Brandon and I had the best conversation in the whole world. We talked about why I do some of the things that I do. It was amazing! I was 110% open and honest. It was like I was having a conversation with one of my girl friends. He sat back and listen and said, I completely understand. He didn't try and judge me, he didn't try and assume that he ( Read more... )

You know me...when things get rough or I'm feeling down I tend to run. That's right, I think I'm moving to Ashland, Oregon. I'm going there is weekend to check out the town and college and see if it's right for me. But they have a ton of community theater and it's nice and small and there's an Oregon State college in the town. I've got room ( Read more... )

So the evening with Brandon was nice but not the picker upper I needed. Brandon is dating someone. Although he did kiss me, but heck all guys kiss me when they have girlfriends so I guess it doesn't fucking mean anything...right ( Read more... )

I have officially declared myself clinically depressed.
Prescription: one evening with Brandon...hope it works

Okay so it's 5 in the morning and I can't sleep. After calling Fernando and being hung up on since I woke him up at 5 in the morning "for that", I've decided...I'm going to make some lemonade!

As if buying embarrassing things once isn't enough. But buying defective things and do the debate is REALLY embarrassing...do I take it back? Do I complain? Do I just buy another one?

My life is good. I have my own place, my education is going great (I have an AA and working on a BA), I have a not too stressful job that pays me well and appreciates me...yet, I still know something is missing...what???

Fernando and I talked today about what went wrong in our relationship. I cried like no tomorrow! It was a really hard conversation to have. I've loved him more than I've loved anyone I've dated and knowing that those feelings went to waste because we both couldn't communicate is hard. He talked about how he was always jealous of me when I hung out ( Read more... )

I am nursing myself back into the world of the living. I am in major pain...hang overs are the pits!! I've had tons of water already, I've thrown up a little (liquor coming up sucks) and I just ate something...make the spinning stooooop!

I have HAD IT! It is soooo over with Fernando. He can not be my friend any more. He doesn't deserve my friendship. Tonight he told me he'd be my designated driver so I got REALLY drunk. Guess who said he couldn't do it when I called at 3:50am...big surprise, FERNANDO. He put both me and the person I was with at risk. That is completely ( Read more... )