Part Forty Eight
Very Brief Recap
- Wolfram and Yuuri enjoy their time alone on Earth
- Mama comes in to interrupt some frisky business going on~ Oh my~!
Covering the Bases
Part Forty Eight - Forever and Always
Wolfram - *flushes brightly also, sitting up and straightening his borrowed clothing/curses himself for sparing even the smallest thought for the whereabouts of other people/every time he thought of something like that, someone always came in at the most inopportune moment - although he supposed Miko had better timing, considering both Gunter and Gwendal had walked in on them when they'd each been missing at least one article of clothing*
Yuuri - *sits up to pout, crossing his legs and placing his hands on his feet/always... whenever there was a chance for someone to come and bother them, someone always showed up... maybe they should just try to elope again... at least then they had some privacy!!/grumbles about stupid people*
Wolfram - *can't wait to get married - then, at least, they could lock their bedroom door and not have to worry, although that wouldn't stop random people from coming to pound on it and interrupting them that way/glances around a bit, remembering where they are, and sighs heavily/they should have just gone up to Yuuri's room or something instead of staying down here*
Yuuri - *apparently thinking the same thing about the room/why were they down there anyway...? besides... if his mom wanted them for anything then she would just call them.../uncrosses his legs, standing up before reaching to take hold of Wolfram's hand to help him up/stupid people... grumble grumble...*
Wolfram - *looks to Yuuri in surprise as he grabs onto his hand, but doesn't pull away from him/allows him to help him up, staring up at him curiously/quietly* "Yuuri... what...?"
Yuuri - *shakes his head, glancing over to the doorway to the kitchen really quickly before tugging on his hand to make the blond follow him up the stairs*
Wolfram - *dutifully follows him up the stairs/blushes ever so lightly/had Yuuri been thinking what he'd been thinking?*
Yuuri - *once he reaches his room, he lets Wolfram in before shutting and locking the stupid door behind them/grumbles some more about stupid plastic pools of water in the middle of bedroom floors as he lead him over to the bed, crawling up on it and sitting down*
Wolfram - *slowly sits down on the bed with him, still staring at him in slight surprise/had he just locked the door?!* "Yuuri...?"
Yuuri - *crosses his legs on the bed, going back to finish his pouting* "What...?"
Wolfram - *his surprised look turns a little wary* "Are you okay...?"
Yuuri - *stops pouting to blink at him, confused* "Huh...? Y-yeah... why...?"
Wolfram - *thought it was obvious* "You suddenly grabbed onto my hand and pulled me up the stairs... and you locked the door..."
Yuuri - *stares at him, feeling the red rising up in his cheeks/mumbles sheepishly* "I didn't really want anyone to bother us... I only want to spend time with you...."
Wolfram - *nods in understanding, moving a little closer to him* "I want to spend time with you, too..." *very, very badly/they hardly ever got time to themselves anymore*
Yuuri - *watches him a little longer, then sighs lightly* "Two weeks seems too long..."
Wolfram - *smiles lightly at him* "What happened to your optimism?"
Yuuri - *rolls his eyes, but smiles a little as well* "I'm still optimistic... just impatient..."
Wolfram - "I thought I was the impatient one..."
Yuuri - "You're rubbing off on me..."
Wolfram - *laughs softly* "I suppose I am..." *glances around the room at little bit, eyeing the locked door for a second before blushing again and staring down at the mattress*
Yuuri - *notices his blush and blinks at him/tries to think of what could have possibly made him blush like that.../suddenly winces, realizing what he did out of habit at home - Shori was annoying! he should just stay in his own room and not try to 'spend time' with him or 'help' him with homework... although, now he didn't really have to worry about homework... overprotective older brothers could be annoying...* "Sorry, Wolf... I'll unlock it if it makes you feel more comfortable... I didn't mean to make things awkward... I was just... I usually lock it anyway...."
Wolfram - *quickly looks up at him and shakes his head* "Nononononono! Please, keep it locked!" *he did not want anyone else coming in to bother them/he didn't mind Yuuri's family at all, but he really just wanted to be alone with him for more than a short period of time*
Yuuri - *blinks a little in surprise, but smiles, letting out a small sigh and relaxing some/nods* "Okay..."
Wolfram - *pouts a little, glaring at the door and daring someone to come knock on it, before moving to cuddle against his side*
Yuuri - *instantly slides his arm around his back to cuddle him closer, reaching up with his other hand to brush at the blond's bangs/really glad for a chance to just be alone with him without having to worry about people coming in to bother them.... though, that didn't stop anyone from knocking... or calling for them.../grumbles lightly about never getting to be alone with his fiancé...*
Wolfram - *pretty much grumbles about the same thing, although he likes to think his grumbling isn't as audible as Yuuri's/continues to pout a little bit* "How long after the wedding until we get to leave for our honeymoon?"
Yuuri - *blinks a bit out of his grumbling to stare at him* "Uhh... we'll leave as soon as Gisela says it's safe for you to travel..." *good enough....*
Wolfram - *frowns and raises an eyebrow at him* "Apparently it's safe enough for me to travel now..." *although the nausea after teleportation hadn't been very fun*
Yuuri - *shakes his head lightly* "We can't travel like that here... We'll have to take a plane... and I'm pretty sure there's a certain amount of time for when you will and won't be able to travel like that..."
Wolfram - *a plane, huh?* "And how would Gisela know that..." *she had no clue what a plane was, he was sure of that*
Yuuri - *opens his mouth, then closes it, trying to figure out how to explain it better* "Well... when she says it'll be safe for you to travel long distances in... a carriage... or something... then we'll go..."
Wolfram - *frowns a little more at him* "So... it's safe for me to travel through water that spins obnoxiously, but I can't sit in a carriage and let it take me to wherever?"
Yuuri - *sputters, feeling guilty about the possibility of hurting the baby* "I.... but.... that's just... a straight shot... not... not for several hours... and... I...." *slumps a little, having to remind himself to keep his arm up around him*
Wolfram - *looks at him strangely/what was he stuttering for this time?* "Yuuri...?" *gives him a pout* "Why can't we go right away, directly after the wedding?"
Yuuri - *shakes his head sadly* "Because... I know that here... there's a certain time you'll have to wait until it was safe.... and... I don't want you... or our baby... to get hurt...." *sighs, shaking his head again* "But I really want to go... I really do.... the sooner we can get away from everyone, the better.... But... we can't... I... I'm sorry...."
Wolfram - *pouts some more/still doesn't really understand the difference between going through a swirling pool of water and taking one of those plane things, but he figures Yuuri knows more about travel in this world than he does*
Yuuri - *lets out another small sigh before leaning down to give him a quick kiss on the cheek* "I love you... I really do want to be alone with you for as long as I possibly can.... I just... I couldn't live with myself if I let you do something that could endanger either of you...." *pauses again, holding his breath a bit as he reached out to lightly touch Wolfram's stomach*
Wolfram - *huffs* "I don't want to be in danger either, but... I just don't understand..." *which seemed to be becoming the norm as of late* "I'm tired of the constant interruptions and the people around all the time, and having others butting into our business..."
Yuuri - *nods lightly at him* "I'm tired too... But..." *smiles lovingly down at him* "We're alone now.... aren't we...?"
Wolfram - *snorts, still frowning* "For now..."
Yuuri - *smiles a little more, leaning a bit closer to nuzzle lightly into the side of his neck, pulling him a bit closer* "Then that's all that matters... We'll figure things out as they're thrown at us...." *like they usually had to do...*
Wolfram - *even more pouting* "I don't want things to be 'thrown at us...'" *that tended to not mean anything good*
Yuuri - *still smiling, gently kissing his neck a few times* "I'll protect you... and it doesn't matter what will come our way.... We'll make it through it, right...?"
Wolfram - *snorts, grumbling* "You'll protect me, you say..." *looks up at him with a small frown* "It's not me I'm worried about..."
Yuuri - *blinks, pulling back just enough to look at him, confused* "I'll protect our baby too..." *obviously.... that was kinda included...*
Wolfram - *frowns even more* "It's not the baby I'm worried about, either..." *well... not so much*
Yuuri - *blinks again, even more confused* "Then... what is it...?"
Wolfram - *lightly punches his shoulder, pulling away from him a bit to glare at him* "You, you moron!!"
Yuuri - *winces a little, more from shock than anything/sputters lightly at the glare* "Why...? You don't have to worry about me... I..." *he didn't get it... Wolfram and the baby were much more important than he was...*
Wolfram - *glares even more/why did Yuuri constantly think he wasn't worth worrying over?* "You stupid fool!!" *whacks him up side the head lightly* "You can't stop to think of yourself for even one second even now, after everything you've been through?!"
Yuuri - *tries to duck away from the light whack, but wasn't fast enough/stares at him even more* "I... but I'm fine.... Why would I stop to worry about myself when there's more important things...?"
Wolfram - "Yuuri!!" *why did he have to be such a moron??* "You just got back two weeks ago!!"
Yuuri - *nods lightly* "I know... I'm sorry..."
Wolfram - "And maybe you like to ignore what happened and pretend that everything is fine, but I can't just forget!!" *gives him a serious look* "Are you in denial?" *it honestly wouldn't surprise him/Yuuri had denied a great many things in the past, putting them off until he felt like he could deal with them - what was there to stop him from doing the same thing now?*
Yuuri - *stares at him even more, refusing to even try to understand what he was talking about/it was better if he didn't look deeper into his words, anyway.../shakes his head lightly* "I... why would I be in denial...?"
Wolfram - "Because ever since the night you told me about what happened to you while you were away, you haven't talked about it or acknowledged what you've been through at all." *except that one time, that strange... fluke... after the whole Iris fiasco, when he'd said that horrible thing to him and he'd reacted to it badly... but other than that... nothing.../at least nothing major, nothing more than a small frown or a tense moment here and there*
Yuuri - *watches him, though no longer really looking at him/starts to panic a bit, feeling his heart start to beat a little faster and his breathing get just slightly irregular/would really love to forget everything that had happened between the time he was taken from Wolfram and when he got back to him, but even though he could easily push it to the far back of his mind... when it was brought up, the memories kept flooding back* "I.... I don't.... but I'm fine now.... D-don't worry about me... please..."
Wolfram - "I have to worry about you, because you never take the time to worry about yourself." *easily notes his reactions/could tell he was uncomfortable discussing these sorts of things, and though he would really just like to drop it for Yuuri's sake, he knew it really wasn't good for him to keep it all bottled up like that - he spoke from experience, after all/it would just keep building and building, until one day... he'd either snap, or it would drive him crazy* "You're in denial... you want to pretend like nothing bad has happened to you, so you focus all of your attention onto something else in the hopes of forgetting..."
Yuuri - *swallows, closing his eyes to try and get rid of the pictures flashing in his memory, but that only made it worse and quickly opens his eyes again/staring blankly into space somewhere right through Wolfram as he tried to keep himself calm* "I... I'm not pretending... I... I just..." *he didn't know what to do other than try and forget... that would be the best...*
Wolfram - "You're pretending. You push everything you don't want to think about into the back of your mind like it isn't important, and then pretend you're okay for the benefit of every one else. But you're not okay, not if you can't face it." *feels a little guilty for forcing a confrontation about this, and is really tempted to just let it go*
Yuuri - *shifts a little on the bed, doing what he could to keep the physical memories from resurfacing again* "I... I just want to forget..." *swallows again, still trying to get his breathing back to normal once more* "It's not important.... Don't.... don't worry about me..."
Wolfram - "Dammit, Yuuri, it is important!!!!" *is becoming a little upset that he constantly brushed it off as if it were nothing/he understood that it upset him to think and talk about it, but that didn't mean it didn't deserve any of their attention* "You can't just forget!!! The more you try, the harder it's going to be!!"
Yuuri - *flinches a little as he yelled/what could he do...? there wasn't anything he could think of doing besides trying to forget that would make anything better.../ignores the shadows of pain that flared up a little, still doing his best to control his uneven breathing* "I.... I don't know what to do, then..."
Wolfram - *pauses, falling silent for a moment/it's not like he really knew what to do either/he was as guilty as Yuuri when it came to bottling things up* "I... I don't know what to do, either..." *glances off to the side sadly/wishes he could help Yuuri more than he had so far/feels like he hasn't done anything but made things worse for him over the last couple of weeks* "Just... tell me why you think it isn't important..."
Yuuri - *barely hears him, but it's just enough to pull some of his focus back on Wolfram/stares at him for a bit/why he didn't think it was important...?* "Because... there's nothing that can be done to change what's already happened... so... why bother looking back on the past...?"
Wolfram - "Because it's obviously affected you. It's changed you..."
Yuuri - *blinks at him, confused* "Changed me...?" *had it...?*
Wolfram - "You're far more serious than you used to be." *about his work at least - there were still a few things he would probably never take seriously* "You're a lot more focused now, like... as long as you're doing something... you won't have to think about it..."
Yuuri - *stares, swallowing again, trying to will his heart to stop pounding so ridiculously* "I... I just... but, I'd been gone for so long... I didn't want to come back and not catch up with everything... It's not because... because of what..." *trails off, unable to force himself to start talking about it*
Wolfram - "And you've become more..." *pauses to think of a way to describe it/doesn't think 'touchy-feely' sums it up appropriately* "When you're not focused on your work, you're with me. I haven't heard of you meeting with anyone else since you came back, and I know there's a long list of ambassadors and other foreign dignitaries waiting to speak with you." *pauses again, putting a lot more thought into his words than usual* "I don't mind spending time with you - I love being with you, Yuuri, but... it just seems like you're..." *what? why couldn't he describe it accurately enough?*
Yuuri - *drops his gaze to stare sadly down at his hands in his lap, frowning a little as he noticed they were shaking lightly and quickly holds them tightly together/tries finishing for him* "....I'm avoiding everything else..."
Wolfram - *nods slowly* "Yes, but... it's more than that..." *watches him in concern, feeling extremely guilty again/maybe he should just drop it and pick this up some other time, when they were completely alone and didn't have to worry about anyone coming to bother them in some way/maybe Yuuri just needed more time...*
Yuuri - *doesn't quite understand, but nods/closes his eyes and forcing his breathing to be slow and even* "I'm sorry for making you worry about me.... I never meant to...."
Wolfram - "Of course you never meant to. You don't even worry about yourself, so why would you want someone to worry about you." *it was almost obsessive, his constant declarations of 'I'm fine' and his attempts to turn the concern away from himself, as if having someone worry over him was the worst thing that could possibly happen/looks up at him, nodding to himself as if he's finally found an answer* "You're obsessed. You're so far into your denial, you focus so much on your work... on me..." *appears more than a little saddened* "Are you using your feelings for me, your concern for my wellbeing, to help you forget what's happened to you...?"
Yuuri - *stares at him with widened eyes, panicking a little at his expression* "W-Wolf... I'm not... I... I love you more than anything... even if what..." *pauses, lowering his voice a little as he forced himself to admit that something really did happen to him* ".... even if what happened never happened... I would still be concerned for you... I would still focus so much on you... I... I love you, Wolf... I'll always love you..."
Wolfram - "You weren't like this before, Yuuri. Now, it seems as if the only things you think about are work, me, and the baby. Before..." *shakes his head, thinking back on the times before they'd run away to elope* "You can't expect me to believe that if we'd never run away, if none of this had ever happened, you'd be acting the same way. You told me earlier... you said it was two springs ago... when you first started to... have feelings... that was almost two years ago, Yuuri... it's taken you two years to tell me that you love me, and now, only two months later, we're getting married and having a baby..." *stares at him seriously* "Two months ago, when you first told me, did you think we'd come this far in such a short period of time? Would you have been like this two months ago? Would you have been like this now if you hadn't been captured and imprisoned?"
Yuuri - *winces at the very last bit, trying to ignore the sudden shadowed flares of pain across his back/what would he be like.... if he had never... never had that... stuff happen to him...?/swallows once more, reminding himself to keep his breathing as regular as possible, even if it hurt a bit to slow his breathing down/whispers, unable to look at him* "I.... I don't know... I don't know how I would be like..."
Wolfram - *can tell he's trying so hard to control himself/even now the stupid wimp was holding back, keeping it all in, trying to continue pretending/whispers* "What are you so afraid of...?"
Yuuri - *takes a deep breath, forcing himself to stay as calm as possible, trying to keep his hands from shaking/stares blankly into space, forcing himself to say the first things that came to mind/whispers just as quietly as before* "I don't like feeling so useless... so pathetic... I couldn't do anything... Even when I tried... I wasn't able to stop them... I... I couldn't... I wanted to... I really tried... but.... I couldn't..." *pauses, shaking his head lightly* "What if I can't protect you...? What if something happened and I couldn't do anything...? How could I live with myself...? I... I hate not being able to do anything..."
Wolfram - *shakes his head* "I can take care of myself, Yuuri; you don't have to protect me."
Yuuri - *frowns, focusing back on him just a bit* "I know I don't have to protect you... but I want to protect you... I want to be able to protect the most precious thing to me... I want to keep you safe... to protect you with my life, everything I have..." *shakes his head lightly, clutching his hands tightly together* "But I couldn't do anything... when those things were happening... I... I couldn't... I'm so pathetic... I... I want to be able to protect you...."
Wolfram - "What does protecting me have to do with what happened to you?! Why, in everything that we talk about, why does it always circle back around to me?!" *why couldn't he think of himself, just this once?*
Yuuri - *winces a little* "I don't know... I... I just know what I want... I know what I want to do, what I want to live for... That's all..."
Wolfram - "Why don't you ever stop to think of yourself?" *it always seemed to come back to that question, somehow...* "You never do, Yuuri. Why? Do you think so badly of yourself...?"
Yuuri - *doesn't really know how to answer him and feels pretty stupid for saying the same things again and again* "I don't know..."
Wolfram - *thinks back onto the night Yuuri hand first told him about everything, and the things Yuuri had said and asked him/quietly* "Are you still afraid of what Dimitri said to you...?"
Yuuri - *has to work especially hard to keep himself under control, doing what he could to keep himself from breathing so irregularly, from starting to shake even more/was that what it was...? he'd been trying so hard to just forget everything... could that be why he was like he was...? because he was still afraid...?/feels even more pathetic as tears started to well up in his eyes as he slowly nodded*
Wolfram - *lifts a hand to gently stroke the side of his face, feeling even worse when he sees the tears in his eyes* "Why...?" *hadn't they already been over this before? hadn't he managed to convince Yuuri that what that man had said had been nothing more than a pile of lies?*
Yuuri - *shakes his head lightly, slowly lifting a shaky hand to hold Wolfram's hand to his face/closes his eyes, pressing back into the touch as best he could* "I don't know... I just don't know..." *pauses, trying to force himself to say something other than what he had been saying* "I don't know if I can do anything anymore... I couldn't even stop what happened... I'm supposed to be one of the strongest people in this world... but after what happened, I don't know if I can really believe that... I couldn't do anything..."
Wolfram - *keeps his hand in place, not bothering to pull it away* "You are strong, Yuuri. But you’d just been injured, you lost a lot of blood; it weakened you. And they kept you weakened, because they knew if they gave you the opportunity to get even a quarter of your strength back there would have been nothing they could do to stop you from…" *whatever it was Yuuri would have done if he’d been able to*
Yuuri - *slowly opens his eyes to stare at the blond, not wanting to argue with him over something that couldn't be changed/nods lightly after a while, sliding his fingers a bit to intertwine loosely with Wolfram's hand against his cheek/what else was there to say to him...? it was because he, Yuuri, was stupid that everything had happened... why couldn't he just... do something right...?*
Wolfram - *isn't really very confident that Yuuri believes him or agrees with what he's been saying to him* "You're not like that man, Yuuri. You'll never be like him; I don't care what he said to you." *shakes his head/wishes Dimitri was alive so he could wring the man's neck with his bare hands* "It isn't your fault that you couldn't do anything, and it's not your fault that he was able to control you, either. He was sick and demented; he didn't care about anything besides his own twisted pleasure. You're not like that... you're kind, and gentle, and caring. You'd never hurt anyone if you could help it..."
Yuuri - *clasps a little tighter to his hand, ignoring the few tears that rolled down his cheeks* "I don't want to be like him.... I don't want to hurt anyone... especially you... I would never want to hurt you..." *trails off a bit, shaking his head lightly/after everything that had happened, how could he be so confident that he would really be able to do everything he promised...? how could he be so sure that he could protect him? so sure that he wouldn't hurt him... again...?*
Wolfram - "Why do you think you'd hurt me?" *he didn't really understand how he could possibly think something like that, since he knew for a fact that Yuuri could never seriously hurt him/upset him, maybe, but then everyone got upset every once in a while; arguments, disagreements and misunderstandings were to be expected/lifts his free hand to wipe at his tears, feeling even more guilty that he had been previously*
Yuuri - *tries to force himself not to cry any harder, but he could barely hold the tears back/quietly* "I... I would never hurt you... but... if something were to happen... and I ended up hurting you, anyway..." *how would he be able to live with himself...? if something ever happened to him... how would he be able to live...?*
Wolfram - "But how could you hurt me, Yuuri?" *he could say all of these 'if's and 'maybe's, but Yuuri never specified what he meant by 'hurt,' which often made it a little difficult to imagine him doing anything*
Yuuri - *gazes at him through his tears* "How...?" *how could he hurt him...? he didn't really want to think of how he could possibly hurt him... he couldn't even imagine hurting him... definitely nothing on purpose.../mumbles softly* "I don't know..."
Wolfram - *wipes some more at his tears* "Then you have nothing to worry about." *smiles just lightly, trying to reassure him as best as he could* "I know you love me. You can do whatever you want to me, Yuuri, and I won't doubt it or question it. It's the one thing I've never had to think twice about. I may say things, or act a certain way, and make it hard to believe that I trust you, that I understand your feelings, but I swear... I know it, Yuuri." *tenderly strokes the side of his face with his free hand, allowing him to continue clinging to his other* "And that's the only thing that matters to me. I don't care what you do - hit me, yell at me, order me around, treat me like your slave, your whore... I won't care... as long as you love me..."
Yuuri - *stares even more, feeling his heart throb at his words, tears still falling from his eyes, unable to stop them/slowly lowers his still shaking hand, though still clinging to Wolfram's hand/lowers himself onto the bed, reaching out with his free hand to cling desperately at the blond's borrowed clothes as he cried into the bed sheets, unable to say anything, but feeling a great weight seem to melt from him, greatly relieved*
Wolfram - *moves his hand from the side of his face to stroke at his hair, speaking to him softly* "Shhh..." *is really worried about him now/has no idea why he's crying, and can only assume it's because he's upset about what they were talking about/feels like the world's biggest idiot for bringing it up* "I love you, Yuuri... I love you..."
Yuuri - *shakes his head lightly, though not wanting to move away from his touch/manages to choke out a muffled sob* "Wolfram... Wolfram... I love you, too... I love you so much..." *trails off, still unable to stop himself from crying/it wasn't even because he had been upset.../just knowing Wolfram would always be there for him... that's all that mattered...* "I love you... I love you..."
Wolfram - "Then please don't worry, don't be afraid, don't think that what that man said to you was true. You know he was lying; he lied about nearly everything he told you." *lowers himself onto the bed next to him, wrapping his arms around him as best he can, placing a kiss along the top of his head before burying his face into his hair* "You haven't done anything wrong, and nothing is your fault, and even though it upsets me that all of those things happened, I still love you. I love you more than anything, and I'd sooner die than let anything like that happen to you ever again."
Yuuri - *sobs a little harder, clinging tighter to Wolfram as he moved closer/felt so stupid for crying like an idiot... but he couldn't help it... hearing everything being told to him... all the reassurances the blond had for him... a great amount of stress seemed to be slowly fading, though he knew he wouldn't just be able to forget everything that had happened, but for now, this seemed enough/nods lightly before nuzzling into Wolfram's chest/would say something about how he would rather be put through everything again ten times over than have Wolfram die for him... - he'd die, himself, if that happened... - but he couldn't find his voice/he didn't ever want him to leave... as long as he loved him... it would be okay...*
Wolfram - *pets at his hair some more, trying his hardest to comfort him in any way he knew how/he couldn't really remember a time when Yuuri had been so upset, but then before now there hadn't really been anything for him to be so upset about/starts to hum lightly to him - which was a little awkward, but Yuuri did it for him and it had proven successful on a few occasions, so he figured it was worth the attempt*
Yuuri - *feels himself calm down just a little bit, hearing Wolfram hum to him and feeling his heart beat a little faster, but it was nothing like the pounding he had already been feeling - it was a calmer kind of pace/still clinging to him, sobbing silently into his chest as he tried to focus on only Wolfram and nothing else*
Wolfram - *continues to hum some random tune/can't really think of anything specific to hum to him - he knows more than a few songs, but it's not like Yuuri had ever really expressed much of an interest in music before, so he really didn't know what he'd find more comforting/finally just sticks with a slow, soft and soothing love song, the one his mother had always been so fond of - most women were fond of it for that matter, but that was neither here nor there*
Yuuri - *loosens his grip on the blond's clothing just a little as he slowly began to calm down some more, though still sobbing pathetically/it was nice to be so close to him... he always felt so much happier around him, anyway... like anything that was bothering him would be nothing when they were together.../though, calming down was taking a bit longer than he really wanted it to...*
Wolfram - *can sense him slowly calming, and wonders for a moment what it is about humming that has such a soothing effect on people/maybe it was just the idea of someone being there, hearing them so close or whatever/either way it seemed to work wonderfully with Yuuri/his humming eventually evolves into quiet singing/hey, if humming could go this far, he had to wonder if actual singing would have an even greater effect* "Oh, it's become hard to breathe/I cannot see the sky/I do not understand/Where it is that you've gone/The wind blows through my hair; the sun's held safe in your hands..." *stupid women and their stupid sappy love songs... not that he never felt exceptionally sappy with Yuuri, but out of all the things couples could do together or for one another, he'd always thought of singing and serenading as being at the top of the list of sappy things*
Yuuri - *carefully listens to him, marveling in the beauty of Wolfram's singing/loosens his grip on his clothes even more before eventually going completely limp in his arms, still cuddling close to him/he was in such awe that his previous worries didn't seem even relevant...*
Wolfram - *keeps threading his fingers into Yuuri's dark hair, sliding them through as he held him close/feels a little stupid for doing it, but keeps singing, too* "The evening clouds are dark/Night has fallen upon me/With you things are easy/With you I am beautiful/And my heart starts to pound, beating in time with yours..." *places a kiss along the top of his head again/marvels over how nice it is to hold him/he liked being held himself, but doing the holding every once in a while wasn't so bad*
Yuuri - *still crying a bit, but no where near as heavily as before/remains limp, feeling too emotionally drained to do anything other than keep his eyes closed and listen to Wolfram's singing*
Wolfram - *absentmindedly continues, not really thinking of anything in particular as he did/he just didn't know what else to say, but he still wanted Yuuri to know that he was there for him* "I release into the sky, autumn leaves that have dried and turned to gold/I remember out letters, our final farewell, the silly words we said/I release all of my tears, blurring my eyes, sliding down my face/Under the curtain of stars; where are you, what do you dream of?" *frowns a little bit at the words/only a woman could have written such silly drivel*
Yuuri - *keeps his eyes closed, though subconsciously moving a little closer to him, burying his face even more into his chest as he held him/wonders vaguely why Wolfram had never really sung for him before... his voice was just as beautiful as the rest of him... and his singing only enhanced it*
Wolfram - *feels Yuuri move closer/wraps his arms around him a little tighter* "Too early to be true/And too late to believe it/I find it's difficult/To measure all of my love/Behind the window; the sun, it declines with you..." *tries to ignore the way the words he was singing seemed to be dripping of sweetness and sap/Yuuri seemed to like it, so he supposed he could go along with it*
Yuuri - *he did like it... a lot... besides, after all the ridiculously sappy things they'd already done - feeding each other... really... so very sappy... to him at least... maybe not for Wolfram - singing to each other didn't seem so bad/hiccups a little as his crying died down even more, though could really care less if he sounded or looked pathetic... he was with Wolfram, after all...*
Wolfram - *smiles a little at his hiccup/thinks it was absolutely adorable/lowers his hand from his hair to gently rub at his back* "We are both falling/Then rising into the sky/I do not understand/Where it is that you've gone/On the night darkened roads, I hear your voice in the wind..."
Yuuri - *too emotionally exhausted to even care about trying to stop himself and hiccups a few more times as he listened to Wolfram's voice/trying to soak in how wonderful it felt to be so close to him, memorizing his singing*
Wolfram - "I release into the sky, silent prayers to the angels guarding you/I can still feel you with me, your arms around me, the gentle words you said/I release you from my hands; go your own way, listen to your heart/In the evening, the sun sets, and you're gone; I cannot see you..." *rubs his back a few more times, kissing the top of his head once more*
Yuuri - *finally opens his now red and swollen eyes, moving his head back just enough to look at Wolfram to gaze at him/mumbles softly* "I love y-" *hiccup* "-ou..."
Wolfram - *smiles at his cuteness again, ceasing his singing to reply* "I love you, too..." *removes his hand from his back to brush some of Yuuri's hair out of his face, tucking a few strands behind his ear*
Yuuri - *lowers his head back onto the mattress, though still watching him/mumbles again* "I feel pathetic..."
Wolfram - *looks at him curiously/thinks he's far from pathetic* "Why...?"
Yuuri - *hiccups again, growing a little more wary of them as he did* "I've been crying like a li-" *hiccup* "little kid who got their favorite toy broken..." *pauses, frowning at himself*
Wolfram - *shakes his head at him* "You have every reason to cry, Yuuri. You're not upset over something stupid like that, so you shouldn't feel ashamed..."
Yuuri - *gazes up at him again for a bit before nuzzling back into his chest* "I've made you upset with me..." *silently glad he managed to hold off on hiccupping for at least a little*
Wolfram - *looks a little confused/goes back to petting at his hair* "Why would I be upset with you...?"
Yuuri - "Because I've been so obse-" *hiccups/pouts* "obsessed with avoiding everything..."
Wolfram - "That doesn't mean I'm upset with you. I just don't want you to hurt yourself by keeping everything bottled up, and I don't want you to think that you're not important, that what's happened to you isn't important, because you are and it is..."
Yuuri - *falls silent, feeling stupid/cuddles closer to him, going back to gripping lightly at his clothes/mumbles softly* "I'm sorry..."
Wolfram - "Don't be sorry..." *puts another kiss upon his head* "I'm the one who's sorry. I shouldn't have brought it up..."
Yuuri - *shakes his head lightly, nuzzling into his chest* "No... you have every right to... I... I shouldn't be trying to..." *pauses, not really knowing what it was he had been doing... but he definitely had been trying to forget everything* "Thank you... I... I'll work harder... I don't want you to wo-" *hiccups again* "worry about me... about how I don't want you to worry..." *that was confusing enough...* "I'll really try harder...."
Wolfram - "Yuuri, please, just..." * he didn't want him to be under any unnecessary stress, not after what had happened* "Just remember to think of yourself, too. Don't get so consumed by everything else that you forget..."
Yuuri - *nods lightly, feeling horrible about making such a big deal out of everything he had originally been trying to ignore* "I won't forget... I'm sorry..."
Wolfram - *kisses the top of his head another time, before closing his eyes and burying his face into his hair, letting out a light sigh* "I love you, Yuuri..."
Yuuri - *clings to him a little tighter, as if letting him go would let him disappear* "I love you, too, Wolfram... I'll always love you..." *couldn't even imagine not loving him... no matter what happened... not after going for so long trying to ignore it*
Wolfram - *quietly* "I know..." *allows himself a momentary rest/thinks Yuuri should probably be the one drained of energy, but he finds he's also slightly fatigued/he supposed it was the stress and concern getting the better of him*
Yuuri - *falls silent, though still clinging to him, nuzzling him closer to him/lets out a tired sigh as he closes his eyes, resting a little as well/he just wanted to be alone with him for a little bit... that was all he wanted right now...*
Wolfram - *tightens his embrace just slightly, keeping his eyes closed as he did so/absently runs his fingers through Yuuri's hair*
Yuuri - *how could he be so lucky...? how could he have someone like Wolfram be as in love with him as Yuuri loved him...? what had he ever done to be so fortunate...?/tries to hold himself back, but was so emotional already that he started to cry lightly again, though no where near as hard as previously/he just wanted Wolfram to be with him... that was all he really cared about... anything else would come and go, but there would only be one person he loved so deeply...*
Wolfram - *slowly opens his eyes and notices the renewal of Yuuri's tears/feels his heart clench in his chest, immediately moving his hand to wipe them away/speaks to him softly* "Yuuri..? What's wrong...?"
Yuuri - *opens his eyes, staring desperately at him* "Wolfram... I love you..." *opens his mouth to say more, but could feel the tears well up in his eyes and quickly shuts his mouth to try and stop himself from crying so much*
Wolfram - "I love you, too..." *moves to press his lips against his forehead, then makes a trail down to his cheeks to kiss his tears away*
Yuuri - *doesn't move away from him - if anything he tries moving a little closer/why...? he was just some loser baseball kid... if someone had told him that he would be so helplessly in love with the blond in just a few years when he had first met him... he would have thought they were absolutely crazy.../but now... he couldn't imagine life without him...*
Wolfram - *keeps speaking to him softly, trying his best to comfort him, which he didn't think he was any good at, but at least he was trying* "Yuuri... it's okay... everything will be okay..." *Wow... saying something like that had sure been weird, considering he was usually saying the opposite/Yuuri had always been better than him when it came to optimism and reassurances*
Yuuri - *nods lightly at him, going back to cuddling to him as his tears finally started to run out/mumbles quietly back* "I know... just... stay with me... please..." *not that he expected Wolfram to just leave him... but he wouldn't know what he would do if he did... if he stopped loving him... he'd die if he fell out of love with him... even just a little bit...*
Wolfram - "Of course. You don't have to worry. I'm not going anywhere." *there was nothing in the world that could take him away/nothing else mattered except Yuuri - not at this moment, at least*
Yuuri - *lets out a small sigh of relief, even if he already knew Wolfram wouldn't leave him/it just felt good to be reassured things like that every now and then*
Wolfram - *hums a little bit again, though not very loudly, and he doesn’t really have any intention of starting to sing again/he just wants to let Yuuri know in whatever way that he can that he was there, and that he’d continue to be there for as long as he needs him*
Yuuri - *remains silent, staying close and cuddling to him as he closed his eyes again/focuses on his humming again, trying to get himself to calm down again*
Wolfram - *hums to him for a while/still feels a little weird doing it - it's not like he's ever hummed or sang for anyone else - but he wasn't going to complain about it since it seemed to work rather well*
Yuuri - *slowly drifts off to sleep despite himself/much too emotionally drained to do anything but be quiet and listen to Wolfram's soft humming/he was with Wolfram, and that's all that mattered/and he really did feel a whole lot safer in his arms, even if he would rather be the one to protect him... but with him so close, he didn't feel like he had to worry about anything*
Wolfram - *smiles at him as little as he drifts off, stroking his hair and rubbing his back, doing anything he could possibly think of to comfort him/is pretty intent on never bringing that particular subject up ever again - at least not on purpose - unless he absolutely has to/hates seeing Yuuri so upset when he's normally so happy and optimistic/begins to wonder if it's somewhat his fault that Yuuri's started to change as well*
Yuuri - *eventually does fall asleep, exhausted, but completely content with being held in Wolfram's arms/though, it was mostly his own fault for keeping everything so locked up*
Wolfram - *eventually begins to fall asleep as well/thinks it's a little ironic that they'd come up here and locked the door as a way to be able to spend time alone together, only to fall asleep... although he supposed cuddling was good enough - it's not like they'd had many opportunities to do much of that either*
Yuuri - *sleeps for a good few, solid hours before slowly starting to wake again/he had a horrible headache, one that was usually accompanied with crying for an extended amount of time, but could really care less about it at the moment/vaguely wonders what time it was as he hazily blinked a few times to try and see Wolfram more clearly*
Wolfram - *is still sleeping/a little more tired than he'd expected to be, though after spending the morning fighting morning sickness, and the last little while having a serious emotional discussion with Yuuri, he supposed he really shouldn't be surprised*
Yuuri - *blinks a little more clearer at the blond, sighing lightly as he watched him sleep/carefully pushes himself up some, moving around a bit so he could wrap his arms securely around Wolfram, pulling him to his chest to cuddle with him, kissing his head as he did so*
Wolfram - *unconsciously moves a little closer to him/feels warm and comfortable*
Yuuri - *reaches a hand up to brush Wolfram's bangs from his eyes, leaning closer again to gently press a lingering kiss on his forehead*
Wolfram - *sighs lightly in his sleep/isn't sleeping as heavily as he normally did, but the light doze he was in sure was comforting... and relaxing*
Yuuri - *strokes softly at his hair a little more before sliding his arm around his back again, pulling him even closer/he really did like to watch him sleep... he always looked so... angelic... or something... not that he didn't usually, but when he was sleeping... it felt special to be with him...*
Wolfram - *starts to stir a little bit out of his nap at the feel of being pulled closer, shifting a little bit as his eyes flutter open for a second/looks up at Yuuri, smiles sleepily, before closing his eyes again and moving even closer, sighing again as he did so*
Yuuri - *feels his heart skip a little as he watched him, smiling lovingly back at him before leaning closer to place another kiss on his forehead/whispers softly* "I love you..."
Wolfram - *whispers back to him* "I love you, too..." *can easily remember what they'd been discussing before falling asleep/looks up at him again after the kiss to his forehead* "Are you okay...?"
Yuuri - *blinks, feeling guilty for the emotional storm of... whatever... he'd had before falling asleep/leans in to give him another soft kiss before nodding* "Yeah... I'm fine..."
Wolfram - "Are you sure...?" *lifts a hand to push some of Yuuri's hair out of his face/didn't want to start the discussion all over again, but he at least wanted to make sure he was fine now... or as fine as he could be after all of that*
Yuuri - *nods lightly again, subconsciously leaning into his touch* "Yeah... I'm sure..." *and he was, for the most part/as long as he kept the bad memories locked in the back of his mind, he would be fine/was actually grateful for what they'd talked about since he felt a lot more relieved than before - he wasn't so afraid any more, but... he'd still rather not remember anything that had happened*
Wolfram - *wonders for a moment if he'd successfully managed to get through to him or not - though he figured the answer was 'not,' even if Yuuri did seem a lot more calm now/keeps his mouth shut and doesn't bother to say anything or question him on it further/smiles at him some more, not wanting him to be able to tell how worried he still was*
Yuuri - *smiles back at him, really just glad to be with him/sighs lightly, still feeling like an idiot for getting so carried away in his emotions, but what else was there to do...?/watches him carefully, trying to study his expression* "What about you...? Are you okay...?"
Wolfram - *smiles at him even more, nodding slowly* "I'm fine. I feel better than I did this morning, at least..." *yeah, change the subject to something else, that was good, that would distract Yuuri... or it usually did...*
Yuuri - *sighs lightly in relief, reaching up to brush at his hair some more* "That's good..." *pauses, still feeling guilty for everything/quietly* "I... I didn't upset you too much... did I...? I..." *'I didn't mean to' -but that was probably expected of him to say*
Wolfram - *quickly shakes his head, not wanting him to have to worry about things like that* "No, Yuuri, I'm fine, really."
Yuuri - *nods, pulling him closer to cuddle him even closer/remains silent for a little bit before laughing lightly, mumbling mostly to himself* "I can't believe we fell asleep..." *after all that work to get away from the chance of being bothered, too...*
Wolfram - *laughs a little bit as well/had been thinking the same thing, after all* "It's okay... you probably needed the rest anyway... and I really haven't been a stranger to naps recently..." *internally curses the morning sickness and excessive fatigue/pulls back enough to look up at him, smiling playfully* "But we're still alone, aren't we...?"
Yuuri - *grumbles lightly about stupid people who kept coming to bother them, hardly noticing him pull away until he spoke/blinks out of his grumbling, flushing just lightly, despite trying not to* "Y-yeah... we are..."
Wolfram - *smiles a little bit more at how Yuuri's face colored a little* "So...?"
Yuuri - *stares at him, holding his breath in an attempt not to blush more* "'So...?'"
Wolfram - *gives him a little fake pout* "Are we going to waste this time alone together or not?"
Yuuri - *quickly shakes his head* "N-no!"
Wolfram - *goes back to smiling at him playfully* "Okay..." *raises an eyebrow at him, teasing* "What do you want to do, then...?"
Yuuri - *sputters/what kind of question was that??*
Wolfram - *tries not to laugh at him, but it was hard, and he eventually starts giggling a little*
Yuuri - *gapes in confusion at his giggling/what was so funny...??/pouts a little* "You're laughing at me..."
Wolfram - *grins at him* "Yes... I am..."
Yuuri - *pouts more/well, jeez... he could have at least try to deny it or something.../what was so funny, anyway??*
Wolfram - *calms down after only a short while/strokes the side of his face again* "You're so cute..."
Yuuri - *rolls his eyes lightly, reaching up to take hold of his hand, pulling it to his lips to kiss his palm/pauses, mumbling before kissing his palm again* "I'm cute... right..."
Wolfram - *nods at him* "You are... you're very cute..."
Yuuri - *kisses him a few more times before pulling his hand back a bit to nibble lightly on his pinky finger/watches him curiously, highly doubting that he could even come close to being as cute as Wolfram was*
Wolfram - *continues to smile at him, and has to try really hard not to start laughing at him again/glances at him curiously when he nibbles on his pinky finger, but doesn't pull his hand away or question him at all/thinks it's cute*
Yuuri - *nibbles a little more before kissing the tip of his finger/slowly places little kisses down the side of his hand, gently pulling him a little closer as he started to trail his lips past his wrist and up his arm*
Wolfram - *giggles a little more at his adorable-ness, watching him intently*
Yuuri - *pulls him just a little closer to continue up his arm, though still laying with his back against the mattress/slides his other hand up along Wolfram's waist*
Wolfram - *continues to watch him, perfectly content in letting him do whatever he wanted/he likes the attention anyway*
Yuuri - *pauses for a small moment, closing his eyes as he placed little kisses along his arm some more, trailing back down to his wrist/grips a little to the fabric at the blond's waist with his other hand, but soon releases it, moving his hand back down to slide up under the fabric to rest his hand along his waist again*
Wolfram - *can't help but giggle another time/there was his obsession again/pets at Yuuri's hair some to make up for his light laughing*
Yuuri - *slowly opens one eye to watch him, still wondering what was so funny.../pulls the blond's arm away from his lips, letting it go before pushing himself to sit up on the bed, watching him carefully*
Wolfram - *looks up at Yuuri curiously as he sits* "What is it...?" *hopes his laughing and giggling hadn't offended him or whatever/he'd only been doing it because he was so gosh darned adorable*
Yuuri - *raises an eyebrow at him curiously* "Hold up your arms..." *grumbles lightly about how he didn't understand what he was laughing about.../he was more confused than upset about it, though...*
Wolfram - *his curious look remains, but he does as he's told and raises his arms*
Yuuri - *grins in slight amusement as he did what he told him to/moves to sit facing him, though first making sure they weren't in danger of falling off the bed into the stupid pool of water/slowly reaches out his hands to take hold of the hem of the shirt, carefully tugging it up and over Wolfram's head, balling it up and tossing it to a dry area of the room*
Wolfram - *blushes a little as his shirt is removed, but doesn't complain at all* "Yuuri...?"
Yuuri - *smiles innocently at him as he slid his hands to rest along Wolfram's waist again* "Yes...?"
Wolfram - *forces his blush away - it's not like Yuuri's never seen him without a shirt on anyway/smiles at him again, returning to his former playful mood* "What are you doing...?"
Yuuri - *keeps the amused grin on his face/well... since he was so curious about it...* "I'm taking off your clothes, of course..."
Wolfram - *can't help but blush just a little again, but his smile stays on his face as well/teases him* "Why...?"
Yuuri - *shrugs lightly, trying to be nonchalant about it* "Because they're in the way..." *slowly lowers his hands down to the waistband of Wolfram's pants as he spoke, fiddling with it for a moment before sliding one hand along the edge to the button in front*