I arrived in NC sunday night its been a while since i wrote in this .. things that are going on .. well.... im co heading rage with bud Lane (adrenaline division) everything but my storylines ...he makes mine up I refuse to do so because Im helping and i dont want to look like im putting myself over if bud thinks I deserve something then its on ( Read more... )

fuck life .. fuck this stife ... feel like all i wanna do is grab the knife ( Read more... )

What u though was real in life has somehow steered u wrong ( Read more... )

There may not be much rest and relaxation as you face your work-related responsibilities. Perhaps you'll also find yourself taking care of home-oriented details or caring for a loved one. No matter what tasks come before you, prioritize them to make time for your own interests. You may be onto something bigger than your daily chores and if you don' ( Read more... )

So a current promotion i work for is firing me then telling please keep this a secret .... so that they dont lose fan drawl.... I am supposed to lie for the same people that fired me .. get get .. real ... or get get crazy .. no u have to be stupid to think that i would help them after that ,, hell no ... Zac conners specifiaccly threatened that if ( Read more... )

Well we left at 3 am fri morning ... to go to NC .... now I had a great time ,,, but u know great times come also with ... bad times ... yeah thats right bad times .... ok so we get there at 930 ish the girls are in school momz is at work and her nephew is sound asleep.. we passout in car ... one oclock he opens the door and lets us in ... the ( Read more... )

kinda worried if i quit wrestling ur intrest will go away .... but if thats the case ... then i understand im not feeling very talented or political .. emotional wreck more like it ... this shit wit dcw has gotten to me ... maybe there is a reason i was run off .. maybe people are right maybe i dont belong ...................but then i think ( Read more... )

this weekend i am going to contenplete wether to go ahead as planned with my dreamz ......or let them go not sure i have what it takes..lemme repfrashe that Not sure i want to give what it takes to do this .. since my home fed has abondend me .. I kinda feel lost .. like wtf .. I know i Have friends and i know that alot of people care .... but ( Read more... )

stand up for what u beilve in or its worth nothing are words that echo in my head ....... Feel like im being pulled in two different directions im trusting my boy bud on this more than he knows .... Its werd how i can draw; strenth from certian freinds .. Casey,Jenny,Britt,BUD , el torro and wylde are my people that i can do this with its ( Read more... )

so i get an email from a friend saying some confusing things ... im really upset and i dont know whatthe hell is going on .. but i hope everything is ok .. I dont pray much but im praying tonight that everything is on point with her. Damn .. her friendship means alot ... and granted we have to go through some shit ... her friendship is worth it to