so right now im sitting here, smoking a cigarette. dave and kim are in the other room. im very bored. and alone. sitting here listening to pink floyd... im waiting for my mom to get here so i can go to the mall with Carolyn. oh joy. yeah um i tried to get my journal to look cool but fuck it. its just pissing me off. uhhh yeah...

blind to the answers, find yourself ( Read more... )

I guess this time you're really leaving ( Read more... )

Okay this song really explains saturday night with Josh at erins house....Not like any of you know what happened but if u read the lyrics, you might use your imagination and take a guess. Especially the part where i put it under bold letters ( Read more... )

Well I was talking to Emily today and she said she was on the bus yesterday talking to bryan and he said the reason he doesnt think it'd work out between us is because im too emotional.. which i GUESS is true. considering the fact i was crying infront of him cuz he said he didnt wanna go out with me a few weeks ago cuz he had problems. well ( Read more... )

today was a bad fucking day as usual. i tried talking to bryan but he pretty much ignored me... its just not the same between us anymore. i dont know what happened.. but he really hurts my feelings. i saw him as someone i could get serious about. he was a good person to talk to when i was down.. i just hate how shit changes. but most of all i hate ( Read more... )

Well all I've said in my last entry was fake. It turns out Josh and Rob (erin's ex) were plotting against erin and I.. as in "We're gonna milk em for all they got and cause them to kill themselves.".. Isn't that fucking nice? That's exactly why Josh was being so nice to me and asking me to go the movies and mall with him. He said the whole reason ( Read more... )

Well I guess Josh and I are friends again. Surprisingly he asked me to go to the mall the other day so I went and we spent all day there and saw 2 movies...and then today we went to the mall again n just chilled. I'm glad were hanging out again. He's still the crazy ass Josh I remember. That's what attracts me to him.. damn i love that boy so much ( Read more... )

Well today was interesting.. Ummm last night me and Ian actually got in a fight and I told him I dont want to be friends anymore, well today he came over Erins and I didnt talk to him for a whole hour! wow. Then I started to cry, gave him a hug, and we made up.. because he told me Im a good friend and he doesnt wanna lose me. *aww* Anyway Yeah Im ( Read more... )

ok this is what I want everyone to do. Name one thing you like about me, anything at all...DONT BE SHY! and then name one thing that you wish would change.

thanks :)