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courtzzz

i like you im not gonna quit i love you im not gonna quit i killed you im not gonna quit

Jan 19, 2005 19:52

ok so, there are two things that i actually look forward to during the school year- my family being together at christmas and going snowboarding after exams. now that the first one didnt happen and i cried through the whole thing, im not allowed to go snowboarding. yeah so i must have really messed up to get myself into that right? my father yelled ( Read more... )

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i find it hard to tell you cuz i find it hard to take when people run in circles anonymous January 19 2005, 19:30:05 UTC

i really dont even know what to say here... that trip is life. if this is true (your parents do this from time to time just to fuck with you, i know) but if you really cant go it's going to suck. i know this is the only thing you look forward to all year and it sickens me to know that they would do that to you without a care. i remember one time you were getting yelled at and you left the room and asked your mom to be quieter so that you wouldnt be embarrassed but she didnt and i pretended not to listen and when you came in with a red mark across your face, i pretended to be completely enthralled with even stevens. my parents... parent really, is exactly like that, as you well know. its like they (parents in general) do things out of pure spite, even when you are undeserving of the punishment. they think thay have the right and the excuse to abuse (physically or mentally) us because they made us. this means they have to love us, yes, but they dont have to like us. which sucks. i wish i still lived close, or that we were still tight, ( ... )

Re: i find it hard to tell you cuz i find it hard to take when people run in circles courtzzz January 24 2005, 14:53:59 UTC

im glad that i have you, even if i dont still have you, even though i do. no one else can really know what that means bcuz no one else can really understand me like you, no matter how gay or cheesy that sounds. thanks so much for everything that weve been through and everything that weve accomplished. i remember that time too. i mean i guess i can understand that they feel like they have a right to do whatever they want bcuz they made us yeah, but even if you can do it doesnt mean you do. i dont know its hard for me to talk to people about really anything having to do with my parents just bcuz instead of remember everything good i remember crying. i dont know i dont want this whole feel sorry for me thing and i know you know that but for real, man sometime i just wanna say fuck college and get out i just dont have the balls. maybe sometime. and maybe sometime we can watch the truth about jane and little children getting ass raped by their parents. itll be just like the old days. yeah so. well just do the same as always and hope it ( ... )

Re: i find it hard to tell you cuz i find it hard to take when people run in circles anonymous January 25 2005, 17:28:10 UTC

And I'd give up forever to touch you ( ... )

jamerrrs January 21 2005, 10:03:04 UTC

courtney. i love you a lot. so much. and i get sad bc i miss you and i wish i went to cox so i could see you. :(

i will come see you. becuase i love you. i hope things will get better.

spencer davis says she went to kindergarten with you.

im in class cant talk more.

i love you so much. i miss you even more

-jaime

courtzzz January 24 2005, 14:55:24 UTC

i cant say that i remember spencer davis. it it a girl? bcuz if she plays soccer or used to or something i think i miiiiiiight but im not sure. send me a picture maybe? sorry i missed spaghetti dinner sucks about exams. later man

jamerrrs January 26 2005, 11:11:28 UTC

yes yes a girl! and shes coool and i will show you a picture. its ok that you missed i will try to visit you tonight or tomorrow night because you are hott.

mwah and ps that song up there is good.

jaime

my dear courtney. jamerrrs January 27 2005, 07:39:11 UTC

hey i hope that you feel better and i know i dont know anything going on because i havent even REALLY talked to you since summer. and. it sucks. but whatever you are going through i hope it gets better i can onyl pray and i dont even know if it will work but i can try because i love you a lot. and. i want to go to cox next year so we can be good friends again bc you know what we havent hung out in like a year there was young life which doesnt count and then one time at your house that night when my dad got inna car accident ahahahhaha. that was good times. but like. i dont even know what to do i NEVER see you and it makes me sad. bc i dont know whats going on in your life i dont know you anymore. and im sorry. a lot of it is my parents fault for switching schools, not driving me etc. but alot of it is my fault. and im sorry that i havent been there or called and.. ps joe never gives me phone mesages i know random but like. someone called for me the other day and then online they were like hey i called you joe didnt tell you? i was ( ... )