SPN Fic: a light to lead you home

[coyotesuspect]

Title: a light to lead you home
Fandom: Supernatural
Summary: Two months after Dean makes his deal, he and Sam go investigate a haunted lighthouse. In Iowa. S3 casefile. Sam/Dean
Rating: R
Spoilers/Warnings: Spoilers through early S3; incest.
Word Count: ~6,900
Notes: Incredibly late fic for yanyann  at the

Comments

[cherie_morte]

Coyotteeee. How do you always do it?

I love, love, love fic set in this time period because it's such an interesting, desperate moment in their relationship and we didn't get to explore it as much as we should have thanks to the writer's strike. You captured everything about why this period is so interesting--poor, poor, desperate Sam and Dean trying to make up for it and all the childish games they play because it's familiar and comfortable but laced with all the sadness that they know they have to make it last.

Your banter is so perfect and the Impala-is-home jokes are so fucking precious ESPECIALLY snice SAM is the one who kept making them.

OMG, just yes. And you already know about how I felt about some of these lines because I told you, but this one bears repeating:

Sam holding onto Dean with the fear of losing him and Dean clinging to Sam with the relief of keeping him

[coyotesuspect]

I love, love, love fic set in this time period because it's such an interesting, desperate moment in their relationship and we didn't get to explore it as much as we should have thanks to the writer's strike.

*g* That's exactly why I love writing fic set in this time period. Because there's so much to explore that the writers didn't get a chance to. And because S3 Sam is my favorite Sam ever, with the possible exception of S5 Sam (who is, as we know, perfection, and it is hard to compete with that).

I'm really happy to hear the banter is perfect. :D The banter's so much fun to write, but it's also really important to get write, because that's how Sam and Dean communicate through either a) banter, b) soulful gazes, or c) their fists ):

I HAVE BEEN TRYING TO WORK SCOOBY DOO DIALOGUE INTO A FIC FOREVER. >D YAY FOR SCARING CATS. And you called that it was a hoax before I did. I didn't even realize it till I was 3/4 done with the fic.

I LOVE YOU SO MUCH.

[scorpiod1]

God, Coy. This is so fucking fabulous. You got their voices down, and Dean, I could hear him. And I love the banter, how them it is and Sam and Dean joking but there's all this pain and desperation underneath that humor that's just heartbreaking to me. *wibbles*

And that scene I commented on earlier, when Dean isn't sure how put in words their relationship? So perfect and beautiful. And I love that moment towards the end, with Sam sitting cross-legged, I could see it happening. And Dean not approving but not wanting to start the day with arguement? *draws hearts*

The ending just kills me. It's so Sam and it hurts me that he tore the picture into pieces but I get why and then it breaks my heart because we know what happened. And god, the last line.

He tosses the squares out the window, and they flutter away, into the dust and the sky of the road behind them.

That's beautiful.

One very minor typo:

clock reads 11:13, and Dean realizes then that Sam’s let him sleep himI think you mean "sleep in

[cherie_morte]

Hee hee. I think she meant "sleep inside him" >:D

[coyotesuspect]

>( CHECK THE RATING. THERE ARE NO PORNZ HERE.

[cherie_morte]

THERE IS SAM AND THERE IS DEAN. THEREFORE, THERE IS PORNZ.

[auroraprimavera]

EEEEEEEEEEEEEEE - LOVE THIS

God, this is such a different but equally desperate time in their lives - just like the later seasons - but, better. I love that you set it in this time and just - guh. Lovely.

*hugs boys*

[coyotesuspect]

I love this time period. Season 3 is my favorite, and I'll always feel cheated that we didn't get more of it. But you're right, it's such a desperate time in their lives, like in the later seasons, but it's a much more intimate desperation. It's not the world that's at stake, but each other.

*hugs you* Thank you so much bb; I'm so glad you enjoyed it!

[auroraprimavera]

...it's a much more intimate desperation. It's not the world that's at stake, but each other.

Exactly!

[keerawa]

Mmmm, gorgeous. The casual pushing and shoving between the boys, Dean trying to save people with his ten months, Sam only trying to save him. That photograph torn into fours and fluttering on the wind.

[coyotesuspect]

Eek. Thank you! :D And I was trying hard to capture the push and shove between the boys, so I'm so glad that came across.

[zempasuchil]

Sam's single-mindedness is really incredible here. Somehow you do the best things with it - that last scene!! - and it's uplifting and hopeful and scary and even ruthless at the same time.

THEIR VOICES :DDD and being such kids! they are so great at bickering and teasing each other! and the best wavering between brotherly love and something closer, more clinging, more claustrophobic - gosh, I forgot about all those emotions of S3! this fic has given me cravings for it. Sam sticking close to Dean like a puppy eeee <3333 and Dean not saying yes to him, but when the lady calls them a couple he doesn't even blink, just smiles through, even though Sam who's been gets skittish.

The way they are about all this, saying yes and no, pushing and pulling, clinging and then not saying anything - it's so very very real! so this part was I think my favorite:
“Your brother?” she says

[coyotesuspect]

Sam's single-mindedness is one of my top 3 favorite things about him (and I love pretty much everything about Sam, so....) And I love it because it's all those things you mentioned; Sam is scary when he's determined like that, but there's also something tragic and beautiful. So. Yes. ANYWAY. I'm so incredibly happy that Sam's characterization worked for you here