My Heart Hurts... So much...
anonymous
May 15 2005, 22:34:02 UTC
It still hurts so much... I still lay awake at night wondering where I went wrong, and how much it hurt to find out that I was just a part of some plan to hurt her. It still hurts so much... I dont want to be mad at you, I dont want to not like you, and not be around you. I dont want to be a danielle, I dont want to be just the girl that passed through because it was convenient. I dont want to feel used, and I do. And it pains me so much. Vinny laughs at me, saying it was so funny that in the end I got used. Lars just looks at me sorrowfully every time I see him, as though I killed a part of him, and maybe I did. The only thing that keeps me going is people like Hunter telling me that he knows im not just some slut, that I am a good person, and people like Trevor who tells me that I dont deserve to be told some of those things. That Im better then that. Do I need reassurance, yes. Do I need the attention, yes. And I will for a long time. Granted I got angry, but it was all I could do not to just let a part of myself die and
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Anyway I really hope your doing alright, and that Jewlery is going well. What you doing for your reliquary?
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- tinkerbell.
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