} 006 - [VIDEO] - nothing good can possibly come of this

[creatingalegacy]

[FILTER: to all wardens except her own. Sorry, Molly.]

I know I'm not very social, but I've become a little curious. How many of you were once inmates here?

[Amanda's sitting in a chair, legs crossed and hands laced together. She wears an expression of genuine, careful thoughfulness, and speaks as if a little humbled.]

To those of you who were, what

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[namorofthesea]

I was an inmate. I simply slowly realized that frequently the results of my anger did less to aid me than when I maintained control of myself. Also, I realized I was hurting as many people who didn't wrong me as those who did. I think it was being consistently around the same people. I was able to see how my actions effected them in a way I couldn't when I would trash New York and return to the ocean.

[creatingalegacy]

[Amanda has NO idea what he's on about with returning to the ocean and trashing NY. But that's okay! She's only interested in the other stuff he had to say.]

I see. Thank you for your insight.

[christ_onabike]

I was.

And... that's a difficult fucking question. I'd say it's a process. You gotta realise the shit you've done isn't right, then you've gotta realise you've got another option. Then you've gotta realise that there's certain shit which drove you to that position - and gotta deal with that so you're not driven there again. Also helps if somewhere in there you realise there's consequences to your actions.

I... hope that makes some sense.

[creatingalegacy]

I always knew there was another option...just not how to stick with it.

It makes perfect sense. Thank you.

[christ_onabike]

That's where a good warden comes in, y'know. It also helps to have a damn good reason to want to graduate. Like people or stuff to go home to.

Grand, I hoped it did.

[creatingalegacy]

[Ignoring the 'good warden' bit...]

I don't know if there's anything left to go back to.

[She doesn't know if John's still alive or not; he isn't.]

[fanged_aleera]

It was not deliberate... I had come to realisations upon the one who made me as I am. Toshiko, she was my guide at this time. She told me of suspicions that there was something preventing my leaving this place. My graduation, yes?

These feelings over my maker... I felt need to write him letter. Letter he could not read. But letter, all the same. Within it, I told him of these feelings.

And I said my goodbyes.

This was what I needed. Acceptance that the past no more held claim over me. The clarity to know I was within a cage not understood before.

But I needed to look deep within myself before this came to pass, lady. It took much time.

[creatingalegacy]

Acceptance of freedom from my past. I'll be sure to keep that in mind this time.

Thank you.

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[emptyyourself]

I was an inmate.

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[creatingalegacy]

So what did it take for you?

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[emptyyourself]

A letter.

It was...both a process and a sudden epiphany, I suppose.

You're an inmate, I take it.

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[creatingalegacy]

Yes, I am.