Okay, well I was freaking out a couple of days back, and thankfully my sister came home from Chicago for a visit and we went driving and I spilled my guts to her. Basically I am scared out of my mind when it comes to leaving Amber. And she was the voice of logic and rational. But I'm glad I could talk to her, cause I don't know what I would have ( Read more... )

x. name = Calvin, The Master of Nothing ( Read more... )

Okay, well, bad race. period, end of discussion. it makes me sick just to say that much. okay but i will talk about the reprocussions of that. so i was feeling like crap yesterday because of the race, and the only person i can really open up to is Amber. so obivously i wanted to see her so i could cry on her shoulder. well she was going to a ( Read more... )

Well, if you just look back on my entry before the last, it will say that i chickened out on asking THE question. well not any more, as of now amber and i have been secretly engaged for about 12 hours. i don't want my parents to find out because then becca will find out and then she'll probly flip out. but you must understand, Amber and I are ( Read more... )

The race was awsome, they beat us at the start, and got four seats ahead of us. but they never opened water between them and us. we stuck with them through the Portland bridge, and then caught up with them about 200 meters later going through the rail road bridge. we were bow ball to bow ball for about 500 meters, then my crew pulled ahead and ( Read more... )

Well, I chickened out on asking THE question. Now what am i supposed to do? i guess i can only wait till the next perfect moment to ask. Lord knows there's a million of those.

okay, i am really bored and don't want to do anything else, so i am going to make an attempt at making a survey. it's gonna be dumb. but if you read this journal, respond. cause it serves two purposes, seeing how many people read my journal, and i get a survey out of it ( Read more... )

If Only/I had one time/I'd take you where you wanted to go/If only i/had one wish/I'd want a million trillion life times/that i could spend with you/Falling in love with you/again and again ( Read more... )

Okay, my head feels like it is about to explode, my throat is semi-sore, and today's afternoon was bad. I stayed home from school yesterday because i couldn't get out of my bed because my head hurt so much. and then i went to school today, and for the most part it was a good day. Amber made me happy, and school wasn't a major burden. but i ( Read more... )

Yoda I speak like. Talk like this through entry I will. Good today was. Much thinking this way of talking takes. Early, the seniors were dismissed. With amber i hung out. screw this, that's too hard. but you give me credit for trying. well hanging out with amber was awsome, as usual. then crew kicked butt again. we had a good practice, ( Read more... )