im actually pretty happy right now. but this song hits me where it counts ( Read more... )

hmnnn...i hate when shit changes all the time. the way shit works, the way people act. i dont get it. i wish things would just stay the way they are sometimes. Im bored with things now. some people that i absolutely adore dont want anything to do with me any more. They say that they do but they dont. They dont return texts or phone calls. but ( Read more... )

theres been alotta talk about life around me lately. and in all seriousness, as boring as it is at times, i am totally content with my life right now. I am eager to get out and do the things that i've always dreamed of doing. to truly live the life that i have always wanted to, and soon i will be able to. I cant fucking wait. i love everyone that i ( Read more... )

whatever. That is my exact state of mind right now. my constant reaching out to help, and all my concerns just go ignored and unappreciated so...whatever.i dont give a fuck. u aren't the same person, i miss her soo much. but she's dead, and i will grieve but whatever. go on with your life. live it however the fuck you see fit. Wow, i am really sad ( Read more... )

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Its almost three AM, im dirty, unbathed, unshaven, tired, smell of gasoline and hooka tobacco and im completly happy. These are the nights that I live for. I lied when i said theres no better moment than having fun drunk...cuz its a million times better when you can find happiness while sober. The day today started off slow and boring, i slept off ( Read more... )

I am constantly being torn in two. my hopes and ambitions one direction my reality another. I want so bad to be able to give up on these people by my heart cant seem to let go. I wonder if there are truly any sincere people on earth. I cant wait for someone to read this and prove my point by slapping on a label of 'emo' or some other rediculous ( Read more... )

im going fucking insane. I want to hit something. I want to just destroy everything in my way. Im sick of everything. i try so fucking hard to just be happy. But it doesnt happen. I have soo much fucking pent up anger. My brain doesnt work the way i want it to. i always second guess myself. i do nothing that makes me happy. i dont know what i want ( Read more... )

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Yea so i was doing alot of thinking at work today...considering that thats all i ever have to do other than work because i work in a shop with 3 asians that will hardly hold any kind of conversation and some 50+ year old schmuck that amazes me how fucking stupid an engineer truly can be. But anyways..ive been thinkin alot about the way shit has ( Read more... )