Seeing you-07/07
Title: Seeing you-07/07
Author:cream4me
Genre: angst, male/male bad attempt at humor
Band: SHINee
Pairing: Broken!JongKey, 2min, OnKey, JongKyun
Overall Rating: R for strong crude language
Disclaimer: I own them when I don't take my meds......
Summary: Key tried to mend his broken heart…with a little help from the ever helpful Leader(summaries suck nubs)
When I get back home nobody is up which I am very grateful for. It’s a rare Saturday where everyone is off and they are most likely out enjoying the break. I go to take a shower not wanting anybody, especially Kibum to smell the sex still lingering on my body. Unfortunately though when I enter our room I see Kibum is still sleeping…On my bed.
Shit
As quietly as possible I get my things and all but run out the room. Nearly avoiding colliding with Kibum’s extensive accessories.
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When I get out I notice food is being made and I know that he’s up. After I get dressed I go out to face the music.
“Where were you last night? I waited up all night for you.” he said holding the infamous spatula.
“I-I was with a friend.” I say nervously.
He gives me that ‘Mmm hmm’ face and crosses his arms.
“Who were you with?”
“Joon.”
“Wow…with that attention grabbing whore.” he says rolling his eyes.
“Yah! Don’t talk about him like that. And why do you care? You didn’t seem to care when you were all over Jonghyun last night.”
I never meant to bring that up but having him grill me was pissing me off. Damn my emotions.
“All over Jonghyun? Are you fucking serious? I was comforting him because him and SeKyung broke up last night.”
“What?”
“Yeah jackass. Next time how about you come to me before assuming shit ok? Now sit down and eat.”
They broke up? Why didn’t we hear about this yesterday?
“I’m sorry Kibum. I was just…so mad yesterday seeing you with him. I just thought--”
“Yea well you thought wrong. I’d have to be a real idiot to go back to him. But don’t think I don’t know about Joon.”
Oh shit
“W-what are you t-talking a-about?”
“I know he’s been after you since you confessed to me. I know he wants you. And judging by your reaction I know you slept with him. Didn’t you.” he says softly.
“Ki-
“Didn’t you.”
“Yes.”
He doesn’t say anything but goes back to eating. It’s quiet for awhile and neither of us say anything.
“I also know about you sleeping with Taemin and Minho the other night.” he says, picking at food, still not looking at me.
I drop my spoon with my mouth wide open. How did he find out about that? It’s not like one of them would have said anything.
“I went to ask you why you were treating me different and avoiding me and I heard Taemin. Then I saw you…fucking him. I figured that’s why you were avoiding me.” he’s says, tearing falling silently from his eyes.
“Bummie I’m sorry.”
“Yeah…I am too.” he says and leaves but I can’t let him. I won’t let him walk away from me.
“Don’t.”
“Let me go hyung.”
“No. You don’t call me that. It’s Jinki. You can only call me Jinki you got that Bummie.” I say as I bring him close to me. He fights me but it only makes me hold on to him tighter.
“I’m not gonna let you go Kibum. Never. I love you.”
“Yeah you love me so much that you go and fuck Taemin and Joon. Maybe I should fuck Jonghyun to show how much I love you huh?”
“Please don’t. It was never my intention to sleep with them. They saw how frustrated I’ve been lately and invited me to their bed. Yes I could have said no but I have needs too Kibum. And you can’t expect me to wait on you forever. As much as I love you I know that you will never love me the same way. And I deserve to be happy, just like you do. And if that means I’ll be happy with Joon or anybody else then I’m going to take it.
“But you can’t do that.”
“Did you just hear what I said? I know you don’t love me Kibum. I’ve accepted it…a long time ago. Even after we had that little talk, I knew you were just going to go back to treating me the way you always do. You were just confused.
“Don’t tell me that I’m confused!” he yells as he pushes me back.
“You don’t know what I was going to decide. You just assumed. And once again you’re wrong. I do love you Lee Jinki. Seeing you with Taemin and knowing you were with Joon killed me. I don’t want you with anybody else but me. I need you. You’re the only person that makes me feel better. The only person that can tell what I’m feeling without me ever having to say a word. You were there when I had no one. You can’t be with anyone else. I won’t let you. You belong to me.” he says dropping to the floor crying.
And I can’t help but smile. Leave it to Kibum to give such a childish confession and then basically telling me that it’s him or no one.
“Bummie please don’t cry because of me.”
“J-just leave me alone! I don’t want to look at you. I hate you Lee Jinki!”
“Hate me? You just said you loved me. You weren’t lying were you?” I say lifting his face to meet his gaze.
“I hope not…Because I love you, and you can’t be with anybody else. I won’t let you.” And I kiss him.
It was unlike any other kiss I’d ever had. So sweet and gentle that I even doubted we were touching. But we were. I could feel his soft lips against mine. I could feel his tears still falling from his eyes. I could feel him gripping onto me as if his life depended on it.
And I never want him to let go.
Because I’m afraid this moment will disappear and I’ll wake up from this dream.
“Kim Kibum…I love you…Please don’t ever let me go.”
A/N: It ended kinda abruptly but that's what epilogues are for