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[crazyma]

Back to real life today. Except I'm a different person. Call insurance, clean house, call irs, clean house, call landlord with sob story, clean house, pick up kids, reassure man that I've never had to reassure before, go to that freakin' job. Try to resist the pressure from both sides that I have to make a decision right now. As if I could

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[zjande]

I know, I hear you, I feel you, I'm SO there with you!! ALL of it, the distraction, the fear, the frustration, the confusion, the questions, the guilt, the what ifs, the crying, even right down to the sob story to the landlord & the insurance call, ha! But in the midst of this is all there IS goodness. You are growing, you're learning more & more about yourself & the possibilities & your potential everyday. You're learning more about love & honesty & joy & choices. I hope everything gets better & clearer for you!

[msmadrigal]

First of all, Zjande I love you! I really do.

Second, crazyma you know I am right there with you. I am honored that you are sharing this with me. I wish I had some answers, but you know that I am in a very similar boat with no clue where I am going or how to get there. Honestly. Next week when I get back from the gathering we must meet for a drink or at my dad's place on the river. Bring C if ya want. And remember, it is less than two weeks till Ani!!!

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[zjande]

Damnit, I wanted to make a goofy joke about us all boating around in similar boats but I'm too freaking tired to think straight, Ha!

Here's my whiny addition to this comment space: Iiiiiii want to have drinks with you down by the river! Iiiiiiii wanna meet the lovely C! Iiiiiiiii wanna see Ani with youooooooo!!!!!!!

Iiiiiiiii wanna commiseration session in person that includes drinks & rivers & smart girls!

And on the topic at hand....

I know that if my husband HADN't have had such a tough time with my poly ways, I wouldn't be who I am. I've had to do SO much work on my honest communication, "getting in touch with my true feelings", clarifying my views & points over & over & over to him & to myself, & done much soul searching. I've really had to analyze myself & my choices & choose as wisely as possible, y'know? As FuCKinG difficult & awful as times have been, I've come an awful long way in my self awareness & understanding & honesty & all that jazzy-ness. That's a positive aspect of this challenging journey......

[zjande]

Oh yeah, and I love you too msmadrigal!! :)