i'm sitting in syd's apartment, hangin out with carmen miranda/ chiquita/ molly/ my pussy/ syd's cat. why is it that so many fabulous women i know in this city are dating men in other cities? i miss rex. it's all i can do not to drunkenly buy a plane ticket down there... it's only $79! and it's the weekend i would go down anyways. and if all else ( Read more... )

thirty one years ago this weekend my mom moved to nyc. she was 25 years old. she was following her dream of getting out of nebraska and working in theater. i can't help but think that at this time next year i might be leaving new york, something i once said i would probably never do. it's funny how things can change like that ( Read more... )

all i want in life is a bagel ( Read more... )

nick--

i can't begin to tell you how incredibly proud of you i am.

three years ago, when we dated, i was the happiest i've ever been. i didn't want anything to change. we both know how that turned out. seeing you last year was so hard for me because you were in such a bad state... it killed me to see you like that. i knew there was nothing i could do ( Read more... )

it's strange to come home to my parents' house, to the room with the shelf that holds my memories.

a dashboard hula dancer from when i drove my car far and fast
a pair of fuzzy dice from an ice show
my high school diploma, bound in hunter green, lined in golden satin
a gaudy silver frame holding a photo of my first "love," good friend, and frequent ( Read more... )

michael jackson died today ( Read more... )

10. i am in the midst of a full-on mono relapse. needless to say, it sucks. i've been asleep since wednesday. it's now sunday ( Read more... )

10. finals suck ( Read more... )

i'm sitting again in what i've dubbed the finals room in a city where it's been raining for days and i love the grind just the same. i'm reflecting on the fact that three years ago i came home from penn state with mono, done with finals and the whole psu shebang. unbeknownst to me, it was also the day my best friend went to penn state to my ex ( Read more... )

one paper down, two to go. i'm like two months behind on my papers and sleep and social life. it's sad. and i strangely don't really care. but nonetheless, i'm going through the motions to get it back ( Read more... )