Comments | crazy_good_bass: so...update?

crazy_good_bass

so...update?

Apr 10, 2007 20:37

I honestly do miss high school ( Read more... )

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deganwy_ellyn April 12 2007, 17:45:10 UTC

I love you so much. Sometimes I just want to punch myself for letting you be so far away. I don't know what to do though. I miss high school too. When we were all together, not miles and miles and WORLDS apart. I want to jump in the ocean with you again, and feel like the whole town belongs to us, simply because it's dark and no one can see that we're naked.
I had a dream recently. We were all back together. We lived like we'd meant to so long ago and sang and wrote and painted and drew and played whatever we played.

crazy_good_bass April 13 2007, 15:14:17 UTC

ellen im crying i want that so bad!!!!!!!

i want to live in a cabin in a beautiful warm, green forest, and garden our food and spend the days making beautiful things with my two best friends and sisters, like music and drawings and stories and poetry, and have adventures in the woods like were young and playing pretend again

i think the "real world" is too harsh for me. i kinda want to come home and forget college. this is so hard. i love you.

deganwy_ellyn April 13 2007, 15:36:54 UTC

I'm not going to say "LEAVE SCHOOL!" but perhaps you really do need to think about what's best for you. It recently dawned on me, that no matter how good or bad my grades are here, graduate school is out of the question. It's just not ME. But engineering isn't something you can just run with after undergrad. I honestly think that you really need sit down, talk to someone about you dreams, your goals, and your desires and figure how to make them HAPPEN. It's a very long process, and not one that should be attempted with quite so many distractions as are at school. So hang on for another month or so, then come home to me, at least for a few days, and I will be your shoulder to cry on, your open mind, and your logic monster (because actual possibility is highly important ( ... )