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I don't understand this...I mean, I could have controlled telling her, but how does someone control who they fall in love with?
I knew from the very start that there'd be no chance with her...I had already decided never to tell her, and to just get over it...and then we became little kids. ...I don't even remember the last time I was that open with anyone, not even Saki. Probably when I was four, come to think of it. But when Saki went into school, and...stuff happened, I developed this habit of hiding what I feel...I mean, not even Saki can tell what I'm feeling when I've got my barriers up...
I suppose I'm just surprised that I hadn't developed this facade at the age of four...It would have made things a lot better. But one cannot change the past unfortunately...
Oh, and Kou? I'm still fine. Really.