i hate me latley, i got really mopey and depressed last night at the moon. sad times. i let him get to me, what an ass. both of us not just him, although he is a major one. ahhhh, i just kept looking around and thinking about how ive never made anyone happy. i feel so emo. im sorry. i want to go swimming, i want my cold to go away, i want him to ( Read more... )

i am sick. my head feels as if it has been compressed, and stuffed into a tiny wooden box. i hurt all over, and i cant go to sleep at night. i can't sleep alone. i bunched my comforter into a cylinder, and at night i pretend like its a person i can hold. i wrap both my arms around it and imagine it has its arms wrapped around me. i hate being alone ( Read more... )

i am moving to baton rouge. i have to key to my new home, in my hands. oh yeah. i will be moving in sometime very very soon. yay for me.

official move in is the 1st but hopefully i can start before then. hooray. it seems as if things are finally going my way.

im coming to br tomorrow to see voabc, recovery period, and hot cross.
who wants to come?

lame ass me ( Read more... )

went to natch. saw bands. had fun.
i got to see all kinds of people, including anne and mb.
meghan and i stayed at adams on friday. it was so hot there. we drove home saturday late.
i <3 zack the rookie ( Read more... )

YAY!!!!!! EOS Fest ( Read more... )

eXpressive: 6/10 ( Read more... )

i went to the moon last night, with travis. after renting movies with meghan.

tonight i am going see garden state again, i will think of the boy who i always seem to be thinking of. i am so sad. i need happy pills. i talked to someone at the moon last night i feel a bit better now at least. better than yesterday at least.

today is beautiful. i was so happy driving to work this morning. i was stopped at a redlight and saw a million tiny lovebugs hovering in the air. it made me smile. the sky looks like florida. a few cloudsspread out against miles of blue sky ( Read more... )