yeah, no.

"Help, I'm alive, my heart keeps beating like a hammer
Hard to be soft
Tough to be tender."
-Metric

but god, part of me felt so happy just to be within talking distance, even though every word I felt compelled to say stayed stuck in my throat. I just washed them down with beer, and then I watched you leave.

"I can't get started from the part
Where I left off yesterday
Shoulda spent my time a little wiser

I sat alone guilty as sin
Waiting for words to come
From out of my head
Still making sense to anyone

I can't wait to understand the reason
I've yet to translate any meaning besides
It's not worth it to try

Get out."

"Things can't be the same, can they?"

"Dude...Things never were the same. Change is...it's what we get.
I guess that's my problem- I'm always trying to beat the clock, outrun the universe...
Like nothing can change me as long as I change first.
I feel like I'm in this river, just getting swept along... And if I hold on to anyone, if I'm holding on for ( Read more... )

It took me a while to find sleep after that- or sleep to find me, I’ve never been quite sure of which direction that goes, all I know is that we’ve had a lot of trouble finding eachother the past few months. Somehow we met and my eyes closed and opened soon after to sunlight.

I drove the six hours back home.

"I hate the way you talk to me, and the way you cut your hair ( Read more... )

"I might never catch a mouse and present it in my mouth
to make you feel you're with someone who deserves to be with you"

“I come in here and I sit in silence and hear the echoes of who we used to be, and so I wish for patience, and grace, and the strength to just let him be happy. Mostly, I pray for the strength to not make his life worse because of what I want. That’s the toughest part, letting go, you know? That’s the part of grace that just really sucks.”

I woke up pretty easily today ( Read more... )