulder...she was way way cool and totally spiritual and being there with her made me realize that I am too, somewhere inside of me, but I've buried it, too, and I kind of want to uncover it. It was really cool though, the woman and I talked a little and she told me to come back and visit her and stuff. After that I decided that I was going to be more spiritual but then I think I just got lazy or something, I don't know, but I seem to always fall back into that realist, cynical approach to things and I look at religion and spirituality with a bad taste in my mouth. I guess I just need to find some sort of spirituality that can coincide with reality..? but I don't

[aneverfixedmark]

ill have to second you two on this one. weve talked about this before, and its still the same. maybe someday well find our way. i feel like we will.

and courtney, damn straight you had fun. and i dont think you have to worry about god, because it was obvious that he/she/it at least still loves you last night. oooooohhhhhh police.

[courtknee_x_bee]

yes, everything has been really REALLY good this past week. I just feel good. It started with open mic night, and the Police, and then Chicago and Luigi... and to think I was ready to call it a horrible day after a shitty green tea smoothie and a misplaced bag. I love you more than I love coffee drinks. Way more.

[courtknee_x_bee]

don't be sorry- I love it when you ramble. I can't wait until we can have a real conversation, face to face. But I'll bet you're having a blast.