Got internet. It's free, I can get on anytime and use it as much as I want. Nevermind the fact it is mindnumbingly slow. Matt is happy.

Still looking for something to do this evening, so go ahead, screw fear of rejection! Comment me with your number, (privately if you can.) and I'll get back to you around 6- 6:30ish so we can do something. Megan especially. Yes, I just called you out. Don't think too hard, I know it's out of nowhere. I've got a jones for a three digit IQ ok? Sheesh ( Read more... )

Got my car back today. Hell yeah! Social life, where are you? I'm trying to build a new one, since I got sick of the low standard one. Help me out. If I profess love for you, I'm not kidding, so hang out with this poor fuck ok? My friends have been too stupid for too long. Help me out. Start training at work on Monday, so I'm wanting to do ( Read more... )

I feel good this morning! I feel like parts of my head that have been dusty for too long are clicking into place and I feel more alive than I have in some time. Watched the sun come up playing guitar... What a spiritual experience that was. It was cool and slightly breezy and I could feel the temperature rise by the minute, and the birds started ( Read more... )

Sat around the house all day, I don't know.... Surfed the internet alot, watched some porn, scouted out bars in Indy to go to when I turn 21... Thought about what friends I'd invite... Thought about how I'm gonna drag myself up out of this less than mediocre state I've been floating around in for about 3 years now. Glanced at Time Enough For Love a ( Read more... )

I'm tired. I'm lonely. I want a bottle of beanblossom blush, and a joint. I have neither. I want a girlfriend with a high IQ and a monster libido. I don't have that either, and I don't see myself being so lucky. I want lots of things. I want to bitch about it. I want somebody to give a care, other than me, and I want it to be genuine. I want to ( Read more... )

I want to be a rockstar... But my secret ambition is to be a something a little more like Elliott Smith.... Acoustic beats electric any day. Wow, you know, I could do so much, and I let things hold me back that I shouldn't... Even love can hold you back you know? Which is reeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeaally depressing.

Oh... By the way... Sean is still alive, for now.... Suicidal people fucking piss me off. Took my favorite musician, takes peoples loved ones all the time, and halts a journey that people should make naturally.

Washed dishes for another 8 hours today... Oh the bliss! On Saturday, I'm so lucky, I get to sling salad for 8 hours, and then wash dishes for 8! 16 hours of joy for Matt! But really, life is good. I have a job now, and no longer feel like a waste of space bum, which is good. The girl situation is getting slowly better, although I'm pretty much ( Read more... )

Got up at 1 o'clock, had a beer, then another beer, then decided to order some food from the dairy bar about 3 o'clock, after they fucked up my order and charged me too much, (I had no time to argue with them cause I had to get ready for work and time was getting short) I came home scarfed my meal, had another beer, and headed to work, where I ( Read more... )