i'm shaking.  i'm hungry.  i can't think.  i want to ingest drugs and alcohol and i want to not feel anything or think or cry or work or see.  but i don't know what to do.  i can't seem to do anything all of a sudden.  i really want to talk.  i wish we could talk.  i wish i could feel good enough again.  where did it go?  that feeling..  so ( Read more... )

my kitties are beautiful and cute.   except when i'm freshly out of the shower and they claw me while i'm still unclothed.  haha!  oww.    OK.  But now I'm going to get dressed and go see some hot glass and cool art. haha.  word.

So here I am.  Loverless again.  Ha!  It was deffinately in the works.  I just wish I didn't feel like such a fool.  I may have been played.  But more likely I was just really dense and idealistic.  I think she was right.  I think he was right when he said it too.  I am a better person then he is.  At least he knows it.  On the one hand I am sad, ( Read more... )

what do i have to post about anyways?
I'm in school and i work so much that i don't have time to do my homework.  Well, OK!  Maybe I do, but I would rather read good books and say hi to my friends.  Fuck math.  What good is it ever going to do me to know how to simplify a rational expression?  Fuck!

Emotions with Murphy are up and down.   I have low ( Read more... )

Just finished reading a great book.  Two actually.  But the one that has perhaps changed my current life perspective is call "Skinny Legs and All" by Tom Robbins.  It is totally great and hilarious.  And the ending spoke to me deeply.  It was primarily concerned with humanity's false perceptions I guess.   And anyways I just had this thought about ( Read more... )

a super star in your own private movie
i wanted just a minor part
i'm no fool
i know you're cool
i never really wanted your heart

Is it possible to die from math overload ( Read more... )

    This evening as I boxed peoples' leftovers up and chatted with them I was invited by one table to come down to the Tacoma Dome Jehoviah Witness Convention and later by another table to their weekly drum circle in the park.  Guess which one was the more appealing offer?  Not that I really have anything big against the J-Dubs, but the drum circle ( Read more... )

i just gourged myself on jack in the box.  
mmmm....

nothing is as simple as it should be, is it?
there are always mazes within mazes within pinball machines.
and in case this analogy is too thick for you, i am the pinball.  
i am the pinball.
yes.

Thank God classes are officially over for me tomorrow morning.  Just one final left.  OK!  Well I also have to wake up early and write one last extra credit essay.  I can't not put every effort into not getting a bad grade.  Last minute style.  I slacked too much this quarter.  Hey man, going to school full time all year long is way hard.  You know ( Read more... )